yay so pw op dryrun was yesterday. which was. a whole range of varying emotions. but yay much love goes out to shaway jukie and gabby! for being so on and hardcoring pw for the entire week! (:
but i can't keep a straight face watching the video. i don't even know WHERE to put my face. it's so utterly bimbotic. oh dear D: please say i did not look natural. SAY IT!
haha and jukie and i have random moments of SEEING NO EVIL and thoughts of EUTHANASIA. bad girls we are. D:
sometimes i think i'm afraid of getting hurt or being thought dispensable, that i would rather just distance myself first. then the whole sad cycle just repeats itself. which isn't exactly a recipe for happiness is it?
but i know Someone who wouldn't even leave no matter how far i may stray. only in His embrace in His love and in His grace, that all doubt and uncertainties dissipate. :)
of sea spray kissing the moon
-anne
Testify To Love (Album Version)
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Insights & Reflections
How many times have we conceded that it is only a little difference that we make,
But fail to realise that the moment of hesitation was actually a life at stake
A smile, a word of concern, a listening ear,
That's all it might take to wipe away your friend's silent tear.
Through the sharpest microscopes we have scrutinised the key to life
Yet still we are blinded by our selfish desires, the desire to strive
And for such a 'worthy' cause as many are disillusioned to believe
Trapped in our mad mad world, the awful reality which few have left the time to conceive
True love has grown cold, thorny troubles, envious essence
A display, a facade, which now assumes its presence
99 roses, the boy's matches to melt a girl's heart
Yet who rose up to the challenge to hold true to the end, right from the start
Day break we whine of the school ahead, day end we yawn
Life seems nothing but a race stretching on and on
Somewhere out there a little child gasps for her last breathe
Fortunate people never realise what they already have
It's the little things in life that count
Have you ever wondered about this little dot called the decimal?
If it chooses to put its self-interest aside, fit itself snugly at the back
You will get alot, maybe 100 000
But when people's concerns are miserly worries, it fights for the first place
Leaving little, maybe 0.100 000
Wherever it goes, the little dot remains a dot
But to others, it is a whole big difference
What kind of difference have you made in someone else's life thus far?
Pris
But fail to realise that the moment of hesitation was actually a life at stake
A smile, a word of concern, a listening ear,
That's all it might take to wipe away your friend's silent tear.
Through the sharpest microscopes we have scrutinised the key to life
Yet still we are blinded by our selfish desires, the desire to strive
And for such a 'worthy' cause as many are disillusioned to believe
Trapped in our mad mad world, the awful reality which few have left the time to conceive
True love has grown cold, thorny troubles, envious essence
A display, a facade, which now assumes its presence
99 roses, the boy's matches to melt a girl's heart
Yet who rose up to the challenge to hold true to the end, right from the start
Day break we whine of the school ahead, day end we yawn
Life seems nothing but a race stretching on and on
Somewhere out there a little child gasps for her last breathe
Fortunate people never realise what they already have
It's the little things in life that count
Have you ever wondered about this little dot called the decimal?
If it chooses to put its self-interest aside, fit itself snugly at the back
You will get alot, maybe 100 000
But when people's concerns are miserly worries, it fights for the first place
Leaving little, maybe 0.100 000
Wherever it goes, the little dot remains a dot
But to others, it is a whole big difference
What kind of difference have you made in someone else's life thus far?
Pris
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Thinking deep
Many of us look like we are shallow superficial people. The truth is, everyone has their own secrets hidden inside, deep thoughts that they would share only to a rare few, and a mind of their own, something that is often forgotten.
Well, it does seem that if you were to dwell more on a 'cheam' issue such as life, relationships, religion that kind of thing, people would naturally label you as a emo person. but is that really fair? why can't we talk abt such stuff? what i feel is that, only when someone has concerned him/herself with such issues, can you be considered to have matured and mellowed. after all, these are really stuff that would add value to you as a human being, at least morally and emotionally. i doubt any amount of make-up, clothes, gossip, can make up for that.
and i've been talking a fair bit with friends, whom i regard as rather close now. i'm really glad to have my longtime best friend joanne to be there for me through thick and thin, going high and sharing my downess, and for indulging me with long telephone calls. and at the same time, i'm extremely blessed to find myself to be in a nice class. well the word nice is rather over-used, but what it entails is actually ppl who are more than just the hi-bye kind, those that i feel i can really trust, 5A ppl rock la. well even though sometimes it seems that class outings revolve ard a handful same few, but the reality is that it's really impossible to imagine a utopian perfect class where everyone loves each other equally and is willing to fork out the same amount of time for the class. undeniably, some might have 'better' friends outside, well that's up to them. but i believe that you will only get to know a friend as much as you are willing to let the person know you, and thus mutual trust is essential.
time really can change alot of stuff. my perceptions of some ppl has honestly changed drastically, well there are those that became worse (but not much la and i shan't be bothered too much either), but more significantly are those that are more than what they appear. cutting, cold, quiet initially, now that you talk to them mroe, you realise that they are really interesting, matured, sincere friends, friends that you know and you want to retain for a life time if possible. haha special thanks to all these 'friends in need friends indeed'! hope the year remaining and year ahead will be filled with lots more opportunities to build up stronger friendship ties! appreciating those ard u is really impt before it's too late.
just wanted to end with this inspiration i got from some chi story book. lots of us are willing to die for the ones we love, but why don't we just try to live right for them instead? and yet for those that we hate, we strive to live, and even live a better life, just in the hope of pissing them off. it's quite ironical rite? live for those you hate, die for those you love.
Pris
Well, it does seem that if you were to dwell more on a 'cheam' issue such as life, relationships, religion that kind of thing, people would naturally label you as a emo person. but is that really fair? why can't we talk abt such stuff? what i feel is that, only when someone has concerned him/herself with such issues, can you be considered to have matured and mellowed. after all, these are really stuff that would add value to you as a human being, at least morally and emotionally. i doubt any amount of make-up, clothes, gossip, can make up for that.
and i've been talking a fair bit with friends, whom i regard as rather close now. i'm really glad to have my longtime best friend joanne to be there for me through thick and thin, going high and sharing my downess, and for indulging me with long telephone calls. and at the same time, i'm extremely blessed to find myself to be in a nice class. well the word nice is rather over-used, but what it entails is actually ppl who are more than just the hi-bye kind, those that i feel i can really trust, 5A ppl rock la. well even though sometimes it seems that class outings revolve ard a handful same few, but the reality is that it's really impossible to imagine a utopian perfect class where everyone loves each other equally and is willing to fork out the same amount of time for the class. undeniably, some might have 'better' friends outside, well that's up to them. but i believe that you will only get to know a friend as much as you are willing to let the person know you, and thus mutual trust is essential.
time really can change alot of stuff. my perceptions of some ppl has honestly changed drastically, well there are those that became worse (but not much la and i shan't be bothered too much either), but more significantly are those that are more than what they appear. cutting, cold, quiet initially, now that you talk to them mroe, you realise that they are really interesting, matured, sincere friends, friends that you know and you want to retain for a life time if possible. haha special thanks to all these 'friends in need friends indeed'! hope the year remaining and year ahead will be filled with lots more opportunities to build up stronger friendship ties! appreciating those ard u is really impt before it's too late.
just wanted to end with this inspiration i got from some chi story book. lots of us are willing to die for the ones we love, but why don't we just try to live right for them instead? and yet for those that we hate, we strive to live, and even live a better life, just in the hope of pissing them off. it's quite ironical rite? live for those you hate, die for those you love.
Pris
Saturday, October 06, 2007
i stumbled on one of my friends' blogs which dedicated this entire entry to this really thought-provoking topic that caught my eye "there are lots of pretty girls around, but few are interesting" well i can't help but sigh and agree with that. and as for girls, we always say that we don't judge a book (or for this matter, guys) by their cover, but the truth is the term 'eye candy' remains highly relevant right now. are we really able to just shut out the appearances and appreciate the inner character? or do we need some degree of visual stimulus before we are willing to unlock the person's insides? maybe i'm kicking a big fuss on such an issue, but well i'm just anyhow blabbering what i feel anyway.
and i believe when it comes to relationships, we are quite a hypocritical bunch of people. some of us enjoy crushing ppl all the time, switching 'targets' every now and then hoping that cupid arrow would shoot them, but if it was just the other way and you find out that the guy who has taken a fancy to you is also taking a fancy to lots of other wild flowers, you feel hurt/frustrated/jealous/unfairly treated. and how do you know how much to give? is it better to love someone more than the person love you or the other way round? give and take, that's what they always say. but how much do we actually practice what we preach?you like the feeling of being chased after, but how does it feel desperately going after and thinking about XX person who pretends to act ignorant all the time?
such a confusing sea of emotions and scenarios.
liking is tough!
but whoever said that being liked is not tough either.
Pris
(oh and limerence is a rather interesting word)
and i believe when it comes to relationships, we are quite a hypocritical bunch of people. some of us enjoy crushing ppl all the time, switching 'targets' every now and then hoping that cupid arrow would shoot them, but if it was just the other way and you find out that the guy who has taken a fancy to you is also taking a fancy to lots of other wild flowers, you feel hurt/frustrated/jealous/unfairly treated. and how do you know how much to give? is it better to love someone more than the person love you or the other way round? give and take, that's what they always say. but how much do we actually practice what we preach?you like the feeling of being chased after, but how does it feel desperately going after and thinking about XX person who pretends to act ignorant all the time?
such a confusing sea of emotions and scenarios.
liking is tough!
but whoever said that being liked is not tough either.
Pris
(oh and limerence is a rather interesting word)
Friday, October 05, 2007
yay! open house was fun! :D met supersuperduper nice people. i love earnest people! and befriending felt abit scary at first but then my group of uh befriendees were so cute and earnest and loveable and befriendable :D and one of them was the cutez, he wanted to buy the raffles pe shirt haha but the bookshop auntie evaded us and closed the wondrous pe-shirt-selling-bookshop ):
and lei and i were boredd walkign 467365734649128739 times around blk J. i want to take a picture under the J of blk J but i think it's too HIGH UP THERE ):
and met wonderful juniors who made me fondly rmb rg days. :)))
and met not so wonderful stranger juniors who made me want to torch rg for producing such girls as well. eew
alot to type but i'm lazy. but today was awesome!
yay i love pictures and phototaking and extraterrestrials ((:
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
From Siti
The person who tagged you is: Pris
Your relationship with her is: classmates turned friends (haha i copy you!)
Your 5 impressions of her: nice sarcastic suan-er encouraging nice!
The most memorable thing she had done for you: um treat me to swensens! haha!
The most memorable words she had said to you: =/ cant rmb
If she becomes your lover, you will: make her not be afraid of hugs! ><
If she becomes your enemy, you will: not give her my love anymore!
If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: I’m jealous that she’s so smart
The most desired thing you want to do for her now is: make her hair grow faster
Your overall impression of her is: small but packs a punch. haha!
pris
The person who tagged you is: Pris
Your relationship with her is: classmates turned friends (haha i copy you!)
Your 5 impressions of her: nice sarcastic suan-er encouraging nice!
The most memorable thing she had done for you: um treat me to swensens! haha!
The most memorable words she had said to you: =/ cant rmb
If she becomes your lover, you will: make her not be afraid of hugs! ><
If she becomes your enemy, you will: not give her my love anymore!
If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: I’m jealous that she’s so smart
The most desired thing you want to do for her now is: make her hair grow faster
Your overall impression of her is: small but packs a punch. haha!
pris
what's our purpose in life?
'what's our purpose in life?'
across the ages, across the globe, across every single possible divide, any individual would have probably entertained that question at least once in their short interlude on this earth. perhaps for those struggling to even manage 3 meals a day, or keep their families alive, or simply put it, those too preoccupied with the most basic necessities, such a question seems out of bounds because there simply isn't enough time to ponder over a philosophical and intangible issue like 'purpose in life'. what we commonly term purpose can be broken down into longterm objective that one aims to achieve which directs our process to reach this product. i suppose to each his own, so your own definition of purpose might deviate from this general one, but whatever the case, it is something that one abides to for an extensive period in one's life and would be what one is striving for.
clutching onto temporal things in life, including good grades, nice clothes, popularity in ur social circle, 5Cs, cliched as it sounds, wouldn't bring you far. What would you do if one day you find urself completing ur education? how about the reality that fashion trends change every season? or maybe ur fair-weathered friends would abandon you when the time is ripe. and how much joy can you derive indulging in cars, condos while working your head off simply satisfying this supposed 'purpose' in life? perhaps this is an extremely negative view to the worldly take on stuff you should strive for, but it's when ppl don't have anything deeper and more meaningful to look forward to , that they simply cling on to what can be seen. surely our purpose in life is more than this?
from a student's pov, it always seemed that the purpose in life, at least for the first 20 years of our life, was simply to excel well, fulfil the responsibilities of a child/teenager/student and then when suddenly promos just ended, a sudden emptiness engulfed me. what was i supposed to be doing? each day seemed in the past to be living simply to get over the test the next day. rush home, mug like mad, complain a whole deal, sleep less than a vampire, then regurgitate everything we had suppressed for the past 24 hrs. it was just like a viscious cycle, then all of a sudden the floodgates of freedom was let loose. so wad now?
am i simply yet another person on this earth contributing to global warming by exhaling excessive carbondioxide, consuming countless amt of fossil fuels, killing ants and grass, maybe hurting someone else unconsciously by saying unkind stuff? okay maybe i shdn't be putting down myself so badly, but what exactly are we meant to become? we always say think abt it later, our future is still far ahead, but wake up! we're 17! that's neither too old nor too young. if dreams start from ambitions and ambitions start from young, our youth is simply wasting away. is it because of the education system that we've been imbibed with to think that we must follow this rigid structure of pri-sec-jc life b4 entering uni? then a red carpet route laid out all the way to a comfortable job? purpose that is in my opinion, must be more than just material comfrots, job security.
with a religion, you can say that your purpose in life is already planned out long ago, God has a purpose for each and every of us. it's sth that keeps us gg, when the world seems to be devoid of hope and meaning, we turn to God's word, we pray about it, we know that there's an eternal substance in life. but what if some ppl don't buy that? is it possible to lead a purposeful life yet still staying clear of those worldly pleasures that don't add a single importance in our eventual life?
i probably don't make sense by now, but it's a vague and subjective issue, 'what's our purpose in life'. just happened to strike me when having a conversation with some really gd friends today. i think it's something all of us shd think abt, if that qns hasn't ever crossed your mind, you probably are too caught up already with a purpose (which is though gd, maybe reminding u to reflect on the value of that purpose), or you simply are living a life with no purpose(so it's a wake-up call). as my mind is currently malfunctioning, i've to end here.
To end with a quote 'if a man hasn't discovered something that he would die for, he isn't fit to live'
Pris
across the ages, across the globe, across every single possible divide, any individual would have probably entertained that question at least once in their short interlude on this earth. perhaps for those struggling to even manage 3 meals a day, or keep their families alive, or simply put it, those too preoccupied with the most basic necessities, such a question seems out of bounds because there simply isn't enough time to ponder over a philosophical and intangible issue like 'purpose in life'. what we commonly term purpose can be broken down into longterm objective that one aims to achieve which directs our process to reach this product. i suppose to each his own, so your own definition of purpose might deviate from this general one, but whatever the case, it is something that one abides to for an extensive period in one's life and would be what one is striving for.
clutching onto temporal things in life, including good grades, nice clothes, popularity in ur social circle, 5Cs, cliched as it sounds, wouldn't bring you far. What would you do if one day you find urself completing ur education? how about the reality that fashion trends change every season? or maybe ur fair-weathered friends would abandon you when the time is ripe. and how much joy can you derive indulging in cars, condos while working your head off simply satisfying this supposed 'purpose' in life? perhaps this is an extremely negative view to the worldly take on stuff you should strive for, but it's when ppl don't have anything deeper and more meaningful to look forward to , that they simply cling on to what can be seen. surely our purpose in life is more than this?
from a student's pov, it always seemed that the purpose in life, at least for the first 20 years of our life, was simply to excel well, fulfil the responsibilities of a child/teenager/student and then when suddenly promos just ended, a sudden emptiness engulfed me. what was i supposed to be doing? each day seemed in the past to be living simply to get over the test the next day. rush home, mug like mad, complain a whole deal, sleep less than a vampire, then regurgitate everything we had suppressed for the past 24 hrs. it was just like a viscious cycle, then all of a sudden the floodgates of freedom was let loose. so wad now?
am i simply yet another person on this earth contributing to global warming by exhaling excessive carbondioxide, consuming countless amt of fossil fuels, killing ants and grass, maybe hurting someone else unconsciously by saying unkind stuff? okay maybe i shdn't be putting down myself so badly, but what exactly are we meant to become? we always say think abt it later, our future is still far ahead, but wake up! we're 17! that's neither too old nor too young. if dreams start from ambitions and ambitions start from young, our youth is simply wasting away. is it because of the education system that we've been imbibed with to think that we must follow this rigid structure of pri-sec-jc life b4 entering uni? then a red carpet route laid out all the way to a comfortable job? purpose that is in my opinion, must be more than just material comfrots, job security.
with a religion, you can say that your purpose in life is already planned out long ago, God has a purpose for each and every of us. it's sth that keeps us gg, when the world seems to be devoid of hope and meaning, we turn to God's word, we pray about it, we know that there's an eternal substance in life. but what if some ppl don't buy that? is it possible to lead a purposeful life yet still staying clear of those worldly pleasures that don't add a single importance in our eventual life?
i probably don't make sense by now, but it's a vague and subjective issue, 'what's our purpose in life'. just happened to strike me when having a conversation with some really gd friends today. i think it's something all of us shd think abt, if that qns hasn't ever crossed your mind, you probably are too caught up already with a purpose (which is though gd, maybe reminding u to reflect on the value of that purpose), or you simply are living a life with no purpose(so it's a wake-up call). as my mind is currently malfunctioning, i've to end here.
To end with a quote 'if a man hasn't discovered something that he would die for, he isn't fit to live'
Pris
Monday, October 01, 2007
ooh yay! promos are over FOREVER! and for the life of me i can't understand how that only measly week could have wreaked such upheaval and havoc. but DOUBLE EUU DEE VEE it's over! hallelujah! i'm going to run around on all the usual madcap adventures and do all the crazy things that problematicputridpoohpromos have wrestled from me in that span of time. :]]]
anyhoos.
going out too much is tiring! and i just want to curl up on my bed surrounded by all my delicious new books and devour all of them without ever having to get up. nice soft music in the background [LIKE HSM2'S GOTTA GO YR OWN WAY swoonsss] :D my trusty mug of pristine spring water {{{{: and random assortment of snacks. just draw my curtains switch my phone off and TADAH instant literary heaven.
heehee. i love being a hermit when the time calls. today's my nice hermit day cause ALL the past few days have been MADCAP ADVENTURES GALORE. much like the adventures of gummi bears albeit less uh gelatinous :D
friday was awesome with the final release from urgh promos! went to airport with lei jukie and ben in nicenice cab and we talked all sort of rubbish on the way! like AHEM certain elite people's DIFFERENT WAY OF THINKING :D:D:D and my new language of talking which ben was only supposed to be able to understand! haha tried to cajole sammmm to go but he wanted to go library so he went on a quest to find chicklit for me :D good conquest i daresay
yeah so airport was just random talking and laughing haha and lei and i can BANTER with each other with much ferocity! RAWR. but allyship is an unfair thing, cause even the SUPOSSEDLY impartial SWITZERLAND JUKIE has tendencies to take sides D: nonono jukie! no! DDD: and ben is a bigbadboy who takes advantage of the limitations of msn haha and the people's weaknesses to eye gouging. YUCKS
saturday was family shopping day woots! i love joop i love pretty wear! and i hearts bigbig my papa mommy and meimei and we ate alot of rubbish food like seoul garden so now i'm getting fatter and fatter and pudgier and pudgier and soon lei will start crushing me cause i've turned into a big fat white fishball. eww.
haha oh yea and sunday was THE rocks! this is like some recollection thingy and it's getting boringgg i dont like blogging when there's exciting stuffs happening haha so unexciting to blog! heh i'll use my powderful gp summary skills and just say cell was wonderful and service was really good reflection and orcharding with ama cheryl tim jerome was the bomb and meeting wenjun and gayganzz and tanzhenz was shrill-screamingly fun to say the least :D heehee yay i hope open house is fun!
alphabetical ftw :D
haha and prettydates and ahem selegie tauhuey and SIMPANG PRATA and tennis and squash and quiet time and prayer buddies and marathon conference calls and yay youyouyouyouyouyouyouyou for making it all so worth the while <3333
-anne
anyhoos.
going out too much is tiring! and i just want to curl up on my bed surrounded by all my delicious new books and devour all of them without ever having to get up. nice soft music in the background [LIKE HSM2'S GOTTA GO YR OWN WAY swoonsss] :D my trusty mug of pristine spring water {{{{: and random assortment of snacks. just draw my curtains switch my phone off and TADAH instant literary heaven.
heehee. i love being a hermit when the time calls. today's my nice hermit day cause ALL the past few days have been MADCAP ADVENTURES GALORE. much like the adventures of gummi bears albeit less uh gelatinous :D
friday was awesome with the final release from urgh promos! went to airport with lei jukie and ben in nicenice cab and we talked all sort of rubbish on the way! like AHEM certain elite people's DIFFERENT WAY OF THINKING :D:D:D and my new language of talking which ben was only supposed to be able to understand! haha tried to cajole sammmm to go but he wanted to go library so he went on a quest to find chicklit for me :D good conquest i daresay
yeah so airport was just random talking and laughing haha and lei and i can BANTER with each other with much ferocity! RAWR. but allyship is an unfair thing, cause even the SUPOSSEDLY impartial SWITZERLAND JUKIE has tendencies to take sides D: nonono jukie! no! DDD: and ben is a bigbadboy who takes advantage of the limitations of msn haha and the people's weaknesses to eye gouging. YUCKS
saturday was family shopping day woots! i love joop i love pretty wear! and i hearts bigbig my papa mommy and meimei and we ate alot of rubbish food like seoul garden so now i'm getting fatter and fatter and pudgier and pudgier and soon lei will start crushing me cause i've turned into a big fat white fishball. eww.
haha oh yea and sunday was THE rocks! this is like some recollection thingy and it's getting boringgg i dont like blogging when there's exciting stuffs happening haha so unexciting to blog! heh i'll use my powderful gp summary skills and just say cell was wonderful and service was really good reflection and orcharding with ama cheryl tim jerome was the bomb and meeting wenjun and gayganzz and tanzhenz was shrill-screamingly fun to say the least :D heehee yay i hope open house is fun!
alphabetical ftw :D
haha and prettydates and ahem selegie tauhuey and SIMPANG PRATA and tennis and squash and quiet time and prayer buddies and marathon conference calls and yay youyouyouyouyouyouyouyou for making it all so worth the while <3333
-anne
Monday, September 24, 2007
i don't know.
i hate it when ppl make me mad. and the madder i get, the more liable i am to cry. when i'm my angriest i cant even shout. i just know the hot angry tears will spill over and my eyes start to flash with all the anger like nobody's business. but it's not like anyone knows. cause who reads eyes anyway. sometimes i've just got to believe it's okay to get angry with friends. that it's okay to be angry. i've half a mind to repost the post from sec4 in my archive. but that would be too obvious and too unnice and too oh-dear-joanne-you-aren't-supposed-to-do-that.
but. it's okay to be angry
right? :'(
-anne
and when You were on the cross and mocked a millionbajillion times worse
all You said were forgive them for they know not what they do
help
i hate it when ppl make me mad. and the madder i get, the more liable i am to cry. when i'm my angriest i cant even shout. i just know the hot angry tears will spill over and my eyes start to flash with all the anger like nobody's business. but it's not like anyone knows. cause who reads eyes anyway. sometimes i've just got to believe it's okay to get angry with friends. that it's okay to be angry. i've half a mind to repost the post from sec4 in my archive. but that would be too obvious and too unnice and too oh-dear-joanne-you-aren't-supposed-to-do-that.
but. it's okay to be angry
right? :'(
-anne
and when You were on the cross and mocked a millionbajillion times worse
all You said were forgive them for they know not what they do
help
Saturday, September 22, 2007
frisbee farewell! latelatelate at night where above pictured persons were the last ppl left :Dcamwhore pose 1!
camwhore pose 2!
camwhore post 3!and contrary to popular belief i WAS NOT the one who initiated the camwhoring
i think
pretty maids all in a row XD
like how about totally awesome! haha zits say it all! on the face or otherwise. [:and sometimes i think msn etiquette is exceedingly important. especially when it's so easy to be offhand and hurtful without really realising the impact of the very words that you type.
and sometimes it's just the small rubbish conversations that make your day too (: like uplifting messages and IMs that just show how much people are capable of caring.
it's times like these with maddening mugging nonsense that you really sit and wonder. if i just take out all forms of mugging and plain purposeless studying out of my life. just WHAT is left behind? what remains of this very existence if studying is taken out. (that was such an ungrammatical fragment BUT i digress)
because studying in itself is an end. mindless purposeless drivel if the only goal is some narrow-minded achievement on a few loose sheets of industrialised pulp. i want to do so much more in my life! i want to have something SOMETHING that my entire being just quivers with passion and anticipation about. it has to be something that just makes me live, breathe and move. i think i've found my antidote.
have you?
haha i sound like some advert. but yea contemplative pensive reflective >>>>>>>> mugging, for all real values of x where x is a subset of time. WOOTS :D
-anne
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity - 1 timothy 4:12
(:
how apt. (: i'm going to live for Jesus, live for Him in all that i do and no matter how narrow the path may be, how trying and how absurdly different and set-apart i may seem, it's going to be my utmost for His highest. it's either His way or the highway! heh :D
and i'm just sososo thankful for the many blessings i've been showered with. wonderfulwonderful people who's been placed all around me for support for love more mumblety-peg and for a gazillion barrels of laughter. (:
and i realise i'm quite rubbish at mugging with ppl. it's utterly a FARCE! either i don't feel absolutely comfortable to mug and ignore the person which TOTALLY defeats the purpose of mugging tgt doesn't it. or i get too comfortable with my fellow mugger and poof mugging becomes the most neglected item on the agenda! which is why pox and i don't ever get to/want to/should mug tgt. :D
and friday's almost non-existent mugging with tim in the library is a lesson in itself! attempts to mug WERE made but then the library was SO COLD and my nose was running SO FAST and my history and tim's chem were totally SO UNINTERESTING so we didn't mug as much as 3 hours should have warranted. but! not bad lar haha :D and tim's good to mug with because 1) he has tissue 2) he's willing to go get tissue and vicks for me 3) he listens and gives top advice! hurrahyipyipyay for friends and CIRCLE OF TRUSTS and for awesomeawesome 6quee :D
what an absolutely wonderful respite from mugging (((((:
cheek it out!
-anne
(:
how apt. (: i'm going to live for Jesus, live for Him in all that i do and no matter how narrow the path may be, how trying and how absurdly different and set-apart i may seem, it's going to be my utmost for His highest. it's either His way or the highway! heh :D
and i'm just sososo thankful for the many blessings i've been showered with. wonderfulwonderful people who's been placed all around me for support for love more mumblety-peg and for a gazillion barrels of laughter. (:
and i realise i'm quite rubbish at mugging with ppl. it's utterly a FARCE! either i don't feel absolutely comfortable to mug and ignore the person which TOTALLY defeats the purpose of mugging tgt doesn't it. or i get too comfortable with my fellow mugger and poof mugging becomes the most neglected item on the agenda! which is why pox and i don't ever get to/want to/should mug tgt. :D
and friday's almost non-existent mugging with tim in the library is a lesson in itself! attempts to mug WERE made but then the library was SO COLD and my nose was running SO FAST and my history and tim's chem were totally SO UNINTERESTING so we didn't mug as much as 3 hours should have warranted. but! not bad lar haha :D and tim's good to mug with because 1) he has tissue 2) he's willing to go get tissue and vicks for me 3) he listens and gives top advice! hurrahyipyipyay for friends and CIRCLE OF TRUSTS and for awesomeawesome 6quee :D
what an absolutely wonderful respite from mugging (((((:
cheek it out!
-anne
Monday, September 10, 2007
OH EM GEE.
blogger just ate up my post. i FAINT.
but i feel much better gettign whatever it was off my chest. which was mainly i don't give 2 cents/pennys/farthings over what youyouyouyouyou have as a fixed image of me and i'm just too tired to bother to mesh with youyouyouyouyou when all i feel is just an extinguishing of any originality, wit and repartee. a space that is instantaneously filled with banality. we're just in continual antiphase and i'm too drained, too tired to try and mesh with youyouyouyouyou anymore.
maybe youyouyouyou will one day look beyond this awkward shell. but then again maybe youyouyouyouyou won't.
but who cares! it may hurt, it may sear but.
and i lovelovelove my REDBLOODCELL! who just makes me feel so loved, so happy and so at ease with all the girls AND the guys and ABSOLUTELY everyone. and when we decided to hike back to the interchange after service, we went just nuts singing and talking about randome articles of little interest. (: and sam made me laugh like nothing when he absolutely refused to acknowldge that he knew us and added "ESPECIALLY NOT THAT BANANA INFRONT" -when i was OHSOHAPPILY swinging my tropically-coloured coolios bag all nicely decked out in my yellow tee and jeans and singing (he'll say wailing) along to avril's when you walk away and trying to act angsty.-
hahahahaha it's all amanda's phone's fault. it arrested our common senses and made us bellow along to all the songs. ((:
and all the wodnerful funny things during lunch. it's the small things that matter and the small things that make me feel at ease. when i don't ever have to feel judged or feel like i have to live up to your standards and where i don't ever have to feel like i've failed whatever youyouyouyouyou have set as the passing grade. but i'm just too tired to care or to change whatever state things are right now.
but. God's in His Heaven and He knows well and He knows best. and so i lay it all down and lay at His feet to rest.
-anne
blogger just ate up my post. i FAINT.
but i feel much better gettign whatever it was off my chest. which was mainly i don't give 2 cents/pennys/farthings over what youyouyouyouyou have as a fixed image of me and i'm just too tired to bother to mesh with youyouyouyouyou when all i feel is just an extinguishing of any originality, wit and repartee. a space that is instantaneously filled with banality. we're just in continual antiphase and i'm too drained, too tired to try and mesh with youyouyouyouyou anymore.
maybe youyouyouyou will one day look beyond this awkward shell. but then again maybe youyouyouyouyou won't.
but who cares! it may hurt, it may sear but.
and i lovelovelove my REDBLOODCELL! who just makes me feel so loved, so happy and so at ease with all the girls AND the guys and ABSOLUTELY everyone. and when we decided to hike back to the interchange after service, we went just nuts singing and talking about randome articles of little interest. (: and sam made me laugh like nothing when he absolutely refused to acknowldge that he knew us and added "ESPECIALLY NOT THAT BANANA INFRONT" -when i was OHSOHAPPILY swinging my tropically-coloured coolios bag all nicely decked out in my yellow tee and jeans and singing (he'll say wailing) along to avril's when you walk away and trying to act angsty.-
hahahahaha it's all amanda's phone's fault. it arrested our common senses and made us bellow along to all the songs. ((:
and all the wodnerful funny things during lunch. it's the small things that matter and the small things that make me feel at ease. when i don't ever have to feel judged or feel like i have to live up to your standards and where i don't ever have to feel like i've failed whatever youyouyouyouyou have set as the passing grade. but i'm just too tired to care or to change whatever state things are right now.
but. God's in His Heaven and He knows well and He knows best. and so i lay it all down and lay at His feet to rest.
-anne
Thursday, September 06, 2007
L'amour
Just a passing thought...
"Children love with their mouth
Teenagers love with their eyes
Adults love with their hands
Elderly love with their ears
If only I could love with my heart."
Pris
"Children love with their mouth
Teenagers love with their eyes
Adults love with their hands
Elderly love with their ears
If only I could love with my heart."
Pris
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
oh the cheek of it all!
sometimes i think i just need to hear assurances from others reiterating what i've always said. cause sometimes, self-conviction just doesn't stand up to scrutiny.
and soemtimes, when my bubble of self-contained happiness threatens to prick and dissolve in a shattering of a thousand shards, i'm just so thankful that You (andyouandyouandyou) have always been there
and when the tears threaten to fall, jerome's words come to mind. you don't decide your tear quota! God does! haha hurrah for prayer buddies who can hold marathon phone convos and listen to snivelling drivel (:
i don't think i'll ever be ready or willing to step over the threshold of innocence and naivety
-anne
this post doesn't make sense. but ah well the joys of indecipherable scripts
sometimes i think i just need to hear assurances from others reiterating what i've always said. cause sometimes, self-conviction just doesn't stand up to scrutiny.
and soemtimes, when my bubble of self-contained happiness threatens to prick and dissolve in a shattering of a thousand shards, i'm just so thankful that You (andyouandyouandyou) have always been there
and when the tears threaten to fall, jerome's words come to mind. you don't decide your tear quota! God does! haha hurrah for prayer buddies who can hold marathon phone convos and listen to snivelling drivel (:
i don't think i'll ever be ready or willing to step over the threshold of innocence and naivety
-anne
this post doesn't make sense. but ah well the joys of indecipherable scripts
Saturday, September 01, 2007
teachers' day celebrations!!
i must first make a point, i dont' cam whore...... it's the person ABOVE who loves it!
and so you can see how inexperience we are, but still must give credit for attempting to look like puffer fish?
haha my PW group before chionging PW for close to 6 hours straight :S i love my PW group! but i SUPER DUPERLY hate PW. PweedoubleeW.
and then we took a break at cafe cartel, all decent ppl except one.
and of course, i LOVE my class 08s05A too! haha all super nice people, don't we look nice?? well, i guess it's really friends who make your day, and make sch life interesting, and let you look forward to waking up each day to know that there are friends who would brave the freezing cold lectures with you, amuse you with their lame antics, stand by you when you're feeling down, and go crazy with you without ever judging you. mhmm back to mugging!Pris
Friday, August 31, 2007
i have manymanymany events to blog about! frisbee j2 farewell, random class antics, longlonglong ago shps nat day, teachers' day and LEIPINGPONGPIANG's BIRTHDAY! but now cannotcannot blog )): i be sad. but soon! so anyway, nowww
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS LEI SUGAR COATED CANDY MARSHMALLOW TAN! plsccm!
haha and i can't believe i gave jukie the idea of a compliment coupon. I DIE ALR. haha but it's okay lei i love you bighumougousenormous! may your days of 17-ness be awesome! (((:
i have many pictures to post. but it'll have to wait (:
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS LEI SUGAR COATED CANDY MARSHMALLOW TAN! plsccm!
haha and i can't believe i gave jukie the idea of a compliment coupon. I DIE ALR. haha but it's okay lei i love you bighumougousenormous! may your days of 17-ness be awesome! (((:
i have many pictures to post. but it'll have to wait (:
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
words of wisdom indeed. i cannot agree more than the assertion that there is indeed a practically invisible line between love and hate. i guess the two emotions are rather extreme, but the truth remains that humans, selfish as we are, channel our strongest emotions to the other end if not reciprocrated. since you have already given in at least deep down, and the other party simply fools around with it or fails to sense it, well wouldn't you feel frustrated, disappointed and then totally put off? haha i guess if you dont' understand what i'm blabbering about, forgive girls. they are really complicated beings. and it just popped into my mind 'ignorance is bliss'. i argue otherwise though. the ignorant perceive bliss.
Pensive Pris
Pensive Pris
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
i smiles at you and the world is alwights (:
but i've been thinking.
everyone's getting attached leftrightcentreupsidedown and obviously there's the pressure to capitulate. but everytime i feel my heart waver, i feel it try to hop, jump, skip away from me, it's nonetheless reined in by questions that keep me grounded. if i'm as yet unable to fully love God, my friends, my family, my dearest dearest close ones to the extent that they should and they DESERVE to be loved, what gives me the right to think i can love someone else as fiercely and as strongly as what they should truly receive?
precisely, i don't have such liberties. YET. :D but if it's just a headlong blindless plummage into loverland, it's really not the least bit fair to him or to myself. obviously i'll never be perfect enough but it'll work out. in His own special time (((:
so till then! i'll entrust my heart to God and just know that someday OVER THE RAINBOW :D you'll see.
there's really a very fine, thin line between love and dislike. haha as coughsomeonehasanalysedcough :] but sometimes i feel this strange tenacity, this elasticity to love infinitely and passionately and to feel so irked to the very depths of my soul. i think i'm just beginning to grasp my own concept of love and obviously i'm not going to try to decipher it here in this great, vast unknown (:
but i've been thinking.
everyone's getting attached leftrightcentreupsidedown and obviously there's the pressure to capitulate. but everytime i feel my heart waver, i feel it try to hop, jump, skip away from me, it's nonetheless reined in by questions that keep me grounded. if i'm as yet unable to fully love God, my friends, my family, my dearest dearest close ones to the extent that they should and they DESERVE to be loved, what gives me the right to think i can love someone else as fiercely and as strongly as what they should truly receive?
precisely, i don't have such liberties. YET. :D but if it's just a headlong blindless plummage into loverland, it's really not the least bit fair to him or to myself. obviously i'll never be perfect enough but it'll work out. in His own special time (((:
so till then! i'll entrust my heart to God and just know that someday OVER THE RAINBOW :D you'll see.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
fleeting thoughts
haven't blogged for sometime, quite apparently i was ultra pissed off with swearish ppl the last time, yup but i'm in a rather gd mood now, haha finally gao ding int hist essay, eom, parts of written report.. basically cleared the stuff at hand. but sometimes u wonder, do u live each day simply to fulfil the stuff dumped onto u from ytd, and thinking abt tmr's more work? sounds like a narrow-minded ant always hurrying abt his daily duties without appreciating the bigger picture. but then again, wad does bigger picture equal to for us? our idealistic dreams? our childhood aspirations? our simple wish to be loved and love? aiyoh i can feel myself practically floating in mid-air, cos we ultimately have to be jiao ta shi di. the reality is promos are in 4 weeks' time. :(
Poetic Pris (haha nice alliteration!)
Poetic Pris (haha nice alliteration!)
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
i absolutely abhor and detest and am repelled by people who swear unceasingly without rhyme or reason for purely the sake of lacing their conversations with this so-called sophisticated air. you know what? they are awfully wrong! it just makes them seem terribly uncouth people who have no sense of propriety and gets on my nerves big time!
PissedoffPris
PissedoffPris
Monday, August 20, 2007
sometimes when i say my shoulders ache
it just means
DON'T. TOUCH. ME.
and i'm going to be a stick in the mud,
i'm going to be utterly fiery and feisty
and stick my chin out at the world.
and i'm going to stick by what i believe in
for that's what makes me ME
and i fully intend to stay that way
mugger or otherwise
noone's cramping my style
SO. THERE.
it just means
DON'T. TOUCH. ME.
and i'm going to be a stick in the mud,
i'm going to be utterly fiery and feisty
and stick my chin out at the world.
and i'm going to stick by what i believe in
for that's what makes me ME
and i fully intend to stay that way
mugger or otherwise
noone's cramping my style
SO. THERE.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
aiyoh. ghost! 
our VERY SMALL class sitting at the track! 
MACHO girls and uh STAMFORD RAFFLES guys? :D photo spreeeeeeee! but alot of photos are BLURRY ))))))))))))): aieessss, see la bad photographer! haha ooops later someone come and chui me! :]
anyways, can still make out our handsome/chio faces, so all's well! haha i think i still have QUITE ALOT of other photos unposted and posts unfinished! ): but haha let the photos speak for themselves, since my manymanymany photos are in such hot demand, i shall accede to all the fan requests :D
heh. and i love musicals! especially old Broadway ones, like the ones they show on Arts Central, those in b&w. Singing in the Rain was like my first musical and i absolutely fell in love with the songs and dancing and the way the plot unfolded through theatrics and drama and music! sure beats any old cinema movie ANY DAY :D and My Fair Lady was awesome too, haha brings to mind sec 3 [P.R.OD.U.C.T.I.O.N.]! so please, people with nice taste and who want to make me extremely happy, wave those musical tickets! and i wanna watch Annie! the song's uber cutexxxxxxxxx :D
-anne
just one look and i can hear a bell ring
just one look and i can hear a bell ring
one more look and i forget everything
oh oh oh oh
mamma mia, here i go again!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
P6GEP 2002!
poxy, half of audrey, puhui, jojo, darho!
resident camwhorers at the nice greeny board :D
ben&jerry's buddies!YAYYY! today we had awesome p6GEP reunion, where we met the teachers, got interviewed, caught up with each toehr reminiscing about old times (where so many of our memories seemed to involve the silly esacapdes and happenings of a certain someone XD), did wonderful body-spelling (courtesy of the guys), jumped for no particular reason but to join the body-spelling guys :DDDDDD, ate lunch, complained about school, freaked out over how we didn't know what to do with our lifes, annoyed the foodcourt ppl with our constant changing of seats and REALISED HOW MUCH WE MISSED EACH OTHER :))
haha and we camwhored like we can camwhore, with darren ho the experienced camwhorer who realised that "to keep your memories, we have to be bold or daring or bu yao lian " or somethign to that tune anyway. :D
body-spelling was the cool! credit goes to darren and zhiwen who conspiratorically told the teachers they wanted airtime at the end of the interviews. to which the teachers (who know us OH SO WELL) replied something along the lines of is it weird or smth haha. yayy so the guys bodyspelt i heart GEP and we randomly jumped at the end just to obscure their faces :D but the P of GEP tried to jump too HAHAHAHAH darren!
yay then we had lunch where pox and i realised koky is very nice to suan :D haha and we
-interjection-
this post has been lingering in the draft folder for EONS and i realise that everyone's waiting for photos haha and they can;t really be bothered what words come package with it. so yes, i will continue my WORDY passgae some other time! and post all the pics now. even though i'm reminded that i still have 6q nat day photos and class outing and unfinished p6GEP photos to post! oh the joys and trials of camwhoring to SUCH an extent (((:
Monday, August 06, 2007
i think i've just found my no.1 pet peeve. ooh yet another step towards self-actualisation! (: mmhm i absolutely abhor uncouthness, and it's in its most unsettling and irate form when people swear. when something of earth-shattering significance happens and it just SO happens to slip past yr lips, i can still understand. but when it's for absolutely no rhyme nor reason, no call or cause, it's one of the most putting-off thing that i will EVER come across.
maybe it's just me, maybe i'm just too stiff and uptight about this, too overly inflexible and unseeing. but i believe in what i believe in and do i even dare say this, but in every aspect it's my right. i'm probably coming across as really self-righteous and pompous now, but what can i say but i really feel this way. [haha it rhymes!] and it's just this slowly simmering ache within me that just needed to have expression given to it.
and there, i've done it. for myself, and in utter defiance to what others may think, i STILL feel this way.
-anne
maybe it's just me, maybe i'm just too stiff and uptight about this, too overly inflexible and unseeing. but i believe in what i believe in and do i even dare say this, but in every aspect it's my right. i'm probably coming across as really self-righteous and pompous now, but what can i say but i really feel this way. [haha it rhymes!] and it's just this slowly simmering ache within me that just needed to have expression given to it.
and there, i've done it. for myself, and in utter defiance to what others may think, i STILL feel this way.
-anne
Sunday, August 05, 2007
haha muddddday frisbee comps! which were funfunfun even though ahemahemahem :D haha and let me present to you an impossible task FIND ME! hoho how wonderfully amusing ironies are :D and yes, i played and was muddy okay but i cleaned up nicely unlike the others HAHA. and squishing in the mud actually felt quite therepeutic after the intial 0.0 at the extent of muddiness (((:i think i have alot of things to say, but they're just lodged somewhere between my heart and my head and typing doesn't seem to pry it any looser. so well, goodnight! or morning for that matter
hands so empty
yet a heart so full
assure me once again
that Your promise always holds true (:
-anne
waltzing around like mary-flipping-poppins!
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Quote for the day
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first. -- Mark Twain
Monday, July 30, 2007
MIDNIGHT TALKS ROCK MY WHITE, BLUE, ORANGE, PINK PINK PINK PINK SOCKS!
yeaaaaahhh. class camp was awesomeawesomeawesome. even though sandfly bites are so totally notawesomenotawesomenotaweseom. ):
BUT.
anyway SIXX QQQQ is the bomb! midnight convo was so open so refreshing and refreshing, even though ehe obviously there'll be coughcough moments. (: but seriously, maybe it was how to darkness just obscured everything, or how the ubin air just made everything seemed slightly surreal or maybe just cause we lost too much bloood to the mosquitoes/sandflies/whatnot and felt light-headed, BUT WHATEVER THE REASON, we shared openly, truthfully, and that was what mattered (:
so many things happened in the course of this week that i really don't know what to write. my linguistic abilities have failed me, deserted me for the orange pongo stick heading with my passport for lands over the hills and far away. :D it's okay i haven't gone daft.
not much.
yea i hate to blog mundanely, so until i find the right ambience to blog in, i'll just post pretty poetry :D tt was composed under the influence of bharshas [or however you spell it] sagging in the rain
a dainty unfurling of leaflets,
precise and point-prefect in its petiteness.
it gently sways in time to the mild winds,
mindful of the caress upon its surface.
it's beautiful in a way that only it can be
brilliant in its special understated appeal.
it's tried growing a few flowers, pushing forth
tender buds of pigments
trying to illicit a greater response and maybe
just fit in a little more with the lilies and hibiscuses
but the flowers wilt in time and butterflies flutter off
it's content with the greenness of its finery
and shyly displays its frock
but alas!
the gentle breeze turns upon itself
and works up into a gale
leaf blades thrash wildly, violently
and lash out at the leaflets on display
a reflex action that can't be stopped
and the green petals close up intuitively, suddenly and certainly
it's no more than a bunch of nettles now
forlorn and almost abhorrent in its skimpy offerings
the petals close ever more tightly
and it sags to the ground
ugly and destitute and nothing more to like than its personality
but who would wait around for its finery to unfold again?
-anne
yeaaaaahhh. class camp was awesomeawesomeawesome. even though sandfly bites are so totally notawesomenotawesomenotaweseom. ):
BUT.
anyway SIXX QQQQ is the bomb! midnight convo was so open so refreshing and refreshing, even though ehe obviously there'll be coughcough moments. (: but seriously, maybe it was how to darkness just obscured everything, or how the ubin air just made everything seemed slightly surreal or maybe just cause we lost too much bloood to the mosquitoes/sandflies/whatnot and felt light-headed, BUT WHATEVER THE REASON, we shared openly, truthfully, and that was what mattered (:
so many things happened in the course of this week that i really don't know what to write. my linguistic abilities have failed me, deserted me for the orange pongo stick heading with my passport for lands over the hills and far away. :D it's okay i haven't gone daft.
not much.
yea i hate to blog mundanely, so until i find the right ambience to blog in, i'll just post pretty poetry :D tt was composed under the influence of bharshas [or however you spell it] sagging in the rain
a dainty unfurling of leaflets,
precise and point-prefect in its petiteness.
it gently sways in time to the mild winds,
mindful of the caress upon its surface.
it's beautiful in a way that only it can be
brilliant in its special understated appeal.
it's tried growing a few flowers, pushing forth
tender buds of pigments
trying to illicit a greater response and maybe
just fit in a little more with the lilies and hibiscuses
but the flowers wilt in time and butterflies flutter off
it's content with the greenness of its finery
and shyly displays its frock
but alas!
the gentle breeze turns upon itself
and works up into a gale
leaf blades thrash wildly, violently
and lash out at the leaflets on display
a reflex action that can't be stopped
and the green petals close up intuitively, suddenly and certainly
it's no more than a bunch of nettles now
forlorn and almost abhorrent in its skimpy offerings
the petals close ever more tightly
and it sags to the ground
ugly and destitute and nothing more to like than its personality
but who would wait around for its finery to unfold again?
-anne
Manquer
Qu'est-ce que c'est 'manquer'?
C'est-à -dire penser à quelqu'un toute le temps, et sentir triste quelquefois, mais il faut que on ne peut pas révéler.
Enfin,
je
me
rends
compte
ce sentiment.
C'est-à -dire penser à quelqu'un toute le temps, et sentir triste quelquefois, mais il faut que on ne peut pas révéler.
Enfin,
je
me
rends
compte
ce sentiment.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Dedicated to 08S05A
I have just a few words to say
I absolutely love my new class 08SO5Aw
hose teacher is Mrs. Lim-Bay
where there are a couple of guys who are rather gay
It's long past the month of May
So as we grow to know each other better day by day
And if you are ever not feeling okay
hopefully there's someone in class to make you feel less gray
I believe our friendship is priceless, no money can pay
So come what may
After two years, when we finally go on each separate way,
I truly hope that our wonderful two years' memories would remain affirmed in clay XD
Pris
I absolutely love my new class 08SO5Aw
hose teacher is Mrs. Lim-Bay
where there are a couple of guys who are rather gay
It's long past the month of May
So as we grow to know each other better day by day
And if you are ever not feeling okay
hopefully there's someone in class to make you feel less gray
I believe our friendship is priceless, no money can pay
So come what may
After two years, when we finally go on each separate way,
I truly hope that our wonderful two years' memories would remain affirmed in clay XD
Pris
Thursday, July 26, 2007
A song always on my mind
Moon River,
wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker,
you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.
My favourite tune for now!
Pris
wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker,
you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.
My favourite tune for now!
Pris
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Silence is golden
Hi there to all those out there who actually read this blog! This is the wonderful MIA super long co-owner, well the title says it out.. silence is golden, so please don't fault me for keeping silent for such a long while. I dont' like the idea of writing with an audience in mind, or like having to write to impress/confirm others' perception/fit in context. simply put it, i'm just blabbering off what's on my mind.
Have you ever felt like what you have taken for granted, the life you have been leading suddenly falls apart? say that i'm being awfully negative, or just another teenage angsty post, i should think otherwise. i'm just like sharing my two cents worth of thoughts. perhaps i should not be such a stark contrast to my super bubbly co-owner, well but i really can't help it! so yes, we have heard about people feeling blue, points in life where everything seems bleak, or how you can feel alone in the crowd of empty faces, but when all this is merely imagination and talk, the experience just somehow doesn't resonate so well inside you.
honestly, reality is not nice at all. then you wonder, if one day you fall into this pit, and even the friends you once talked/joked/crapped with seem to be masked strangers, the satifsfaction of your favourite hobbies sap away, how do you ever get out of it? it's like being sucked into the middle of a thunderstorm, the whirlwinds of life constantly revolving around you, maybe the key to warm sunshine is just beyond that 'solid' wall but when you are trapped inside, how do you know where to find that key?
nowadays, you would call all that depression. but what exactly is this word all about? is it really just a deeper degree of sadness? surely there is more to that, but the strange thing is, everyone has gone through some version of it, yet it is wilfully joked about when someone goes, 'aiyah i'm feelin depressed'. does that person really know what it is like to feel that way? i think it is like an artist who is disgusted at the touch of his paintbrush, or the pianist who hears only jarring notes on his keyboard. it is a life wasting away without music, without laughter; without soulmates; like a path that says 'no return, no future'.
But it is in times like this that your own future lies in your very hands. let the problem take care of itself, and sooner or later you lose to the problem. force yourself to wake up, and maybe there still might be a shimmering of hope. but the battle is only half-won. it is like being in a coma for years, and suddenly when you wake up, you try so hard to fit in again. the friends now drifted away, the opportunities maybe lost, the relationship ties gone cold - who can teach the 'revived' how to pick up their broken pieces once more?
it is easy to judge others, this is very cliche. but when you know how it is like to be judged, would you hold back that tongue of yours for another second? i believe that everyone wants to be loved deep down. if economics assumes that the individual is always a rational consumer, my theory follows that every individual is a vulnerable soul. it just depends on how you package yourself - act tough to hide the vulnerability or show it and be precisely like that.
we often envy others for what they are. why can so-and-so get along so easily with other people? how does so-and-so balance academic excellence and social circle so well? if only so-and-so could be my aherm aherm. but surely so-and-so is plagued with his/her share of problems too? wouldn't it be great to one day realise that everyone is fretting over the same problems? maybe then, you wouldn't feel so alone. but because it is natural to think that you are the only one sunken in the mud, you continue to let yourself sink in and downwards, while others too are actually in the next mudpit doing the same thing. funny logic?
but there are always exceptions. best friends for one are there for a reason. to cultivate mutual trust, to share each other's sentiments, to understand each other and give in even when you might not agree, to be kind and sincere. this is the recipe for friendship - long, lasting, loving (in a friend like manner). i suppose this is only then that the lonely souls out there, need not fret further, because a best friend can be the whole world to you. if you feel down, he/she will be there and through him/her, the door back to the rest of the world can be easily opened up. in your best friend, lies the key.
just because you feel alone
it doesnt mean you should moan
just so you know there is a phone
to call a friend back home
together you have slowly grown
this friend is the best you would ever have known
What can I say after all that rambling, I just realised how great my best-est friend Joanne is. It's not silence that is golden. I think, it is friendship that is truly golden.
Pris
Have you ever felt like what you have taken for granted, the life you have been leading suddenly falls apart? say that i'm being awfully negative, or just another teenage angsty post, i should think otherwise. i'm just like sharing my two cents worth of thoughts. perhaps i should not be such a stark contrast to my super bubbly co-owner, well but i really can't help it! so yes, we have heard about people feeling blue, points in life where everything seems bleak, or how you can feel alone in the crowd of empty faces, but when all this is merely imagination and talk, the experience just somehow doesn't resonate so well inside you.
honestly, reality is not nice at all. then you wonder, if one day you fall into this pit, and even the friends you once talked/joked/crapped with seem to be masked strangers, the satifsfaction of your favourite hobbies sap away, how do you ever get out of it? it's like being sucked into the middle of a thunderstorm, the whirlwinds of life constantly revolving around you, maybe the key to warm sunshine is just beyond that 'solid' wall but when you are trapped inside, how do you know where to find that key?
nowadays, you would call all that depression. but what exactly is this word all about? is it really just a deeper degree of sadness? surely there is more to that, but the strange thing is, everyone has gone through some version of it, yet it is wilfully joked about when someone goes, 'aiyah i'm feelin depressed'. does that person really know what it is like to feel that way? i think it is like an artist who is disgusted at the touch of his paintbrush, or the pianist who hears only jarring notes on his keyboard. it is a life wasting away without music, without laughter; without soulmates; like a path that says 'no return, no future'.
But it is in times like this that your own future lies in your very hands. let the problem take care of itself, and sooner or later you lose to the problem. force yourself to wake up, and maybe there still might be a shimmering of hope. but the battle is only half-won. it is like being in a coma for years, and suddenly when you wake up, you try so hard to fit in again. the friends now drifted away, the opportunities maybe lost, the relationship ties gone cold - who can teach the 'revived' how to pick up their broken pieces once more?
it is easy to judge others, this is very cliche. but when you know how it is like to be judged, would you hold back that tongue of yours for another second? i believe that everyone wants to be loved deep down. if economics assumes that the individual is always a rational consumer, my theory follows that every individual is a vulnerable soul. it just depends on how you package yourself - act tough to hide the vulnerability or show it and be precisely like that.
we often envy others for what they are. why can so-and-so get along so easily with other people? how does so-and-so balance academic excellence and social circle so well? if only so-and-so could be my aherm aherm. but surely so-and-so is plagued with his/her share of problems too? wouldn't it be great to one day realise that everyone is fretting over the same problems? maybe then, you wouldn't feel so alone. but because it is natural to think that you are the only one sunken in the mud, you continue to let yourself sink in and downwards, while others too are actually in the next mudpit doing the same thing. funny logic?
but there are always exceptions. best friends for one are there for a reason. to cultivate mutual trust, to share each other's sentiments, to understand each other and give in even when you might not agree, to be kind and sincere. this is the recipe for friendship - long, lasting, loving (in a friend like manner). i suppose this is only then that the lonely souls out there, need not fret further, because a best friend can be the whole world to you. if you feel down, he/she will be there and through him/her, the door back to the rest of the world can be easily opened up. in your best friend, lies the key.
just because you feel alone
it doesnt mean you should moan
just so you know there is a phone
to call a friend back home
together you have slowly grown
this friend is the best you would ever have known
What can I say after all that rambling, I just realised how great my best-est friend Joanne is. It's not silence that is golden. I think, it is friendship that is truly golden.
Pris
Thursday, July 19, 2007
ipod. imode. imac. ibook. IHAPPYNOW. :D
and yes shoutout to MIA BLOG CO-OWNER, my dearest lalapox! hohox to think that the name Darren christened you with stayed till today :D and he called me like what? gui chen. thank God that never stuck around long enough! HEE :D
anyway i love my bestestestestestestestest friend who's stayed by me through everything, through bananas, lemons, tofus, orange squashes, muahchees, losers, shes, pancakes, MEEPOK WITH CHILLI! ahahahahahahaahhHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. :D :D :D for everything you've done, just being there, being so comfortable with each other, to how everything just spills out. and everything is E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. in every single possible aspect of the word. through our squash sessions, france/china separation, RS, cmps and whatnot, God has just blessed this girlish best friendship so awesomely. (: have a greatbrilliantfantabulous 17th year! and may i continually harass you on the phone, with the encouragement of YOUR MOM :D :D :D :D and may cable stop showing any shows from the 9-10pm slot so we can yak our heads off more! hahaha yay
i feel so blessed with so many deardeardear friends, so close to my heart. it doesn't even matter whether or not we're from the same school or not and it doesn't matter how often i see or do not see them. it only matters that i LOVE them and they LOVE me [at least they better!] :D
yay shall post prettay pictures of newyorknewyork outing! where they make supreme mushroom cappucino soup! MM YUM :D
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear'
Cause I am Yours
I am Yours (:
-anne
and yes shoutout to MIA BLOG CO-OWNER, my dearest lalapox! hohox to think that the name Darren christened you with stayed till today :D and he called me like what? gui chen. thank God that never stuck around long enough! HEE :D
anyway i love my bestestestestestestestest friend who's stayed by me through everything, through bananas, lemons, tofus, orange squashes, muahchees, losers, shes, pancakes, MEEPOK WITH CHILLI! ahahahahahahaahhHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. :D :D :D for everything you've done, just being there, being so comfortable with each other, to how everything just spills out. and everything is E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. in every single possible aspect of the word. through our squash sessions, france/china separation, RS, cmps and whatnot, God has just blessed this girlish best friendship so awesomely. (: have a greatbrilliantfantabulous 17th year! and may i continually harass you on the phone, with the encouragement of YOUR MOM :D :D :D :D and may cable stop showing any shows from the 9-10pm slot so we can yak our heads off more! hahaha yay
i feel so blessed with so many deardeardear friends, so close to my heart. it doesn't even matter whether or not we're from the same school or not and it doesn't matter how often i see or do not see them. it only matters that i LOVE them and they LOVE me [at least they better!] :D
yay shall post prettay pictures of newyorknewyork outing! where they make supreme mushroom cappucino soup! MM YUM :D
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear'
Cause I am Yours
I am Yours (:
-anne
Saturday, July 14, 2007
i'm so sorry
i really really really am
there's this queer ache inside of me right now
a dull throbbing emotion that i cant quite place my finger on
quarts of guilt mingled with sadness and inability
sloshed all around in fits of emotion
i think i'm the one to break the silence
i know i hold the key
but the user manual's been lost for ages
and i don't remember how to fit it into the keyhole any longer
it's times like these when sorry isn't the hardest word to say
sorry is the hardest action to portray
and when you've unknowingly, unwittingly wielded the instrument of hurt
you realise too late,
that it's a double edged sword that you're holding
and that you bleed just as much
i'm sorry i've been so selfish with my heart
Lord, help me to right my wrongs
and help me to cauterise as best as i know how
the hurts i've been responsible for
and Lord, help me to be Your sunbeam
i really really really am
there's this queer ache inside of me right now
a dull throbbing emotion that i cant quite place my finger on
quarts of guilt mingled with sadness and inability
sloshed all around in fits of emotion
i think i'm the one to break the silence
i know i hold the key
but the user manual's been lost for ages
and i don't remember how to fit it into the keyhole any longer
it's times like these when sorry isn't the hardest word to say
sorry is the hardest action to portray
and when you've unknowingly, unwittingly wielded the instrument of hurt
you realise too late,
that it's a double edged sword that you're holding
and that you bleed just as much
i'm sorry i've been so selfish with my heart
Lord, help me to right my wrongs
and help me to cauterise as best as i know how
the hurts i've been responsible for
and Lord, help me to be Your sunbeam
Saturday, June 30, 2007
COUGHS grace i have rectified my noobness COUGHS
and blogger is DAFT. it doesn't have the exact same shade of pink as my background! pfft
andand CTs are overrrrrr!! *beams* and i've been wasting alot of my time and money slacking around and doing nothing. how in the world my money disappears even when i'm not doing anything, is a whole new concept untouched and unfounded as yet. :D haha anyway thursday was a blast, after the SCREWY physics paper which i shan't go into morbid detail about. FINALLY met up with poxpoxpoxpoxpoxpox! and we had totally refreshing girltalk, about this, that and the other, all in true-blue girl fashion :) and we did ALOT of nooby things, which i can't remembered now! but yeah alotta noob stuff. this blogpost is getting to be very sian. i am also very sian. i am wastign time online before i go out for gorgeous dinner with puff, chengs, yuanzzzz! this is such a nonsense post.
oh yeah and then we had brillaint dinner on thurs with lei sitii and joooks! at plaza sing! which was the NOOBIEST AFFAIR ON EARTH! everybody, raise your hand, stick out your index finger, point to siti PLEASE! heeheeee, siti and i are like at the lowest level of the suan-ment chain :( :( :( :( :( but it's okay, cause we bring love joy and laughter into the lifes of those around us! BUT I'M SO SIAN NOWWWWWW somebardyyyy bring love joy and laughter into my life nowwwwwwww. ANYWAY, i was enlightened about stuff. which was quite educational. but quite traumatising as well. look people, I AM GROWING UP and UNDERSTANDING the thigns of the world! but i don't want to. this is such a totally convoluted post that i shall just say bye now and go bathe and choose prettypretty clothes to wear out. YAYYY!! :D
SUCH a disappointment
make an effort, why don't you?
it hurts to see how it seemed like we were all so happily bonded at the beginning of the year
it's a shame really
but maybe guys just reallyreallyreally think very differently from girls
or maybe you all just find us OTT
but
it's okay cause no matter what
there's always a but
to fit at the end of every rant
a'but' that gives hope
:)
and blogger is DAFT. it doesn't have the exact same shade of pink as my background! pfft
andand CTs are overrrrrr!! *beams* and i've been wasting alot of my time and money slacking around and doing nothing. how in the world my money disappears even when i'm not doing anything, is a whole new concept untouched and unfounded as yet. :D haha anyway thursday was a blast, after the SCREWY physics paper which i shan't go into morbid detail about. FINALLY met up with poxpoxpoxpoxpoxpox! and we had totally refreshing girltalk, about this, that and the other, all in true-blue girl fashion :) and we did ALOT of nooby things, which i can't remembered now! but yeah alotta noob stuff. this blogpost is getting to be very sian. i am also very sian. i am wastign time online before i go out for gorgeous dinner with puff, chengs, yuanzzzz! this is such a nonsense post.
oh yeah and then we had brillaint dinner on thurs with lei sitii and joooks! at plaza sing! which was the NOOBIEST AFFAIR ON EARTH! everybody, raise your hand, stick out your index finger, point to siti PLEASE! heeheeee, siti and i are like at the lowest level of the suan-ment chain :( :( :( :( :( but it's okay, cause we bring love joy and laughter into the lifes of those around us! BUT I'M SO SIAN NOWWWWWW somebardyyyy bring love joy and laughter into my life nowwwwwwww. ANYWAY, i was enlightened about stuff. which was quite educational. but quite traumatising as well. look people, I AM GROWING UP and UNDERSTANDING the thigns of the world! but i don't want to. this is such a totally convoluted post that i shall just say bye now and go bathe and choose prettypretty clothes to wear out. YAYYY!! :D
SUCH a disappointment
make an effort, why don't you?
it hurts to see how it seemed like we were all so happily bonded at the beginning of the year
it's a shame really
but maybe guys just reallyreallyreally think very differently from girls
or maybe you all just find us OTT
but
it's okay cause no matter what
there's always a but
to fit at the end of every rant
a'but' that gives hope
:)
Thursday, June 21, 2007
goodness. i can't believe i'm blogging AGAIN. this is getting to be a little habitual haha. i feel like putting up a neon billboard and saying WATCH THIS SPACE! in garish colours, but i've a hunch it 1) won't go down well with the well-mannered audience :D 2) afore-mentioned well mannere-ed audience would happily number 0 after my little repartee and fling with Mr tasteless billboard. :D
ANYWAY.
today! i! went! for! chem! consult! :D which actually translates into crazy noob sessions with SITII [who else, seriously :D:D:D] and GRACE and WEIXIAN. oh and GRACE'S beloved! haha and i must SO post about grace!
siti: so. how long did you spend talking to him? -insert askance glances and smothered giggles between siti and joanne-
grace: about two hours. WOOHOO! *tosses head*
siti and joanne: *blinks* AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
heeheeeheeeeeeee. i shall try to be cool from now on and start a new trend. instead of sayign heehee or haha or cancan or yesyes, i shall say heesquared or ha squared or can squared, you get my drift. :D haha. i mean hasquared. was reminded of this by kok-squared! which was a lead-on from the bee-yoo-tee-fully touching card from lynette, and puff and.. AHHH I MISS MY 411! but 6Q ROCKS ALL MY PINK SOCKS! <3
haha [pongs i keep forgetting to use hasquared] and today was. COUGH. well the front-er part of today. be still thy thudding heart. ah whatever. i'll just be content that my whole life is in God's hands and He watches over me and every single turn my life takes. and somewhere [over the rainbow :)] He's watching over my special someone too. :) it's wonderful to know that God's in control over EVERY SINGLE BITTY ITTY thing and that no matter what, i'm as loved as possible by Him already. <3
heehee SHOUTOUT TO SITI MAH LOVEE! haha girl talks work wodners and yay we're so in the same boat/league/crocodile-infested-treacherous-waters! :) yay i love you loads *huggles*
-anne
alternating between hot/cold/hot/cold/hot/cold doesn't make for happy living nor happily ever afters
ANYWAY.
today! i! went! for! chem! consult! :D which actually translates into crazy noob sessions with SITII [who else, seriously :D:D:D] and GRACE and WEIXIAN. oh and GRACE'S beloved! haha and i must SO post about grace!
siti: so. how long did you spend talking to him? -insert askance glances and smothered giggles between siti and joanne-
grace: about two hours. WOOHOO! *tosses head*
siti and joanne: *blinks* AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
heeheeeheeeeeeee. i shall try to be cool from now on and start a new trend. instead of sayign heehee or haha or cancan or yesyes, i shall say heesquared or ha squared or can squared, you get my drift. :D haha. i mean hasquared. was reminded of this by kok-squared! which was a lead-on from the bee-yoo-tee-fully touching card from lynette, and puff and.. AHHH I MISS MY 411! but 6Q ROCKS ALL MY PINK SOCKS! <3
haha [pongs i keep forgetting to use hasquared] and today was. COUGH. well the front-er part of today. be still thy thudding heart. ah whatever. i'll just be content that my whole life is in God's hands and He watches over me and every single turn my life takes. and somewhere [over the rainbow :)] He's watching over my special someone too. :) it's wonderful to know that God's in control over EVERY SINGLE BITTY ITTY thing and that no matter what, i'm as loved as possible by Him already. <3
heehee SHOUTOUT TO SITI MAH LOVEE! haha girl talks work wodners and yay we're so in the same boat/league/crocodile-infested-treacherous-waters! :) yay i love you loads *huggles*
-anne
alternating between hot/cold/hot/cold/hot/cold doesn't make for happy living nor happily ever afters
Monday, June 11, 2007
-edit- haha picture removed due to how someone thinks we don't look glam enough XD
oh my. blogger either 1) hates my photos or 2) my photos are TOO BIIIIGGG and they take eons to upload! X( either way, it spells annoyance in its most raw form.
anyway. i realised i kinda like it that this blog has a really select audience. haha not so much exclusive as lazy-to-tell-ppl-about-it. :D but it makes things so much easier, when you know that even though it's on a public space, practically noone will really read it. haha but i'm told there are lurkers. :/ which will forever remain a niggling thought at the back of me head. which is a good thing too! or else i'll be spilling my guts, heart, and other unsightly innards out on this space. which is SO TOTALLY NOT FETCH. :D heehee. but i think cryptic poems work the best. *beams*
a shaft of light filters down from above,
illuminates a small square patch of wood
shifting brilliance as sunbeams quiver in the air
it gives a little childish wriggle and bounces away.
hop
skip
jump
and yet another square stirs to life
it traces a path across the floor
nudging nooks and crannies into sleepy awakence.
dust bunnies unfurl themselves and scatter away into nothingness
darkness impales itself on a glint of ray
strength doesn't come in numbers
one solitary sunbeam chases away the gloom battalion
and leaves its formations in disarray
hop
skip
jump
sometimes, you necessitate heart MCs
oh my. blogger either 1) hates my photos or 2) my photos are TOO BIIIIGGG and they take eons to upload! X( either way, it spells annoyance in its most raw form.anyway. i realised i kinda like it that this blog has a really select audience. haha not so much exclusive as lazy-to-tell-ppl-about-it. :D but it makes things so much easier, when you know that even though it's on a public space, practically noone will really read it. haha but i'm told there are lurkers. :/ which will forever remain a niggling thought at the back of me head. which is a good thing too! or else i'll be spilling my guts, heart, and other unsightly innards out on this space. which is SO TOTALLY NOT FETCH. :D heehee. but i think cryptic poems work the best. *beams*
a shaft of light filters down from above,
illuminates a small square patch of wood
shifting brilliance as sunbeams quiver in the air
it gives a little childish wriggle and bounces away.
hop
skip
jump
and yet another square stirs to life
it traces a path across the floor
nudging nooks and crannies into sleepy awakence.
dust bunnies unfurl themselves and scatter away into nothingness
darkness impales itself on a glint of ray
strength doesn't come in numbers
one solitary sunbeam chases away the gloom battalion
and leaves its formations in disarray
hop
skip
jump
sometimes, you necessitate heart MCs
Sunday, June 10, 2007
i don't want to get conned!
but you're making it oh-so-hard
haha ohh yes this week has been the BUSIEST week of my hols so far! busy in going out terms haha in productive terms :D
and it's been overload-joanne-on-frisbee-week! and joanne is starting to fall madly in love with frisbee :D and joanne realises that talking about herself from the 3rd person point of view is a pretty refreshing change. and joanne realises too, too late, that she's starting to have a penchant for ranting incoherently about matters others couldn't care less about. :D
but anyway LOVE LOADS to jingli <3 [my dearly beloved puff!], tim <3, ben oi <3, ben wong <3, rachel <3, vidya <3! haha i don't think most of them come here anyway but it's okay everybody needs love (: and i shall post pics of frisbee soon!
Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie? would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care... you're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
haha was lookign at my old videos of 411 chalet where we sang this song and ohh how it brings back memories (:
would you create new ones for me then?
-anne
but you're making it oh-so-hard
haha ohh yes this week has been the BUSIEST week of my hols so far! busy in going out terms haha in productive terms :D
and it's been overload-joanne-on-frisbee-week! and joanne is starting to fall madly in love with frisbee :D and joanne realises that talking about herself from the 3rd person point of view is a pretty refreshing change. and joanne realises too, too late, that she's starting to have a penchant for ranting incoherently about matters others couldn't care less about. :D
but anyway LOVE LOADS to jingli <3 [my dearly beloved puff!], tim <3, ben oi <3, ben wong <3, rachel <3, vidya <3! haha i don't think most of them come here anyway but it's okay everybody needs love (: and i shall post pics of frisbee soon!
Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie? would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care... you're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...You're here tonight.
I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero.
haha was lookign at my old videos of 411 chalet where we sang this song and ohh how it brings back memories (:
would you create new ones for me then?
-anne
Thursday, May 31, 2007
our squashies fareewell! i just realised i've TONS of photos that i've yet to post like A GAZZILION. :D i feel like such a camwhore haha but i love taking photos, especially when everyone is high and happy and you can just reminisce abt the good ol' days :DLOVES AND HUGGS TO POXY, BELLE, YUJIA for all the wacko moments during squash, the wheezing and complaining and starvation during pts and court sessions! and when you tried to imagine zainal's or some poor person's face on the wall, so we'll supposedly hit harder :D :D :D
oh mannn i miss squash! i miss hitting with the sweet spot and getting that OH-SO-WONDERFUL twanggggggggg and when the ball just zips past into the back court. BRILLIANT. :D
HAHAHAHAHA when i saw this pic i was like :D :D :D :D sam and lenard's gayness were so totally random and side-splittingly funny we all would just totally crack up :D haha [insert lenard's ROMANS 1 ARH! ] i miss malacca camp sososososo much! it totally brought sam, van, lenard, dino and me so much closer together and it made us realise how much could be done to make cell so much warmer and closer <3>
and this just brings back memories on how we ALMOST VERY NEARLY got mugged/hunted down/killed when we very sneakily snuck out past midnight to go to macs for food and talk. WAH SEHH. and how the guys were so sweet and protective when they walked us really quickly back to the hotel :D haha they all formed this circle of protection around me and van and escorted us all the way back even though all of us were scared out of our wits. <3
oh boy. see that's why i love photos, they just bring back so many fun brillaint awesome gorgeous memories :D
and today we had our first frisbee non-official training! and i prolly fell down.
SPLAT.
so now my knees and elbow and palm are all scratched up ><>
-anne
but if your heart's not in it for realplease don't try to fake what you don't feelif love's already goneit's not fair to lead me oncause i would give the whole world for youanything you ask of me i'd dobut i won't ask you to stayi'd rather walk awayif your heart's not in it
Monday, May 28, 2007
i haven't uploaded my photos from immerse-emerge camp! oh myy i miss IE camp! and i lubbs every single one of the leaders! all the late nights, SNAKE ALERTS :D, crappy nametags :Dhaha and this is one crappy photo :D ALL BECAUSE OF YANE LEE. we didn't know what pose to take so he smartly yelled :"everyone point at joanne!" so smartxx. so i'm the designated clown. BRILLIANT, i say :D
Saturday, May 26, 2007
and you're only almost here
SCHOOL'S OUT! but somehow i don't feel as happy as i normally did in pri school. haha but thinking back, i always felt saddened about leaving p6gep, 1-2-3-411 and now dearly beloved 6Q! i reallyreallyreallyreally love 6Q. with all of my heart. even though there're days when it gets crummy, there're more CRUMBLY days when we collapse in fits of laughter. haha okay analogy void. :D but i just woke up today and was like "HOLIDAYS!" then "no more 6Q from mon-fri! *gasps*" and then the most startling realisation of all "1/4 OF RJ LIFE IS OVERRRRRR."
GASPS
i can't believe how time flies when you're really having fun [or how time's fun when you're having flies -kermit the frog] but i'm really in 6Q-withdrawal now.
HEARTS AND LOVE TO 6Q-ians! <333
crap pongss! my hols are just fizzling away i MUST mug! and have brilliant awesome relaxing outings tooooooooooo! with 6Q [DUH] :D [someone organise!], 411! [pongs i'm organising! :D], p6gep!, REDBLOODCELL! [ps concert!!], random frisbee training :D, and SHOPPING OUTINGS! yooohooooos. :)
God's been awesome, and He cares sosososo much for me, and i just know that all His plans for me are good and true and that He just loves me dearly. He's just been blessing me with so much love and optimism and just laughter :D and i want to want to share more about Him to the world! :D
i'm so in love with life
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
ever alone, no, no
Come on, Come
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love
no i'm not in a crush-schmush mood :D haha okay larh I CRUSH JESUS! YAYNESS. and life's just bee-you-tee-full!
-anne
SCHOOL'S OUT! but somehow i don't feel as happy as i normally did in pri school. haha but thinking back, i always felt saddened about leaving p6gep, 1-2-3-411 and now dearly beloved 6Q! i reallyreallyreallyreally love 6Q. with all of my heart. even though there're days when it gets crummy, there're more CRUMBLY days when we collapse in fits of laughter. haha okay analogy void. :D but i just woke up today and was like "HOLIDAYS!" then "no more 6Q from mon-fri! *gasps*" and then the most startling realisation of all "1/4 OF RJ LIFE IS OVERRRRRR."
GASPS
i can't believe how time flies when you're really having fun [or how time's fun when you're having flies -kermit the frog] but i'm really in 6Q-withdrawal now.
HEARTS AND LOVE TO 6Q-ians! <333
crap pongss! my hols are just fizzling away i MUST mug! and have brilliant awesome relaxing outings tooooooooooo! with 6Q [DUH] :D [someone organise!], 411! [pongs i'm organising! :D], p6gep!, REDBLOODCELL! [ps concert!!], random frisbee training :D, and SHOPPING OUTINGS! yooohooooos. :)
God's been awesome, and He cares sosososo much for me, and i just know that all His plans for me are good and true and that He just loves me dearly. He's just been blessing me with so much love and optimism and just laughter :D and i want to want to share more about Him to the world! :D
i'm so in love with life
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
ever alone, no, no
Come on, Come
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love
no i'm not in a crush-schmush mood :D haha okay larh I CRUSH JESUS! YAYNESS. and life's just bee-you-tee-full!
-anne
Monday, May 21, 2007
yesterday was brilliant! i love church and everyone from redbloodcell, even though yesterday ALL THE GIRLS pangseh-ed me and i was the only girl at cell and they BULLY me! say i'm half-guy now HAHA. I'M SURE. :D then testerday's quiet time was THE BEST in ages, i just spent time i prayer, just praying for those i love, for them to grow closer to God, to get to know God on a more intimate level. and i just felt so at peace with the whole world, and felt so secure, like God was just holding me in the palm of His hands. :)
mm i went to school today with the lightest feeling ever. even though it got clouded over A LITTLE by coughcough a mission i had to do COUGHCOUGH. haha grace and lei! :D
mm then it got REALLY CRUMMY just cause of something. :( and it just shattered my composure for the better part of the day. i don't know why it just seared my heart when i heard those words. and now i know how to refute samphua's claim that i can be half-guy now cause my psyche and a guy's psyche are totallyTOTALLY different. this post could turn out to be really emo and angsty. and i knew i was scribbling away random poems and line after line of hurt, bellying the flood of tears i knew would just spill over if i didn't scribble fast enough.
maybe you think you've got me all figured out, that who i am and what i stand for is just all out there. plain and explicit for you to dissect. and you think you know my intentions behind what i do. and it hurts because i don't think you do. and when i realised the sarcasm embedded in your comment, it was just numbness numbness numbness before the hurt came flooding back.
OKAY i shall stop all the angsting. NOW. even though i want/need an avenue for all these. but i shan't continue. :'( and i really thank God for the people in my life whom i love sososo much, especially pox, lei, grace, tim for today. <3
i realise i need love too
and since i told lei i'd quote her, haha here it is! of the "tall, dark, and not so handsome"
-anne
and i'll just close my eyes, wish you away, and send those words spinning spinning spinning away into nothingness
mm i went to school today with the lightest feeling ever. even though it got clouded over A LITTLE by coughcough a mission i had to do COUGHCOUGH. haha grace and lei! :D
mm then it got REALLY CRUMMY just cause of something. :( and it just shattered my composure for the better part of the day. i don't know why it just seared my heart when i heard those words. and now i know how to refute samphua's claim that i can be half-guy now cause my psyche and a guy's psyche are totallyTOTALLY different. this post could turn out to be really emo and angsty. and i knew i was scribbling away random poems and line after line of hurt, bellying the flood of tears i knew would just spill over if i didn't scribble fast enough.
maybe you think you've got me all figured out, that who i am and what i stand for is just all out there. plain and explicit for you to dissect. and you think you know my intentions behind what i do. and it hurts because i don't think you do. and when i realised the sarcasm embedded in your comment, it was just numbness numbness numbness before the hurt came flooding back.
OKAY i shall stop all the angsting. NOW. even though i want/need an avenue for all these. but i shan't continue. :'( and i really thank God for the people in my life whom i love sososo much, especially pox, lei, grace, tim for today. <3
i realise i need love too
and since i told lei i'd quote her, haha here it is! of the "tall, dark, and not so handsome"
-anne
and i'll just close my eyes, wish you away, and send those words spinning spinning spinning away into nothingness
Saturday, May 12, 2007
BRILLIANT DANCE NIGHT PHOTOS! with pretty lei and cheryl! :D
i want to say more but i shall just ABCDEFG [...] I WONT BE!
bleah.
but i love grace bigbig, she saved me so manymany times. and i love changs too, she knows what it's like :) i love siti cause she's my newly wed wife. and i love jooks because she tells me lame jokes so it cools the atmosphere after ive heated it up :))))))) haha oh and i love the spider who tried to make a web in zhuang's hair :D
-anne
Monday, April 23, 2007
cousinnnnnnsss!
BRILLIANT CELL!
this is reallyreallyreally bad. my state of blogging has deteoriated into picture-posint. this is SO narcissistic! haha and poxy's and my shared blog is seriously becoming a veritable wasteland, cause of how all the posts are either cryptic or just plain depthless. :( joanne is saddened. but public domain gets tricky and photos just about scrape the surface of satisfying viewership and maintaining a semblance of privacy. haha so yep for now, PHOTOSPREEEE!! :D
-anne
Sunday, April 22, 2007
CAMWHORE PRACTICE IN SECRET TOILET :D
BEAUTIFUL BESTEST BUDDIES - POXY AND ANNE! <3And when you held my hand and ran down the aisle with me
I couldn’t help but feel that a glimpse of heaven just flashed by
The strength of your hand clasping mine
Sending shivers of warmth tingling all the way to my frozen heart
Unwrapping it from the clingwrap that the years had piled on
Gently easing the tightness away
Until both our hearts flew on wings of song
I couldn’t help but feel that a glimpse of heaven just flashed by
The strength of your hand clasping mine
Sending shivers of warmth tingling all the way to my frozen heart
Unwrapping it from the clingwrap that the years had piled on
Gently easing the tightness away
Until both our hearts flew on wings of song
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
HAHA I'M NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING
Saturday, April 07, 2007
oh my goodness i've not blogged for ages! haha it's weird to start blogging again about life without the use of random poems :D yay i lubbs my poems haha say you lubbs them too! i know you do, it's okay dont feel shy :D
anyway, so many things have happened it's entirely impossible for me to blog about them properly. and seeing how my brain's like full of holes, a ton of them probably fell out on the way home everyday! haha but I LOVE 6Q and to quote a certain person, 6Q girls>6Q guys! HAHA okay larh 6Q girls >/= 6Q guys! haha OKAY FINE i shall be fair 6Q girls=6Q guys WAIT CANNOT that's like wrong okay 6Q > ANYONE ELSE haha YAY!
oh my i sound so incoherent. but it's okay, it provides mental gym for whoever's reading. :D oh yes the recent-est thing to blog about YIX'S HOUSEEEEEE! his house is gorgeous! totally, and it has so many facilities and all, i'm not surprised if it has a mini foodcourt hidden somewhere in the recesses of the rooms. :D and we had so much fun!
haha okok rewiiiind to beginning. oh yes i had CHURCH in the morning! yay cause it was Good Friday and WOW the service was superb, the songs were brilliant, but nothing can beat the true meaning of Good Friday :) of how Jesus died on the cross for all our sins. it's really too wonderful to comprehend really when you get down to the basics of it all. and i rememeber tim saying how God had told him that if he was the only person, Jesus would have just as willingly died for him too. <3 wow, the power of God's love. and when i saw the clip during offertory where He was pierced for our transgressions and whipped for our iniquities, i couldn't help crying. crying for all that i;ve done and all that i've failed to do and how much Jesus still loves me through it all. <333333333333333333333
yepps then went for lunch with my parents and called JOOKS! and she poor girl was the only one at yix's house! oh no how could the rest pangseh herrrrr! :( but it's okay cause lei, siti and i went to her rescue! TRALALA! *cues powerpuff girls song* haha yay so we all nicely got there and hmm oh yes they were having lunch! and i met yix's FRATERNAL TWIN BROTHER *ahem* we'll be glad to furnish you with more melodramatic details if you so wish :D *please come prepared with a dose of gullibility* HAHA :D yes then we uh we uh i cant rmb the orderrr!! oh pongs.
okay nvm i shall fast forward to when lei reached! yay lei the rich girl cabbed alllll the way to yix's house. pro or pro i ask you! then we had nicenicenice girl talk with lovely lei, jolly jooks and superb siti in the kitchen. girl talks unearth the most astounding information sometimes :D
thennnnnn i think we played taitee! the *badword*taitee yes. haha so funny we kept reversing our order like reallyreally in order! and siti became abit drunk on the bobohitam i think cause she let loose her singing prowess many times and she and nigel both couldn't reach the cards to shuffle them -.- --> NIGEL face! HOHOHO yay and i eventually became king from TOILET PAPER okay!
then we played tabletennis! and then being the noobs we all are, the balls naturally had an adverse reaction to the table, and they went EVERYWHERE BUT the table *ahem* HAHA and juks really nicely became our picker-of-balls and lei was right in telling her "i think you stay under the table more efficient" HAHA i think so too. actually we should just play under the table :D
THEN THE BESTEST PART OF ALL! yix actually has a ktv room! LIKE WOW! it's meant to be i tell you, seeing how all the girls loved to sing! and okay fastforward through all our high fangirly moments and past all the times where the GUYS didn't want to sing AHEM coughcoughcoughcoughcoughcough :D haha then there was our favourite song okay fine, my presently favourite song! NO MORE MILK TODAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yix sang it really well, i almost peed in my pants from laughing so hard! :D haha then there was westlife! and we fangirled of course! and in the course of that XUEWEI OUR DEAR YAM MOCHI magically appeared from mochi kingdom :D and then we sang even more haha
then we had a democratic vote! on whether to watch 300 ><, step up :DDDD or borat >< >< >< haha guess which one i voted for :D then we watched step up for abit where the ppl looked bloodshed to quote yix's twin. haha then they watcehd borat! :'( :'( :'( haha okay i'm a wuss, i dont like movies like borat, dont like the content, dont like the language dont like the morals portrayed la. hahha personal opinion la, but i'm one of those ppl who watches only romantic comedies so uh haha you get the idea! :D mm so i went out halfway la, was gg to get my handphone outside but decided to stay out anyway.
then i stoned around abit outside and messed around with my phone haha OH NO i sound so loserpok! BUT NVM it's okay :D then yix's weewee came out too then we decided to play table tennis! yay and we rocked k, i felt accomplished! i think the ball liked the table then haha. then i went with siti on our female conquest then when i went back up weewee was beign emo poster boy haha should have gotten yix to come out and comfort him :D
then we had dinner! and then yix's parents so sweetly fetched my to mrt and i went to my granddad's house! and had more girltalk with my DARLINGEST cousins! MUACKS
hahah WOW that must have been my longest post since forever! GRACE you better be honoured okay! i started blogging cause of youuuu! :D hahah are you touched? :DDDDDD
kk byeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
-anne
oh how many times have i broken Your heart
still You forgive if only i ask
anyway, so many things have happened it's entirely impossible for me to blog about them properly. and seeing how my brain's like full of holes, a ton of them probably fell out on the way home everyday! haha but I LOVE 6Q and to quote a certain person, 6Q girls>6Q guys! HAHA okay larh 6Q girls >/= 6Q guys! haha OKAY FINE i shall be fair 6Q girls=6Q guys WAIT CANNOT that's like wrong okay 6Q > ANYONE ELSE haha YAY!
oh my i sound so incoherent. but it's okay, it provides mental gym for whoever's reading. :D oh yes the recent-est thing to blog about YIX'S HOUSEEEEEE! his house is gorgeous! totally, and it has so many facilities and all, i'm not surprised if it has a mini foodcourt hidden somewhere in the recesses of the rooms. :D and we had so much fun!
haha okok rewiiiind to beginning. oh yes i had CHURCH in the morning! yay cause it was Good Friday and WOW the service was superb, the songs were brilliant, but nothing can beat the true meaning of Good Friday :) of how Jesus died on the cross for all our sins. it's really too wonderful to comprehend really when you get down to the basics of it all. and i rememeber tim saying how God had told him that if he was the only person, Jesus would have just as willingly died for him too. <3 wow, the power of God's love. and when i saw the clip during offertory where He was pierced for our transgressions and whipped for our iniquities, i couldn't help crying. crying for all that i;ve done and all that i've failed to do and how much Jesus still loves me through it all. <333333333333333333333
yepps then went for lunch with my parents and called JOOKS! and she poor girl was the only one at yix's house! oh no how could the rest pangseh herrrrr! :( but it's okay cause lei, siti and i went to her rescue! TRALALA! *cues powerpuff girls song* haha yay so we all nicely got there and hmm oh yes they were having lunch! and i met yix's FRATERNAL TWIN BROTHER *ahem* we'll be glad to furnish you with more melodramatic details if you so wish :D *please come prepared with a dose of gullibility* HAHA :D yes then we uh we uh i cant rmb the orderrr!! oh pongs.
okay nvm i shall fast forward to when lei reached! yay lei the rich girl cabbed alllll the way to yix's house. pro or pro i ask you! then we had nicenicenice girl talk with lovely lei, jolly jooks and superb siti in the kitchen. girl talks unearth the most astounding information sometimes :D
thennnnnn i think we played taitee! the *badword*taitee yes. haha so funny we kept reversing our order like reallyreally in order! and siti became abit drunk on the bobohitam i think cause she let loose her singing prowess many times and she and nigel both couldn't reach the cards to shuffle them -.- --> NIGEL face! HOHOHO yay and i eventually became king from TOILET PAPER okay!
then we played tabletennis! and then being the noobs we all are, the balls naturally had an adverse reaction to the table, and they went EVERYWHERE BUT the table *ahem* HAHA and juks really nicely became our picker-of-balls and lei was right in telling her "i think you stay under the table more efficient" HAHA i think so too. actually we should just play under the table :D
THEN THE BESTEST PART OF ALL! yix actually has a ktv room! LIKE WOW! it's meant to be i tell you, seeing how all the girls loved to sing! and okay fastforward through all our high fangirly moments and past all the times where the GUYS didn't want to sing AHEM coughcoughcoughcoughcoughcough :D haha then there was our favourite song okay fine, my presently favourite song! NO MORE MILK TODAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yix sang it really well, i almost peed in my pants from laughing so hard! :D haha then there was westlife! and we fangirled of course! and in the course of that XUEWEI OUR DEAR YAM MOCHI magically appeared from mochi kingdom :D and then we sang even more haha
then we had a democratic vote! on whether to watch 300 ><, step up :DDDD or borat >< >< >< haha guess which one i voted for :D then we watched step up for abit where the ppl looked bloodshed to quote yix's twin. haha then they watcehd borat! :'( :'( :'( haha okay i'm a wuss, i dont like movies like borat, dont like the content, dont like the language dont like the morals portrayed la. hahha personal opinion la, but i'm one of those ppl who watches only romantic comedies so uh haha you get the idea! :D mm so i went out halfway la, was gg to get my handphone outside but decided to stay out anyway.
then i stoned around abit outside and messed around with my phone haha OH NO i sound so loserpok! BUT NVM it's okay :D then yix's weewee came out too then we decided to play table tennis! yay and we rocked k, i felt accomplished! i think the ball liked the table then haha. then i went with siti on our female conquest then when i went back up weewee was beign emo poster boy haha should have gotten yix to come out and comfort him :D
then we had dinner! and then yix's parents so sweetly fetched my to mrt and i went to my granddad's house! and had more girltalk with my DARLINGEST cousins! MUACKS
hahah WOW that must have been my longest post since forever! GRACE you better be honoured okay! i started blogging cause of youuuu! :D hahah are you touched? :DDDDDD
kk byeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
-anne
oh how many times have i broken Your heart
still You forgive if only i ask
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