i'm so tired. sometimes i feel as though my time is being divided out into infinitesimally small portions and parceled out to various commitments, people and obligations.

Let T be time, where dT is an infinitesimally small segment that doesn't seem to mean much on its own. but oh go ahead and take its summation and this girl sometimes feels like she can never really match up. there's always more she can do, more she can contribute, more she SHOULD contribute.

i'm beginning to see why it's prudent and wise when the Bible teaches that God's expectations should be the only focus of our lives. cause it makes things all the more clearer, with one ultimate focal point as the rest will fall into place on their own. trying to meet the expectations of everyone will really only befuddle and addle our minds even more so.

Lord i give You my heart
i give You my soul
i live for You alone

every breath that i take
every moment i'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

sometimes. i just want the license to be pensive and quiet.