post a levels

It has been exactly a week since I, along with thousands others, heaved a sigh of relief as A levels finally drew to an end. We had been working so hard the past few months for this major episode in our life, that all of a sudden, when we reach the end, I feel abit empty, abit lost. Either way, I suppose it is a good thing that we've done what we set out to do, and now is a new journey for us to choose to take. The first few days of 'freedom' saw some of us catching up on sleep, while others *cough cough, caught up with friends (see the photos below haha). And i guess the general sentiment deep down, was that with the disappearance of exams for at least the next half year, it is time to catch up on dreams and silly things that we had put aside. For some it's sports, maybe to others it's photography, maybe even blogging and using Facebook, comp games, reading, shopping, learning how to cook, well at least the last one applies to me. All of a sudden, you no longer have to rush to that scrunched up piece of timetable to direct your day, everything rests in your own hands - how you spend each day, and your future. 

Let's see. I've been spending the past week on uni applications (done), a trip to malaysia (fun), packing my room (a must) and random stuff on the comp that don't seem to register much on my memory now. frivolous stuff? a sign of regression? maybe intellectually, should we define improvement as keeping our minds busily engaged in academic stuff, research for 'meaningful' purposes, and writing tonnes of essays. yet again, maybe it is finally the time where we can discover ourselves. everyone does it in their own way, i don't know how mine might be, but i suppose time will reveal it to me. i'm going to try to stop using the word bored to describe my situation for the rest of the long long break. perhaps it is better to think of it as having time for yourself. a situation that adults worrying about everything under the sun will be so envious of. a situation that just a few weeks ago, you would have died to be in. 

i'm not sure if this is the common consensus, maybe we all like to do something worthwhile, something of significance to touch others' lives, something that would brand this break productive and meaningful. yet in the search of a job that can bring us financial satisfaction, an internship that will give us a notch ahead the rest in college, a new experience that will not let time just fly pass so quickly, we might just end up getting so caught up in the product once more. the same situation that we went through during A levels' preparation, that we forget to stop and take in the view, to appreciate the friendships that have been with us, and might just disappear in a twinkling of an eye as new paths form, and more often than not diverge. surely we can still meet up, there's facebook, msn, sms, the phone (if any of us actually use it often nowadays), or even the christmas card. but schedules still clash despite this relative freedom. then when will be ever free to invest our time and effort into maintaining friendships and relationships? I suppose when it comes to this point, we must learn to stop finding excuses, and just find the will. 

What's my next 6 months going to look like?i guess guys know the answer. i'm going to start writing my journal again. and i think when that starts, i'll hibernate once again, and stop writing here. no matter how much we like to believe that we can just dump all our emotions and thoughts over here, i still practice selfcensor. though it's always the same people reading the blog. and it just doesn't have that warm feeling, allowing you to scribble in your ugliest handwriting, or draw random pictures. and i dont' like putting photos here. and i believe the blog will still be alive so no worries! im going to practice my piano more regularly now cos it's something that i like but has been put off. ill try to learn how to cook, anyone willing to offer me free cooking lessons or an oven? i am going to read - any suggestions of nice books? and i'm going to enjoy myself, do what i want, not what i'm supposed to be doing, so maybe i wouldn't bother finding a job either.

 maybe it's just me, but i think most importantly, it's the people that count. with so much time, there's no better way to spend it, than with friends you have lost touch with, friends that you want to keep in touch with, and friends that know you would keep in touch with. yup that's all for now. i'm not bored anymore yay!

Pris