AYE MUNNA EET CHOO
AYE DONCH MUNNA DO KOLIDGE APPREKATIOX
AYAM LOOZING MAI HED
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haha i really dont want to do uni apps! omg save mee meesiam meepok meerebus meepok eeniMEEnimainimo. i want to go back to sewing my cake! haha yes i sew cakes. felt cakes! haha. okay fine i go do uni apps NAO. 1 jan deadline is a farce please. haha and when pris comes back i'll be gone! ): so our baking how how how!!!
aha! i bake NAO i eat NAO she comes back we bake again i eat again! brilliant. and the whole world is going away away away.
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the capacity within me to frivolously fritter time away is astoundingly frightening. and there's this uncoded yearning within me to do something PROPER, something benefitting others, something that will cost me my time, efforts, brainpower, channelled to a cause that's larger than my puny existence.
i've dreamnt about coordinating a whole new food redistribution scheme, shared about the whys and wherefors with cell, maybe now it's time to act upon it. it's easy to push things to when "i'll be free-er", when my life seems less cluttered, less filled with so many things in my planner. but it's going to just be another ride around the entire circumference of the rainbow without realising there's no pitstop.
it's been 18 years. i dont want to be 36 and numbly realise that 18 + 18 is just 36 and the arithmetic progression continues undeterred. i'm scared to even start on it. but i bet David was quaking in his gladiators (which btw are the most unfashionable fashion statement ever) when he faced Goliath. But he went ahead, cause he knew God had his back. and He has mine too (:
