COUGHS grace i have rectified my noobness COUGHS

and blogger is DAFT. it doesn't have the exact same shade of pink as my background! pfft

andand CTs are overrrrrr!! *beams* and i've been wasting alot of my time and money slacking around and doing nothing. how in the world my money disappears even when i'm not doing anything, is a whole new concept untouched and unfounded as yet. :D haha anyway thursday was a blast, after the SCREWY physics paper which i shan't go into morbid detail about. FINALLY met up with poxpoxpoxpoxpoxpox! and we had totally refreshing girltalk, about this, that and the other, all in true-blue girl fashion :) and we did ALOT of nooby things, which i can't remembered now! but yeah alotta noob stuff. this blogpost is getting to be very sian. i am also very sian. i am wastign time online before i go out for gorgeous dinner with puff, chengs, yuanzzzz! this is such a nonsense post.

oh yeah and then we had brillaint dinner on thurs with lei sitii and joooks! at plaza sing! which was the NOOBIEST AFFAIR ON EARTH! everybody, raise your hand, stick out your index finger, point to siti PLEASE! heeheeee, siti and i are like at the lowest level of the suan-ment chain :( :( :( :( :( but it's okay, cause we bring love joy and laughter into the lifes of those around us! BUT I'M SO SIAN NOWWWWWW somebardyyyy bring love joy and laughter into my life nowwwwwwww. ANYWAY, i was enlightened about stuff. which was quite educational. but quite traumatising as well. look people, I AM GROWING UP and UNDERSTANDING the thigns of the world! but i don't want to. this is such a totally convoluted post that i shall just say bye now and go bathe and choose prettypretty clothes to wear out. YAYYY!! :D

SUCH a disappointment
make an effort, why don't you?
it hurts to see how it seemed like we were all so happily bonded at the beginning of the year
it's a shame really
but maybe guys just reallyreallyreally think very differently from girls
or maybe you all just find us OTT
but
it's okay cause no matter what
there's always a but
to fit at the end of every rant
a'but' that gives hope
:)

goodness. i can't believe i'm blogging AGAIN. this is getting to be a little habitual haha. i feel like putting up a neon billboard and saying WATCH THIS SPACE! in garish colours, but i've a hunch it 1) won't go down well with the well-mannered audience :D 2) afore-mentioned well mannere-ed audience would happily number 0 after my little repartee and fling with Mr tasteless billboard. :D

ANYWAY.

today! i! went! for! chem! consult! :D which actually translates into crazy noob sessions with SITII [who else, seriously :D:D:D] and GRACE and WEIXIAN. oh and GRACE'S beloved! haha and i must SO post about grace!

siti: so. how long did you spend talking to him? -insert askance glances and smothered giggles between siti and joanne-
grace: about two hours. WOOHOO! *tosses head*
siti and joanne: *blinks* AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

heeheeeheeeeeeee. i shall try to be cool from now on and start a new trend. instead of sayign heehee or haha or cancan or yesyes, i shall say heesquared or ha squared or can squared, you get my drift. :D haha. i mean hasquared. was reminded of this by kok-squared! which was a lead-on from the bee-yoo-tee-fully touching card from lynette, and puff and.. AHHH I MISS MY 411! but 6Q ROCKS ALL MY PINK SOCKS! <3

haha [pongs i keep forgetting to use hasquared] and today was. COUGH. well the front-er part of today. be still thy thudding heart. ah whatever. i'll just be content that my whole life is in God's hands and He watches over me and every single turn my life takes. and somewhere [over the rainbow :)] He's watching over my special someone too. :) it's wonderful to know that God's in control over EVERY SINGLE BITTY ITTY thing and that no matter what, i'm as loved as possible by Him already. <3

heehee SHOUTOUT TO SITI MAH LOVEE! haha girl talks work wodners and yay we're so in the same boat/league/crocodile-infested-treacherous-waters! :) yay i love you loads *huggles*

-anne
alternating between hot/cold/hot/cold/hot/cold doesn't make for happy living nor happily ever afters

-edit- haha picture removed due to how someone thinks we don't look glam enough XD


oh my. blogger either 1) hates my photos or 2) my photos are TOO BIIIIGGG and they take eons to upload! X( either way, it spells annoyance in its most raw form.



anyway. i realised i kinda like it that this blog has a really select audience. haha not so much exclusive as lazy-to-tell-ppl-about-it. :D but it makes things so much easier, when you know that even though it's on a public space, practically noone will really read it. haha but i'm told there are lurkers. :/ which will forever remain a niggling thought at the back of me head. which is a good thing too! or else i'll be spilling my guts, heart, and other unsightly innards out on this space. which is SO TOTALLY NOT FETCH. :D heehee. but i think cryptic poems work the best. *beams*



a shaft of light filters down from above,
illuminates a small square patch of wood
shifting brilliance as sunbeams quiver in the air
it gives a little childish wriggle and bounces away.
hop
skip
jump
and yet another square stirs to life
it traces a path across the floor

nudging nooks and crannies into sleepy awakence.
dust bunnies unfurl themselves and scatter away into nothingness
darkness impales itself on a glint of ray
strength doesn't come in numbers
one solitary sunbeam chases away the gloom battalion
and leaves its formations in disarray
hop
skip
jump


sometimes, you necessitate heart MCs

i don't want to get conned!
but you're making it oh-so-hard

haha ohh yes this week has been the BUSIEST week of my hols so far! busy in going out terms haha in productive terms :D

and it's been overload-joanne-on-frisbee-week! and joanne is starting to fall madly in love with frisbee :D and joanne realises that talking about herself from the 3rd person point of view is a pretty refreshing change. and joanne realises too, too late, that she's starting to have a penchant for ranting incoherently about matters others couldn't care less about. :D

but anyway LOVE LOADS to jingli <3 [my dearly beloved puff!], tim <3, ben oi <3, ben wong <3, rachel <3, vidya <3! haha i don't think most of them come here anyway but it's okay everybody needs love (: and i shall post pics of frisbee soon!

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie? would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care... you're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

haha was lookign at my old videos of 411 chalet where we sang this song and ohh how it brings back memories (:
would you create new ones for me then?

-anne

our squashies fareewell! i just realised i've TONS of photos that i've yet to post like A GAZZILION. :D i feel like such a camwhore haha but i love taking photos, especially when everyone is high and happy and you can just reminisce abt the good ol' days :D

LOVES AND HUGGS TO POXY, BELLE, YUJIA for all the wacko moments during squash, the wheezing and complaining and starvation during pts and court sessions! and when you tried to imagine zainal's or some poor person's face on the wall, so we'll supposedly hit harder :D :D :D

oh mannn i miss squash! i miss hitting with the sweet spot and getting that OH-SO-WONDERFUL twanggggggggg and when the ball just zips past into the back court. BRILLIANT. :D

HAHAHAHAHA when i saw this pic i was like :D :D :D :D sam and lenard's gayness were so totally random and side-splittingly funny we all would just totally crack up :D haha [insert lenard's ROMANS 1 ARH! ] i miss malacca camp sososososo much! it totally brought sam, van, lenard, dino and me so much closer together and it made us realise how much could be done to make cell so much warmer and closer <3>

and this just brings back memories on how we ALMOST VERY NEARLY got mugged/hunted down/killed when we very sneakily snuck out past midnight to go to macs for food and talk. WAH SEHH. and how the guys were so sweet and protective when they walked us really quickly back to the hotel :D haha they all formed this circle of protection around me and van and escorted us all the way back even though all of us were scared out of our wits. <3

oh boy. see that's why i love photos, they just bring back so many fun brillaint awesome gorgeous memories :D

and today we had our first frisbee non-official training! and i prolly fell down.

SPLAT.

so now my knees and elbow and palm are all scratched up ><>

-anne

but if your heart's not in it for realplease don't try to fake what you don't feelif love's already goneit's not fair to lead me oncause i would give the whole world for youanything you ask of me i'd dobut i won't ask you to stayi'd rather walk awayif your heart's not in it

i haven't uploaded my photos from immerse-emerge camp! oh myy i miss IE camp! and i lubbs every single one of the leaders! all the late nights, SNAKE ALERTS :D, crappy nametags :D
haha and this is one crappy photo :D ALL BECAUSE OF YANE LEE. we didn't know what pose to take so he smartly yelled :"everyone point at joanne!" so smartxx. so i'm the designated clown. BRILLIANT, i say :D

and you're only almost here


SCHOOL'S OUT! but somehow i don't feel as happy as i normally did in pri school. haha but thinking back, i always felt saddened about leaving p6gep, 1-2-3-411 and now dearly beloved 6Q! i reallyreallyreallyreally love 6Q. with all of my heart. even though there're days when it gets crummy, there're more CRUMBLY days when we collapse in fits of laughter. haha okay analogy void. :D but i just woke up today and was like "HOLIDAYS!" then "no more 6Q from mon-fri! *gasps*" and then the most startling realisation of all "1/4 OF RJ LIFE IS OVERRRRRR."


GASPS


i can't believe how time flies when you're really having fun [or how time's fun when you're having flies -kermit the frog] but i'm really in 6Q-withdrawal now.


HEARTS AND LOVE TO 6Q-ians! <333


crap pongss! my hols are just fizzling away i MUST mug! and have brilliant awesome relaxing outings tooooooooooo! with 6Q [DUH] :D [someone organise!], 411! [pongs i'm organising! :D], p6gep!, REDBLOODCELL! [ps concert!!], random frisbee training :D, and SHOPPING OUTINGS! yooohooooos. :)


God's been awesome, and He cares sosososo much for me, and i just know that all His plans for me are good and true and that He just loves me dearly. He's just been blessing me with so much love and optimism and just laughter :D and i want to want to share more about Him to the world! :D


i'm so in love with life

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it


How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love


Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love


So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love


Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love


These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
ever alone, no, no


Come on, Come
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love


Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love


no i'm not in a crush-schmush mood :D haha okay larh I CRUSH JESUS! YAYNESS. and life's just bee-you-tee-full!


-anne

yesterday was brilliant! i love church and everyone from redbloodcell, even though yesterday ALL THE GIRLS pangseh-ed me and i was the only girl at cell and they BULLY me! say i'm half-guy now HAHA. I'M SURE. :D then testerday's quiet time was THE BEST in ages, i just spent time i prayer, just praying for those i love, for them to grow closer to God, to get to know God on a more intimate level. and i just felt so at peace with the whole world, and felt so secure, like God was just holding me in the palm of His hands. :)

mm i went to school today with the lightest feeling ever. even though it got clouded over A LITTLE by coughcough a mission i had to do COUGHCOUGH. haha grace and lei! :D

mm then it got REALLY CRUMMY just cause of something. :( and it just shattered my composure for the better part of the day. i don't know why it just seared my heart when i heard those words. and now i know how to refute samphua's claim that i can be half-guy now cause my psyche and a guy's psyche are totallyTOTALLY different. this post could turn out to be really emo and angsty. and i knew i was scribbling away random poems and line after line of hurt, bellying the flood of tears i knew would just spill over if i didn't scribble fast enough.

maybe you think you've got me all figured out, that who i am and what i stand for is just all out there. plain and explicit for you to dissect. and you think you know my intentions behind what i do. and it hurts because i don't think you do. and when i realised the sarcasm embedded in your comment, it was just numbness numbness numbness before the hurt came flooding back.

OKAY i shall stop all the angsting. NOW. even though i want/need an avenue for all these. but i shan't continue. :'( and i really thank God for the people in my life whom i love sososo much, especially pox, lei, grace, tim for today. <3

i realise i need love too

and since i told lei i'd quote her, haha here it is! of the "tall, dark, and not so handsome"

-anne

and i'll just close my eyes, wish you away, and send those words spinning spinning spinning away into nothingness

BRILLIANT DANCE NIGHT PHOTOS! with pretty lei and cheryl! :D

i want to say more but i shall just ABCDEFG [...] I WONT BE!

bleah.

but i love grace bigbig, she saved me so manymany times. and i love changs too, she knows what it's like :) i love siti cause she's my newly wed wife. and i love jooks because she tells me lame jokes so it cools the atmosphere after ive heated it up :))))))) haha oh and i love the spider who tried to make a web in zhuang's hair :D

-anne

cousinnnnnnsss!

BRILLIANT CELL!

this is reallyreallyreally bad. my state of blogging has deteoriated into picture-posint. this is SO narcissistic! haha and poxy's and my shared blog is seriously becoming a veritable wasteland, cause of how all the posts are either cryptic or just plain depthless. :( joanne is saddened. but public domain gets tricky and photos just about scrape the surface of satisfying viewership and maintaining a semblance of privacy. haha so yep for now, PHOTOSPREEEE!! :D

-anne

CAMWHORE PRACTICE IN SECRET TOILET :D

BEAUTIFUL BESTEST BUDDIES - POXY AND ANNE! <3

And when you held my hand and ran down the aisle with me
I couldn’t help but feel that a glimpse of heaven just flashed by
The strength of your hand clasping mine
Sending shivers of warmth tingling all the way to my frozen heart
Unwrapping it from the clingwrap that the years had piled on
Gently easing the tightness away
Until both our hearts flew on wings of song

my dearest church girls!

OH MY GOODNESS! i can actually post my pictures nowwww. YOOOHOOOS. say HELLO to a whole new world of blogging! :DD

my beloved 6q!! <3

HAHA I'M NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING

oh my goodness i've not blogged for ages! haha it's weird to start blogging again about life without the use of random poems :D yay i lubbs my poems haha say you lubbs them too! i know you do, it's okay dont feel shy :D

anyway, so many things have happened it's entirely impossible for me to blog about them properly. and seeing how my brain's like full of holes, a ton of them probably fell out on the way home everyday! haha but I LOVE 6Q and to quote a certain person, 6Q girls>6Q guys! HAHA okay larh 6Q girls >/= 6Q guys! haha OKAY FINE i shall be fair 6Q girls=6Q guys WAIT CANNOT that's like wrong okay 6Q > ANYONE ELSE haha YAY!

oh my i sound so incoherent. but it's okay, it provides mental gym for whoever's reading. :D oh yes the recent-est thing to blog about YIX'S HOUSEEEEEE! his house is gorgeous! totally, and it has so many facilities and all, i'm not surprised if it has a mini foodcourt hidden somewhere in the recesses of the rooms. :D and we had so much fun!

haha okok rewiiiind to beginning. oh yes i had CHURCH in the morning! yay cause it was Good Friday and WOW the service was superb, the songs were brilliant, but nothing can beat the true meaning of Good Friday :) of how Jesus died on the cross for all our sins. it's really too wonderful to comprehend really when you get down to the basics of it all. and i rememeber tim saying how God had told him that if he was the only person, Jesus would have just as willingly died for him too. <3 wow, the power of God's love. and when i saw the clip during offertory where He was pierced for our transgressions and whipped for our iniquities, i couldn't help crying. crying for all that i;ve done and all that i've failed to do and how much Jesus still loves me through it all. <333333333333333333333

yepps then went for lunch with my parents and called JOOKS! and she poor girl was the only one at yix's house! oh no how could the rest pangseh herrrrr! :( but it's okay cause lei, siti and i went to her rescue! TRALALA! *cues powerpuff girls song* haha yay so we all nicely got there and hmm oh yes they were having lunch! and i met yix's FRATERNAL TWIN BROTHER *ahem* we'll be glad to furnish you with more melodramatic details if you so wish :D *please come prepared with a dose of gullibility* HAHA :D yes then we uh we uh i cant rmb the orderrr!! oh pongs.

okay nvm i shall fast forward to when lei reached! yay lei the rich girl cabbed alllll the way to yix's house. pro or pro i ask you! then we had nicenicenice girl talk with lovely lei, jolly jooks and superb siti in the kitchen. girl talks unearth the most astounding information sometimes :D

thennnnnn i think we played taitee! the *badword*taitee yes. haha so funny we kept reversing our order like reallyreally in order! and siti became abit drunk on the bobohitam i think cause she let loose her singing prowess many times and she and nigel both couldn't reach the cards to shuffle them -.- --> NIGEL face! HOHOHO yay and i eventually became king from TOILET PAPER okay!

then we played tabletennis! and then being the noobs we all are, the balls naturally had an adverse reaction to the table, and they went EVERYWHERE BUT the table *ahem* HAHA and juks really nicely became our picker-of-balls and lei was right in telling her "i think you stay under the table more efficient" HAHA i think so too. actually we should just play under the table :D

THEN THE BESTEST PART OF ALL! yix actually has a ktv room! LIKE WOW! it's meant to be i tell you, seeing how all the girls loved to sing! and okay fastforward through all our high fangirly moments and past all the times where the GUYS didn't want to sing AHEM coughcoughcoughcoughcoughcough :D haha then there was our favourite song okay fine, my presently favourite song! NO MORE MILK TODAY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yix sang it really well, i almost peed in my pants from laughing so hard! :D haha then there was westlife! and we fangirled of course! and in the course of that XUEWEI OUR DEAR YAM MOCHI magically appeared from mochi kingdom :D and then we sang even more haha

then we had a democratic vote! on whether to watch 300 ><, step up :DDDD or borat >< >< >< haha guess which one i voted for :D then we watched step up for abit where the ppl looked bloodshed to quote yix's twin. haha then they watcehd borat! :'( :'( :'( haha okay i'm a wuss, i dont like movies like borat, dont like the content, dont like the language dont like the morals portrayed la. hahha personal opinion la, but i'm one of those ppl who watches only romantic comedies so uh haha you get the idea! :D mm so i went out halfway la, was gg to get my handphone outside but decided to stay out anyway.

then i stoned around abit outside and messed around with my phone haha OH NO i sound so loserpok! BUT NVM it's okay :D then yix's weewee came out too then we decided to play table tennis! yay and we rocked k, i felt accomplished! i think the ball liked the table then haha. then i went with siti on our female conquest then when i went back up weewee was beign emo poster boy haha should have gotten yix to come out and comfort him :D

then we had dinner! and then yix's parents so sweetly fetched my to mrt and i went to my granddad's house! and had more girltalk with my DARLINGEST cousins! MUACKS

hahah WOW that must have been my longest post since forever! GRACE you better be honoured okay! i started blogging cause of youuuu! :D hahah are you touched? :DDDDDD
kk byeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

-anne

oh how many times have i broken Your heart
still You forgive if only i ask

when you locked eyes with me across the room,
all i could see were you and me in that brief instance
and it's been forever since i've felt the same rush of emotions
forever since i wanted to look so deeply into someone's eyes
and how i wished, i longed, just to hold that gaze forever
but it's as fragile as my heart you see
and i couldn't, just couldn't hold it longer

you've been tugging at my heartstrings ever since then

pheeesicks

i thought you were my fairytale, a dream when i'm not sleeping, a wish upon a star that's coming true

oosh. i haven't blogged for like ages and now's not exactly the best mood for me to be blogging in. >< but nevermind, i shall save the ranting for later. ANYHOWS, 6Q ROCCKKKSS! the girls are alllll super crazy and high on drugs everytime and we laugh at all the randomest things. i have a sneaky feeling that the guys all secretly think we belong to IMH and have duely informed them to prepare wards for us. =D HAH we're just too cool for school! *beams*

i think RJ was quite okay for me to fit in and all cause of like RG and the whole knowing everybody thing. but having a supreme class like 6Q just made the transition so much more a joy! reallyreally thank God for blessing me with such great people, people that would totally make the next 2 years a blessing. <333!

but i still love REDBLOODCELL over every other group of people. as in not like the rest aren't good enough, but more of how i feel so safe and loved and secure and supported by cell. and how I know that God is working so mightily in cell, cause it is cell after all. =D i love the way i can talk to the guys and feel so at ease, and how we can all go crazy together. what with sam and lenard's crazy gayness [ROMANS 1!], ribbing tim about his resolution *ahem* =DD, lenard the COOL CAPS PEEP and spongebobfan! and the darlingest girls who are all beeyouteefull princesses of God! van and her madcap antics and how she LOVESSSS sam *GRINNNN*, cheryl the cherlyfries, my dearest poxy, britt the funnygirl and ama of gazillion of years knowing her! can always talk to them about all kinds of crazy things and have wonderful girl talks. and the leaders have been my pillars of support, whenever i felt like crying or really did cry over horrible, terrible, irritating issues that get me all riled up, they've been sources of comfort that God has totally blessedblessedblessed me with. <333

and i thank God so much for poxy. she knows the many times i've just broken down and cried, got my <3 dashed [HEE] and wanted to rip someone else's <3 to SHREDS, all my high moments and down in the dump days. bestest friend forever! thanks for alwaysalwaysalways being there, i promise i will always harass you and continually get embarrassed when your mom knows it's me even before i say anythign beyond hello. =D aii lURbBs EuU bEeG BeEg WoRhXx! *eeeeewww how lianzz* <333

and for dearie vivi too! how she knew the right words to say when i just felt so lost and angry and bewildered. my dear sister in Christ, through whom i can and i believe i will, continue to see God's love. <33

and i thank God for Him, for how He's been blessing me so much even though sometimes i feel like i'm just walkign through the darkest valleys, and how i dont want to do the right things anymore. i've been straying from Him at times, and it only made me realise all the more explicitly that i cannot survive on my own strength, that i'm just too weak and insignificant compared to His infinite wisdom and love. i love You, Jesus <33333333333333

i still feel like ranting haha but it's public domain so it gets a tad tricky. hmmm. i shall now unleash my torrent of linguistic and poetic abilities! HAHAHA! *im sure they're existent*

patriotism.
you look up at that cloth fluttering infront of you and you know you're supposed to feel this rush of emotion.
oh why, yes of course i feel MUCH more than just a rush
it engulfs me, makes me choke and sputter and whoaa even turns the waterworks on
amazing how the red i'm seeing and my whitened face makes the perfect flag
it doesn't stand out from the vast array of flags other than the fact that i've tried to be more cordial to it
i could have been much more warm and acknowledging
but hey it's hard, feeling the restrain that i'm supposed to be bonded to this
ooh but apparently the ties have been severed
snipped off by the cutting remarks that i've been hurling, or so the cloth insists
and by my indifference to the country, or so says the cloth

the waterworks dont seem to show any signs of stopping
maybe shredded pieces of the flag are needed to stem the flow
but of course since it has no regard for me, [being inanimate after all]
the verdict pronounced stands.

and so i'm just a face with a ruined name with apparent ties to the flag.

:'(

thank God it's sunday tomorrow and i have redbloodcell to tell me what to do

-anne

Friends forever!

ahh i know that title sounds really girlish or like young and childish, but i just want to declare that even though we are now teleported into an entirely different environment for the next 2 years and beyond, the waves of change would never be able to shake the firm foundation of a friendship built on lots of laughter, sharing, secrets, gossip (girls' natural flair), RS-ing, squashing, stoning, harrassing over the phone, and of course lots of ....... (drum rolls.......) FOOD!!! (cough cough). so yar this is just a random thought that popped into my mind. well, at least the blog is still alive! one more day to O level results!

frivolous chatter bounce off the walls around you
your heart sinks as you face the abject-looking buildings
green and white
a place where every action of yours might turn the other person green with envy
or where only relationships bearing a facade, white and superficial might manifest
torn apart by the should dos and want to dos
new beginnings new surroundings
as you struggle to find your bearing in the sea of people
butterflies fleet past, leaving behind a long trail
should you join them,
should you condemn them?
what if the very act that turned you off
turns you around, you are now cut in that same act
Perhaps the world is destined to be the eternal stage
where raw emotions seldom see the light
because everyone is eager for the limelight
You are the scripwriter of this 2 year play
And like all successful ones
Everything is but just another act.

guys like you are a dime a dozen

you look out onto a field full of flowers
each with its own unique colour and scent
some sway, some bend, some shy away from the sun
others jostle their way to the front and stick their petals in your face
you're bunched up with some of them daisies, poppies and whatnots
your eyes glaze over and the first day passes in a blur
you're strangely captivated by a spunky tulip
its vibrancy and hyperness seems to offer something
you reach out for the touch of its soft petals
WOOSH
the wind blows a bunch of garishly coloured tiger lillies over
WHOOOAAAA
by petal or by stalk they steal the show
and the tulip slinks away into the background

funny how the wildflowers take over the main show
and the tulips are now part of the wallpaper

guys like you are less than a dime a dozen

yooohooos! it's nearly the end of the first day of 07 and my mom and i still keep getting mixed up with this year and last year and the next year. haha actually it's just silly ol' me i think! =D just think of a stilted conversation like the following
me: i loved this year!
mom: but you've not gone through it!
me: nonono not next year! this year!
mom: LAST year!
me: no not sec 3! sec 4! THIS year!
mom: LAST year!
me: THIS year! no wait last year!
...
AHEM. my inner calendar's still in 2006. :D i lovedlovedlovedloved 06 like nuts! the bestest times, the bestest friends and the bestest moments! haha i've a feeling i'll be saying this at the end of practically every year, but! =D

so here's LOADS of love, hugs and kisses possible to the following people who've made my year!

God!
my family!
311/411!
redbloodcell!
speedlight!
ushering!
p6GEP!

if i could give a really personal shoutout to each and everyone of you, itll be fantastic but haha knowing me, it'll be a time far in the future when i actually finish this entry! :D so please pardon your dearest friend here and just know that ALL OF YOU have a huge place in her heart.

i love all of you. LOVELOVE! <3

-anne

I LOVE LEAD CAMP! :DDDD

oh my, it's terrible, my HEART is breaking infront of me! :'( i miss my DINGDONGS like well the way i miss them! even though it took awhile for them to warm up and all, being sports and performing arts and having yuhyiing and i as their coughextremelynicecough camp group facilitators. haha and they're such dears! and plus they say the cutest things on earth

horrrright. first day we uh [WHAT DID WE DO?] uh oh yes station games! the MOE ppl think we're all dodos or something, haha most of the station games were kinda easy. but still dingdongggggggg was nicely enthu! oh right for the lost, the dingdong name came from the really fun dingdong game haha. my thoughts are jumping all over the place but yessh anyway there was the nitro crossing game! where fadz lost her butt and chao ying lost her arm. haha so cute :D

and the zigzag crossing! where dear dingdong friends were so pro and completed it so quickly, so they had to sing a random song and do random actions. :D
okay station games were abit below standards pelipeli admits now but dear friends, we HAD to be hyped up because if dear dingdongs were to be 100% enthooood, poor yuhyiing and i had to be 300% so you could guess the amount of sugar we had to ingest. :D but our group was so nice, that yuhyiing and i had such a blast with them. :D *cue blatant show of love for dingdong*

and all of them did the high wire crossings BRILLIANTLY, haha even though they came back down exclaiming how they were unable to stop quivering like jelly on the line. but they looked totally pro up there, so BRAVO! :D

and 2nd day, KAYAKING and RAFTING! haha teoteo 's favourite part i'll bet. :D the raft was super hard to make, what with the impossibly hard to tie barrels and useless rubber floats haha. but dingdong did ittt! haha so when the raft was brought out to sea, all of them were clambouring on. haha poor michelle and yanru were trying to sit on the useless rubber tyres and kept falling over. haha bearbear and i couldn't help laughing. :D and all of you went off! to the sea and beyond [ of about 3 metres but whatever :D]! haha then the dumbdumb barrel had to come loose and ahem it disintegrated abit, but who cares it floated!

then lunch! where our group was so thoughful and unique that we volunteered to sit outside the canteen and fry in the sun so that sand won't be tracked into the canteen. AWWW. :D

kayaking! joonjoon dear was supposed to kayak with me but i ahemamnotaverygoodkayakerahem so darling teoteo who seems to be so pro at every thing possible was to kayak with joon. and yingqi and i were kayak buddies! haha by this stroke of good/bad luck haha joonjoon teoteo pelipeli and yingqi all ended up in the same group. YAYNESS. :D AND i didn't scream AT ALL when we had to stop go ask yingqi, you teoteo! haha teoteo: "i'll bet you take history, you look like you take history" then after a while " i'll bet you'll scream [inserts her own version of a scream] when you have to stop, you look like the type!" dear friend, yingqi and i kept hearing , guess who, YOU! haha ahemahem, so who looks like the screamer now? :D

haha rightt. so then we had debriefs and stuff. and then it was DINNER! and cause allll the facils were stinky/wet/sandy/smelly we had to eat outside and i prolly spilled half of my dinner. haha then yy, shushu and weiming all went abit high in watching the psuedo-sunset and starting singing our all time favourite pervy song! dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai ladidididum. haha elmo face and i nicely ignore them. haha then we went over and joined them and gayed around singing random songs. THEN all the facils REALLY went off tangent like seriously. we started doing chihuahua. HMMMM how MATURE haha :D

[insert a really long time of 2 weeks]

right. my memory is gettign fuzzy! i must remember what happened! oh right, last day of lead camp! :( we had the sec 1s over for DINGDONG to facilitate and they did it BRILLIANTLY! :) yay, i totally love them to bits. then we did high ropes activity and for some reason, we were all hanging outside the area and talking crap. hahaha, must be the SUPERB influence of yuhyiing and me! :D then we got to talking about people looking like animals. and TADAH. guess what, REALSIATION OF THE CENTURY, no MILLENIUM. yuhyiing apparently looks like a bear and i am the spitting image of a ..

PELICAN.

i am honoured. no really i am. :DD haha then we did the high ropes! both me and yuhyiing! yay! it was reallyreally brilliant! the adrenaline rush and the sense of accomplishment are really sources of ADDICTION. :D haha then we had to go pack up and stuff. :( haha the facils were all trying to finish up our notes and forms and clear up HAHA the facils' dorm would be the messiest I THINK. but why of course, we're such wonderful role models. :D or maybe it was just my area. HMM.

then we had farewell! and DINGDONG did a really cute poem haha.

then.

WE HAD TO ALL GO HOME :((((((((((

i love DINGONG! bearbear.michelle.zeslene.joonjoon.teoteo.fadz.chaoying.yingqi.sherry.yanru.shuyu.lisa. all of you have my love. :D

- joanne the pelipeli! <33333333333333.14

i think i've been living in my own little happy bubble for too long. it's as though the more i try to shut out the ugliness of the world, the pain and unhappiness of the countless souls passing through this life, the more i become oblivious to the needs outside my bubble.

like seriously, when's the last time you, or i for that matter, have done something, just for the sake of someone else, even though it SCARED YOU TO THE VERY DEPTHS OF YOUR SOUL to just be bold and do it. i've always been telling myself to pray for others, but when the exams loom, i feel so insignificant offering to pray for them. such cowardice that its almost repulsive.

and you know the busker in the udnerground link? how many times have i just walked past him and KNEW that if only i would just stop to say a little word or two, it'll brighten up my day a million times more than it would make his. how many times have i thought that, but FAILED time and time again to ever venture close?

sometimes the amount of careless words that we may speak is astoundingly frightening. and the friends whom you feel so carefree with, you actually feel so powerless, so timid to break the mould. freidnship, when it realy boils down to it, isn't just the feel goodness of it although yes, it's one of God's nicest gifts :D but it's the really small actions, the word or two that reallyREALLY show you care. it's when no one's looking and the spotlight no longer shines on a little dusty corner where a friend is hiding that you go out of the light and into the darkness and THEN create your own glow.

let the world mock me, let them think i'm weird, let them think it's abnormal for a girl to go against the flow and stop in the middle of an underground passage. but dear Lord, let me be brave, let me be the sunbeam you've always planned for me to be.

Jesus wants me for a sunbeam, to shine for Him each day
in every way try to please Him, at home, at school, at play
a sunbeam, a sunbeam, Jesus wants me for a sunbeam
a sunbeam, a sunbeam,
i'll be a sunbeam for Him

-anne

Watch!
Listen.
It’s all around you,
Waiting patiently with tenderness
To ensnarl you amongst its seductive tendrils
A bolt of thunder
Strikes you down, down down,
Not a sound.
Drowned out by the incessant demands of men.
Drowning in your bland tears.
Bitterness long sunken into your deepest trenches.
Full-stop.
Whose say is it, for you to stop?
If your steps freeze right now,
Is it fool’s stop?
Love flutters by, dancing her swan song
Frolicking under the warm sun
In its little green house.
The storm in the horizon bothers it insignificantly.
For now.
I study it with longing,
Behind this window pane.

they make you, they break you

i can't posssibly remember the last time i have blogged, well judging by the level of 'liveliness' of this blog, one can presume that we are not very avid and keen people. but well, just had this urge to 'vent' out all these things stuck inside, i guess for those of us who have no where else in the 'real' world to reveal what we are feeling, this is the best alternative.

i can't be bothered if you actually know who i am, most probably no one will read this anyway. oh well, here goes. had been having options these past few weeks... feeling up and down like you know this yacht in the middle of the vast expanse of ocean, staring at a rather bleek horizon, and your feelings whelm up inside you, the only way they come out is if you *rather unsightly* puke out everything. is there a saying that words can make you and equally so can they break you? or maybe it was just a figment of my imagination. just suddenly dawned upon me (apologies for being so slow in realising such matters) that friends too can be described as such.

i think today is gg to be my last 3rd lang lesson, had a really fun time with these group of people whom were just strangers with me less than a year ago, but somehow i feel so much at ease with them, it is has if there is actualyl some breathing space for me when i'm with them. i'm not complaining about my school friends or anything, maybe the phrase absence makes the heart grow fonder is quite true, or maybe i'm just crapping out some excuse to ignore the real truth inside, which i admittedly have no idea, or have no wish to find out why.

well i apologise for all this blabbering, personally i have no idea what is going through my mind now, i just feel that this is the best way to let this all out. anyway back to what i was driving at, on one hand, there is this rathe disjointed (from schools all over singapore) group of friends i have known for probably a year now, and on the other hand there are some people whom i have known for let's say a couple of years. perhaps i am just being to sensitive, or others would brush off as teenage angst which seems quite ulikely rite, i look like the smiley happy kind... but recently, i apologise AGAIN if this is too trivial a matter and i am just blowing matters out of proportions, but people or person in the 2nd group of friends suddenly feel so distant. have there been times when you looked back, and thought about how close you guys used to be, it seemed as if you knew and well clicked with the person well? and then the next time you see the person, you feel so cut off, you feel even to the extent of disgusted-ness (okay maybe this word is too strong, but i am just 'pouring' out this knot inside) towards that person?

the point is, i feel as if i shdn't be feeling this way, cos everyone sees the person as nice friendly approachable blah blah you know the typically good stuff, and true enough you always thought so. then sometimes it is just that word or two, or perhaps a seemingly insigificant brushing aside of you, or that comment which you felt just smacked at your face (while to others it was a friendly slap on the back), or that feeling the person gives you. i know i know.. girls are overly emotional beings who cannot help but be uptight over such 'lame' 'miniscule' matters, but i can't help it! that is precisely why i don't wish to blow up anything, cos i really dont' want to regret destroying anything in the friendship, well but i know for one thing, i feel differently to that person. and i'm learning to control my feelings, like don't be biased, don't think badly, how you ought to love everyone around you, and maybe i'm just being the one at fault. i dunno lar!

haiyoh, so well, after inviting whoever out there into this super long convoluted thought process of myself, i shall seal all this up once again, until i cannot bear the person or people. after all, people might just tell me after this post, to have friends making you, you should make yourself a friend first. pls tell me straight to the face if i'm not being a nice friend, i know the feeling of it. at most if i disagree with you, you can see more ramblings on this dying blog.

pris

you know what? [that's grammatically unsound but whatever] i take back everything i've said in the last [deleted] post. pooh. i totally shouldn't blog at night.
-anne

everyone has their fair share of dark secrets, you just can never fathom it.

parting is sad not because of the parting part, but the fact that we know that we would forget the sadness of parting in time to come. sounds convoluted.. i guess i'm never good at expressing how i feel, so apologies to all those who are lost or think this is really chessy. just wad i'm feeling right now, I MISS CONRAD!!! and EVERYBODY THERE!! in no random order, banquet ppl, frontdesk ppl, concierge, PORTERS!!! rosy darling, serene the talk-non-stop person, jo (haha acutally see you everyday one lar.. so don't miss), michelle the mushroom cheesecake person, and all the rest who accompany the RG table during break times everyday. it's really sad to think that once you step out of the place, no longer in the uniform, you'll nv get to see the people who make your day for the past 2 weeks: the dish-washing uncle who has this sincere smile plastered on this face even though you are delievering a pile of dirty plates to him. the clothes auntie who dishes out the uniforms to you daily, the random security ppl who make sure that we loiterers don't make the hotel a playground, the really crappy porters who always remind us to study hard and be good girls, the ppl who has helped us any way or another in just a matter of 2 weeks. i've come to realised that really lar, sch isn't everything. well at first i thought working was going to be an UTTEr waste of time, like hello i need to finish up my hist pt, mug for maths and just prepare for the coming eois but these don't make u any better. well yar, they'll look good on ur resume when you have straight As and you will have this materialistic accomplishment, but i feel that this hols has been a fruitful one in a different way... i've grown somehow, in my opinio nlar, so anyone can contradict this, i've learnt more about been streetsmart rather than merely academically capable (as my dear fellow banqueteres put it). who ever thought that dishing out sweet and sour chilli sauce can be such a tiresome job, or that just opening doors and welcoming ppl with a sweet smile takes ALOT of effort indeeed. this is just a random thought but it seems like in a matter of 2 weeks, ppl (random strangers) have said thank you to me more times than i'll ever have received in like one whole school year? maybe an exaggeration lar, but it's like when you open the door, and they say thank you, it reall ymakes your day.. no matter how simple it might seem to you lar. oh well, continue living in my conrad dreamXD MUACKS once more to all the conrad ppl and i'll really miss teasing rosy over her super alot of ppl (flower guy, alan, sashi (mixture of sushi and sarsi!), sammie, ffffazli.. and all the other hushed up ones!), serene and her infatuation with sports cars blah blah

pris

the cinderella story

okay so maybe the title is kind of misleading.. well it was supposedly some random thought that floated thru my mind as i spent my 'wonderful' holiday time polishing delicate wine glasses, folding napkins at the corner of a desolate pantry in the hotel corner. pls pardon more of my rumblings about my work experience. yup, i'm STILL working for another 3 more daYS!! haha though the ppl are acutally quite nice (specificially those from the concierge and front desk dept) the rest seem as if they have been zombies or perhaps mummified egyptians sent thru some time machine and planted to work eternally in this cold hotel chamber: they are SUPEr dao!! or rather, they seem to have lost this natural human ability to give a smile to a passing colleague, poosibly because (from what i have inferred over the past few days while mulling over dirty cutlery and pouring coffee for ppl) of their utterly BORING and MONOTONOUS work. well, the word montonous does truly look er monotonous rite? see... i'm not making sense anymore! and the reason is solely because i have been spending 8 hrs each day doing meaningless stuff. just a short summary of my interesting work schedule: collect dirty cutlery from kitchen, use a rickety trolley and roll back to the pantry, wipe the glasses spotless clean, move the cutlery back into some ulu corner, fold napkins into weird shapes, top up the water for the coffee-maker, arrange coffee cups, refill the coffee beans, clean up the mess made by those rich old businessmen, walk up and down 50 times to look busy, stand beside the coffeemachine to help them prepare coffee (and at the same time insulting the guests' intellectual level of not being able to just press ONE button for the coffee to come out), be a standby dustbin, to sum it up: a walking machine. no emotions nothing much... well and the rest of the time (if i'm lucky) is to talk crap with hopfeulyl some friendly parttime staff. so if i ever look quite dead after these 2 weeks of work, you now know why. oh well, at least i've learnt LOTS of things: hotel hygiene level is NOT to be trusted, okay i shan't dwell deeper or risk getting censored by some conrad person. wad else... and really lar, they waste super alot ALOT of food (like blueberry cheescake, croissants, cereal, breaded prawn, mini pizza, the most delectable food on earth DUMPED into the dustbin) i feel so guilty being the one doing so.. oh well the rich and the richer. but above all this, work has been yar quite erm fun... so now if you think of it, it really sounds like a cinderella story: wiping stuff, arranging stuff. okay i shan't go back into the whole whiny complains again. yup, hope the next time i post, i'll sound sane and not another zombie from conrad.

pris

and i'm saving all my love for you

eeee 4th day of work! don't rightly know what to say, as in it's both been really good and quite bad. but just after a measly 4 days, i feel rather attached to some of the staff there larh. [especially the cute guys. RIGHT] haha, it's just that some of them are really SO hospitable and welcoming that you just melt. [like a chocolate bar left too long in the locker] anyway. [am i using parentheses too much?] :) yes, anyway. mostly the porters and guest relations agents are really warm [like the middle of a cookie] and so obliging! especially when we had to tag the luggages, they were like "well done!" "eh, you leran very fast ah!" "had your lunch anot? go and eat larh!" "standing around very boring arh?" "wah you open door very strong arh!" see! how can you not be attached to such wodnerful people! so attached [and so bored] that we came up with a whole plethora of nicknames for them! i miss them so much now that here are but a few.

MELONSLEEVES: haha this was the first one. cause she was critiqing our drsssing and all, then when the real hod came in she was like "melonsleeves, why are your sleeves so long?" ms:"oh because i'm small" hod:"you should alter them". then michelle was like roll eyes and stifle giggles. umh the melon part is uh hard to explain haha.

SUGARGOURD: her name has a tang in it like sweet you know? then cause she was always grimacing we decided she looked like a bittergourd. so TADAH!

chocomuff: oh this is cause she was reallly nice and we were craving chocmuffins from conrad i think. :0)

whitechoc: this is the REALLY NICE porter! he showed us all the places, then joked around with us and he was worried hat we'll be like bored out of our minds so he gave us a mini tour. then he was offering us chips and all. it sounds like nothing much really, but when you experience it yourself arh, the CHOCOLATE-IN-LOCKER syndrome just hits you like well, a tonne of melted chocolate and smothers you in it. :)

002!!! [zerozerotwo]: haha pox's FAVOURITE! *winkwink nudgenudge* btw, pox has really bad taste, so you get the main picture. :DDD yes, he's twenty, looks like he's 17/18, has worked for a really long time, has finished shatec and all and is shorter than pris. haha but he;s very friendly too! but mostly to pox. [we wonder why][alliteration!] haha and his shift is always so coincidentally somewhere around pox. [we wonder why again] :DDDDDD oh and we have a cheer/dance to go with it. but you have to see it to believe how bored we were. haha.

003! [zerozerothree]: he's the 002 lookalike and we deicided that sicne they looked alike, they were clones of each other so he's no. 3. but there's no no.1, cause they're CLONES you see, so there is no original! heh, the wodners of a bored soul/s.

zoo: his name just soudsn like zoo that's all. and he's very cute and shy, so we're cute and shy around him too. AHEM. haha no larh, he's always helping us with the luggages and asking us about our shifts. and i think he plays soccer!

luncheon meat/meet: haha he's reallyreallyreally sweet and funny. cause he was teachign pox and i how to tag luggages and was telling us how to make workign FUN! and he kept asking us about lunch and whether we had eaten or not, and totally urging us to go have our breask and how " teenagers like yall can eat alot one, but it's okay because you don't need to stress and think alot." okay that didn't really make sense but his concern is there! :)

azmi: haha the only one i don't have a nickname for! he was going to deliver a fax and then he invited me to see how it was done. then cause i was kaypohing around the lift and all the levels, he brought me on a hotel tour! to the EXECUTIVE lounge [cue hushed whispers] the executive floor, the buiness don't know what, the pool, the gym and he tried to dismantle one of the wooden panellings to let me see the view. and nope he couldn't put it back and so couldn't i. so we uh left it there for maintenance. :)

aish. okay working with them was wonderful now i think about it. i'll really miss them, they seem so dear now. :) ack tmr's more maddeing piano pract with a bished finger *AHEM* :) okay got to dash, yep to snugglywarmfuss [aka my bed]. ta!

-anne

roooooooossssssiiiieeeeee!

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, never let it fade away

imagine this scenario. this is the future ten years from now if i continue working like this.
X: hey what's your name?
future person [hereby referred to as melonsleevessugargourd or mssg]: uh duuuuuuhh?
X: erm okay. how old are you?
mssg: uh ddduuuuuhhh? *scratches head*
X: hmmm. what's 1+1?
mss: uuuuhhhh duuhhhhh..?? welcome to conrad?
X: !! what's wrong with you?
mssg: uuuhhh duuuuuuuhhhhhhhh.....???? thank you and have a nice day?? duuhh?

you get the picture don't you? i's really really quite sad, as in they don't trust us to do anythign at all! :( as in we can understand if you don't let us handle the really important stuff, but simple things like well, using the comp, answering calls, i truly BELIEVE our mental faculties are able to handle such strenuous tasks. :( oh well, at least alot of the people there were really friendly and nice. and really funny! :) there was this board of directors guy who was talking to us and saying alot of meaningful stuff larh haha about ns and racial harmony. see we do learn! =D and there was this porter who was asking us to guess his age and then he told us about ns and funny stories. haha then before we left we were ribbing him about having to stay still 11 and he was still nice about it! :)

haha okay, on hindsight maybe this job isn't so bad afterall, like we get to meet so mnay different people from all walks of life. people like dick lee and denise keller. serious. they came by in the afetrnoon when pox and i were struggling with the SUEPER HEAVY front door. good thing we didn't like let it slip and hit them or something. now that would be a MAJOR faux pas. :)

yucks and we have to wear makeup and black leggings and court shoes. pooh. okay pray for us! =D

-anne
catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day

when working is not fun.

after having stood like a scarecrow for 8 hours straight, appeared to be a really boring parrot that kept repeating "welcome" and "have a nice day", stoned infront of ringing telephone besides gossipy operators, attempting to push open a 1000 tonnes heavy glass door every single second, wad else erm yar and walking on terribly uncomfortable shoes, i've concluded that working is totally not fun. haix, and this was how my first day doing WEP at conrad hotel started off. oh well basically we were supposed to be at the front desk (u think of sth super nice: asking guests for their room numbers blahblah) but NOO... in the end, u feel realyl super extra. and i've decided that wearing court shoes equals to courting death. i can hardly walk in them, looking more like a waddling duck. well, enough of the complaints, there's still another 9 more days to go! and 8 hrs each time! which means 72 hrs of free child labour! now tell me who in the right mind would have agreed to this, me sadly.

okay moving away from the crappy day that i had just gone thru, i suddenly feel really selfish. it's like i'm always stuck in my own hole of problems, thinking that everything revolving ard me is so important and significant that i've just ignored the feelings of others. well the person i'm really sorry and indebted to would most probably not be reading this, but i still like to say that i'm really sorry, i nv meant to ignore ur feelings. i c an't believe i was so insensitive to make such a decision, nv spared a thought for you. i think the worst is to ever hurt someone without knowing it, i think wadever i do will not be able to make up for it. i'm truly sorry. wad kind of friend am i lar.

pris

when working is not fun.

and then we'll just look at each other eyeball to eyeball, laugh ourselves silly, fling our arms out and flop down onto the sand.

i'm so bushed. haha so why am i still typing away merrily at this hour, it being WAY past my bedtime. :) it's just this spur of the moment thing, when pox and i very rarely decide to take up this really WORTHY pastime. again. :) haha we'll see if this continues.

my hols are gone! i feel the need to grouch here. but i really really shouldn't. cause you see, the only person i can blame for making me so VERY busy is meee. but for the next 2 weeks pox and i have wep attachment at conrad so it's poof to those two weeks. and last week there was this super-irritating-takes-up-your-free-time-and-not-so-free-time assignment. and cause i procrastinated, ladididum and went out everyday, heh my project dragged the entire week.

oops. :)

and this week was family week! and maddening piano pract week. haha i love my parents. i mean i really really do. not in the i-love-you-because-you-gimme-moneh-and-feed-me kind of way, but in the i-really-dont-know-what-i'll-do-without-you way. as in don't you ever just realise for a very freakish moment how much your parents and sister/brother mean to you? like if the next instance they all just disappear, you won't have people who'll love you NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO. and you wont have people who'll let you be who you are. and most of all you wont have people to reallyreallyreally love and well, love even more. :)

so i say, reallyreally treasure your parents or parentals or whatever you refer to them as. i mean seriously. haha this sounds really morally and whatnot doesn't it? haha i'm maturing! :DD but seriously, if i ever want to think about more serious [this word is SERIOUSLY overused] stuff, i'll rather think about these things, and not like well, sad things. okay the last sentence was probably incomprehensible to most, but. :)

anyway, go HUG YOUR PARENTS NOW. if that's too great a leap of faith in loving them more, then just be a teensy weensy bit nicer to them, even if it seems really insignificant. we all like being loved, so what makes your family any different. haha i need to go hug them myself now. HAPPY HUGGING! [alliteration!] oh-ho.

-anne

and the sand shall be our castle, the sea our doorway and the sky the roof over our heads.

howdy

howdy-doo. it's been a rather long time, quite a long while in fact. but no worries, everything shall be back to its normal rountine soon enough, i.e. dead blog. :) but anyway, was just feelign mildly inspired after a really good walk out by the beach. haha contemplative mood, no? but ahh well, my contemplations have no room here. BUT! they do have for this reallyreallyreally meaningful thingum i read in the AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A ONE-YEAR-OLD! [don't worry, my mental faculties are entirely up to the exhaustive task of reading it]

but i digress.

anyway. there's this really cute excerpt talking about merry-go-rounds. when i got past reliving the sheer physical thrill of it all, i started to ponder on the journey that the horse and i had been on. what occurred to me was this: we had gone nowhere. we had gone in a circle... YET THE TRIP ITSELF HAD BEEN STUPENDOUS. maybe, just maybe, sometimes the journey is more important than the destination. really sorry to the author i ripped this off.

don't you think it's so wonderful? okay, maybe you need to read the book. but we're ALWAYS lamenting how we want to reach somewhere, soemthing, someone SOMEHOW or another. but when we reach there, there's hardly the great THRILL and all you expected isn't it. but the expectation, the waiting, the GETTING THERE, it's the process, the entire i'm going to get there soon heightened sense of expectations that just keeps you moving. :)

ust some qwiebacks for your mind to digest on. :) oh well, anyway don't really suppose there'll actually be ppl reading this, but i like my thougths penned down. sometimes.

say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime [the way i want your eyes to look]

-anne

the resurrection of the blog!

it's an amazing how many months since the last post. and suddenly there's gg to be an influx of entries! WAH. okay actually i'm held under gun point to crap out something. oh well, it's the hols now but it totally feels so dead and xian. haix there's crappy RMUN, physics pt to chiong (which i've completed!) and WEP for 2 whole weeks! wouldn't it be nice if we could just hire this private jet and fly off to some ulu countryside, hide from all the responsibilities and pts blah blah. i know this sounds really selfish of me lar but wad's hols if you still have to put on ur sch uniform? argh i've ran out of stuff to say liao. i dont' want sec4 year to end!! it's like already going on to the 2nd semester and my class is super nice and i dont' want to leave it. oh well random ramblings. i want to go france now! hmm i sound really whiny here, but well i just hope no one ever reads this entry and it'll disappear into cyber space sooner or later. can u imagine a world without computers now? haha we should come up with a wanton mee video considering the success of the baw chow mee one! ahahah pure crap lar. kay.. that' sit!

14july

-.-

It doesn’t make sense for me to feel these tears on my face right now. But have all of you ever thought that I have my limits as well. If being ms nice girl erases all the due respect for me, then hey no more ms nice girl then. Oh, joking around you say, but does it ever strike you that jokes aren’t carried out everyday and that they are double swords drawn at the hilt as well? Oh yay joanne’s so fun to bully, let’s just insult her to her face and totally disregard what she feels and then turn around and snap when she can’t help you with a question. Oh WOW, so I’m your punching bad and information desk? Of all the things that I hate most, it’s panning people. With just you ‘loser’, ‘lousy’, ‘stupid’, don’t you know that you can just ruin someone’s day. What’s the point of putting others down? Huh, I ask you. oh no, I SHOUT at you. to show how superior you can be? Oh yes, you joke around with me, giggle along with all my jokes MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY then turn around and say that what just made you smile was so immature. Tell me, do I still want to make you smile any longer? Apparently I should still. But that, my dear friends, is called absurdity, to ask of me what you would not ask for yourself,. And I refuse. Oh but I hear you say, don’t be petty Joanne, smile, forgive and forget. Mind you, I have been smiling, forgiving and forgetting for more than enough. Would you still continue to force me to? I FLATLY refuse. If being class chair means that I have no temper, no limits to what I can accept and no respect granted, then I’m sorry, but I am every inch, every cell human as well. And all I ask is for you guys to respect me and not to freely bestow on everyone around all your ‘lousy’s and ‘loser’s. just a little respect goes a long way, y’know. and I do hope all you realise that. Now, please excuse me while I go get another packet of tissues, the current one seems to have been exhausted already.

-joanne

Are you a Carrot, an Egg or a Coffee Bean?

A daughter complained to her father about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.
Her father, a chef, took her to the kitchen. He filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil. In one he placed carrots, in the second he placed eggs, and the last he placed ground coffee beans. He let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
The daughter sucked her teeth and impatiently waited, wondering what he was doing. In about twenty minutes he turned off the burners. He fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. He pulled the eggs out and placed them a bowl. Then he ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her he asked. "Darling, what do you see."
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
He brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. He then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, he asked her to sip the coffee. She smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.
She humbly asked. "What does it mean Father?"
He explained that each of them had faced the same adversity, boiling water, but each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. But after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
"Which are you," he asked his daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?"
How about you? Are you the carrot that seems hard, but with pain and adversity do you wilt and become soft and lose your strength?
Are you the egg, which starts off with a malleable heart? Were you a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a divorce, or a layoff have you become hardened and stiff. Your shell looks the same, but are you bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and heart?
Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean changes the hot water, the thing that is bringing the pain, to its peak flavor reaches 212 degrees Fahrenheit. When the water gets the hottest, it just tastes better.
If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and make things better around you.
How do you handle adversity?
Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.
pris

Are you a Carrot, an Egg or a Coffee Bean?

A daughter complained to her father about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.
Her father, a chef, took her to the kitchen. He filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil. In one he placed carrots, in the second he placed eggs, and the last he placed ground coffee beans. He let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
The daughter sucked her teeth and impatiently waited, wondering what he was doing. In about twenty minutes he turned off the burners. He fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. He pulled the eggs out and placed them a bowl. Then he ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her he asked. "Darling, what do you see."
"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
He brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. He then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, he asked her to sip the coffee. She smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.
She humbly asked. "What does it mean Father?"
He explained that each of them had faced the same adversity, boiling water, but each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. But after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
"Which are you," he asked his daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?"
How about you? Are you the carrot that seems hard, but with pain and adversity do you wilt and become soft and lose your strength?
Are you the egg, which starts off with a malleable heart? Were you a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a divorce, or a layoff have you become hardened and stiff. Your shell looks the same, but are you bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and heart?
Or are you like the coffee bean? The bean changes the hot water, the thing that is bringing the pain, to its peak flavor reaches 212 degrees Fahrenheit. When the water gets the hottest, it just tastes better.
If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and make things better around you.
How do you handle adversity?
Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?

We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.

pris (i koped it from somewhere)

BIA - back in action, for now

it has been around 3 months since i last posted? hmm kay maybe not that bad but i just don't ever seem to get down to writing an entry... until my dear co-owner has decided to emerge from her disappearing act as well. oh yes btw, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE! but that's not the point for writing this entry, somehow i feel like everything must have a purpose, like i don't seem to be able to write for the sake of writing. human thoughts are very peculiar: they are so random but yet understandable at times, at least to the writer, who knows what is exactly going on in her mind and perhaps wants others to comprehend too but doesn't know how to voice it out. i dont' want to pretend to know what my co-owner was trying to express out or what was eating her up inside (maybe not that exaggerated, but bothering her). as a matter of fact, i dont' assume anyone would bother visiting this blog anymore, but i'm surprisingly, and quite rarely, in this inspired mood to talk, about stuff that are quite depressing. so if there's still any single soul reading this mindless rambling, please just ignore this crappy entry lar.

no wonder they say that teenage years is a period of growing up, learning from experiences blah blah.. the usual stereotypical but scarily true statements. having returned from a 25 days long immersion programme in france had added alot to my own experience collection, i guess more private stuff that i don't wish to mention. i love my family of 27!!!! oh wait, i'm diverging. yar, basically i just want to agree that sometimes i think i can be very selfish, humans tend to have this fear: once bitten twice shy kind of phobia. it might have been a small incident, but it could scar you for life. felt quite moody recently, seems as if anyone, even the people closest to me could get on my nerves. you just don't know whether you are thinking straight, but you just feel pissed. sounds like some mad person lar... hmm maybe i am turning into one. (okay, just joking) but the point is that (i don't seem to have any point inthis whole entry to start with) i just seem to be always losing myself to this pessimistic outlook of any and everything. but i'm slowly getting out of it. why is it that i just seem to like seeing things like that, not how optimistic others are?
argh.. i'm always losing my train of thoughts, anyway here's my copyrighted quote/random thought: the happiest people hide the most hurt, the smiles hide the tears. to my ardent readers out there(if there're any), i think this would be the only entry i'm writing for some time. too lazy to write.

pris
-you never care how much someone knows, until you know how much someone cares.

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please try NOT to understand this post or better yet, don't read it. please. it's just the confused ramblings of a really horrible girl.



















as you just look at me, you would never have known that under the surface of this purple shirt, underneath all the face paint of liveliness and bounciness, you would never know the interior was a terribly timid and selfish girl. selfish to not let herself be vulnerable to any hurt again. ever. this isn't some ranty loveysick thingum. instead it's just how terrible i feel for how i am inside. how i want to open myself up yet i can't. not opening up like talking and sharing, that i can do. but opening up my heart and life to let someone in. you just feel exposed and selfish what if you get irrevocably hurt again. it isn't just about my own hurt too, time has shown me what lasts and what is true. yet i'm afraid of hurting others, of maybe having to put them through the same gruelling experience. i'm really sorry for being so horrible, but i can't seem to be able to just talk normally. self-consciousness makes me lose all sight of what i stand for and what i am, i just get twittered up and painfully conscious. then i slap on more face paint and cover all the unease up by not talking to you [in plural form] and just keeping a distance. this stinks, i know. and if you feel that this entry pertains to you IF you're still reading this [which you weren't supposed to since i can't figure out how to lock the blog] then please, understand that i'm really sorry. underneath this shell, this cracking exterior, i'm emerging. i'm really trying to. all that i can really offer is that i'll try and i'll really talk next time. i'm really really really sorry

joanne

ack![ZZZ]

yoohoo. it's really really really really good to be back. as in going away all's fine and dandy but there's nothing like the familiar feel of being where you really do belong. ok that's sappy and totally national-day-theme-ish, but i guess the real truths of existence have already been captured in the essences of cliches, that's why there are cliches anyway. just a bunch of overly used truths. :)

mmhm, i should be ranting about the china trip, no? but i don't think i will larh. it seems ever so much more personal to keep it inside *pats heart* and to slowly go over the memories by yourself smiling at the recollections that only you know why you smile at. (:

oh but anyway, everyone MUST go learn mao. it's super irritating yet unsurprisingly fun. haha seems as though the dumbest games always holds the greatest fun in them. it's really super dumb, but being the wooden blocks all of us are, we stayed up till like 6am on the last night[morning] playing random games like mao AND polar bear! and we created heaven where i would ALWAYS indubitably end up cause EVERYONE thinks i should be dead and would gladly sacrifice me as a presumed polar bear. >< haha but heaven does have a nice view! haha this is really crap, but like i've said, uncrap stuff remain inside and well crap stuff is published? ack, this is bad, just goes to show how all my entries are pure crap through and through. but then again i never denied that fact, did i? :D

but all the people who went were really such nice souls, bless them! :))) somehow everyone just gets a thrill from seeing their names on anyone's blog. so well, here's all your thrills! [oh boy, here goes my list for 29 people!]

weixian! you've been such an absolute joy what with all the jibs we've shared about you being aunty and all. haha relived the times when i always had to poke you to wake you up in class! totally inspired by your love and care for all around and your intimacy with God! continue rocking on! :)

audrye! oh you crazy pok! all the times when we've just totally went mad and laughed our lungs [and other questionable insides] out! all the inside jokes on maine and random thingums, and goodness knows what would have happened on those nights if you hadn't been around. *hugs*:)

liping! pingu-pongs! you demure lil' thing! [insert quiet giggles and askance glances] you're just so sweet and blur, like the polar bear cheer. all those silly times when we were so entirely freaked out by the dark and cold and we went around asking for chargers and to the xiao mai pu! oh you are a delight! and the haggling! :D *squish*

charmaine! mainemainemainemaine! haha "extremely slender" and "extremely fragrant" eh? don't blush you sweet thing, the rest of them quotable quotes are safe here within me, rest assured. but you are such a choice target for quoting! well, being "pure-minded" doesn't really help when you have mad people like us around to record your every single word! you're just the cutest and most obliging xiao long bao/pink dumpling around, and i'm just too entirely glad for that! ((:

gheehie! hohoho, you CUTE thing! i'm sorry, i just had to rib you about that. don't mind me will you? thankyouuu! all your funny mannerisms and delightful ideas are really rather funny once you get past all the daryl-ness in you. haha, yesyesyes, i will call you daryl then. oh you funny thing! the trip won’t ever be half as much fun without you! :)

kristel! you’re really veryvery nice you know! pretty much the nice motherly figure so full of warmth and care! i should think all the sec 3s would have passed out from lack of sleep or some other reckless things we do, if not for all your gentle reminders! continue smiling! :D

joanna! you really should sing more often! your voice deserves more limelight! haha and you’re really one with all the funnily cute ideas and the “why are the guys sitting on chairs and the girls on the floor?!” little speeches. the trip was made all the more livelier with you! :)

yinrui! hey you bridge pro! you’re really good at the game you know, haha compared to us bumbling sec 3s like WHOA! :) you’re really so easy-going and nice to talk to! must remember us when you’re still staying on in china!

felicia! didn’t really talk to you much, one of them strong silent types eh? :) but the trip wouldn’t be the same without you!

priscilla! you’re another strong silent type! :) but your sweetness can be felt in your mere presence!

huizhen! ack. i didn’t really talk much to you too, you trio of strong silent type-ers! but without you something would have been lacking in the trip too, and that’s not good!:)

weiyi! haha still remember your total disgust with the latin dance thingum, but it wasn’t so bad in the end was it! :) you’re really fun to talk to and oh so very jolly! thanks for all the fun times!

huiqi! qihui and huiqi, ack so confusing. haha you propro math person, you’re really sweet in your own quiet manner, really glad to have known you! :)

elvina! oh i still remember the cool 13 trick you taught us and weixian figured out the mathy rationale behind it! haha you’re evil you know! trying to get static from me and charmaine will chatting to us! But oh i’m sure you’re all sugar under your evilness! [or so we hope] :)

cheryl! shopaholics unite! :) haha you’re reallyreally very nice to talk to and jest around with! and you must sing more, the entire group couldn’t get enough of your singing on the bus! continue to let your light so shine for God! :)

ack. that was one long list to type! and that’s just half of them blessed souls! i really cannot continue liao, shall procrastinate and leave the rest till tomorrow! [or when tomorrow really comes for me] :)

from the freezer

HOHOHOHOHOHO! nono not merry christmas, but everyone follow the following instructions and you will find a very happy person.
1) plaster a smile on your face
2) raise your right hand
3) raise your left hand
4) turn and face the general direction of china [or make believe that you're facing that direction]
5) WAVE!

i'll be receiving them waves shortly so thankyouthankyou. :) you never miss home so much until you';re away from home. i miss everything so so so much. this could be like some weepy post but OH NO no way it's horrid to be weepy in the morning. uh-uh. so anyway, here's some really gross updates on the food here.

the food is really quite cannot make it one. and cannot really figure out what it is inside. so it's like some guess-and-guess-and-hmmm-close-eyes-and-eat-and-try-to-prevent-your-face-from-screwing-up game. i took some really gross pictures of food. so aha when i get back get ready for fear factor picture [china special]. :)

it's really cold here and the sun sets really early so >< i don't like the dark. but i look like a dumpling here. all squishy and flappy and swaddled up and my coat is like ORANGE :) so i look kind of like a siew mai if you squint a little. we all look like siew mais and random bundled up frosties compared to all the students here. they are POWER! they don't even need to wear extra extra layers like us and they even eat ICE CREAM! in such coldness. brrr.

think of pris and me okay all you avid readers! it's such a long post so you better appreciate this! typing while you fingers can hardly feel the keyboard isn't exaclt something that one does for fun you know. :)

ok, bye then! tata!

joanne

tasting your smile; missing your warmth

haven't blogged for ages, so many apologies for the few faithful fans who have been waiting in anticipation for this entry. well i don't intend for this entry to be long, but having had to fulfil my duty as a co-owner, i can't bear to see this blog die out before it's one month anniversary.

i do agree with jo's previous entry, kind of meaningful and thoughtful lar, although abit short. oh well, i guess this is just teenage woes and at-times-seemingly-foolish worries, but well we're still only slightly more than a decade old, so how mature do u think we can be? liking someone is so confusing, u sometimes do wish it doesn't exist, but if it doesn't exist, u wouldn't ever experience that sweet feeling. haiz nvm it's just going in circles.

haha countdown to my departure: 3 days time!! haha can't wait to go, but i guess i'll be super homesick too. i shall miss my comfortable bed, singapore food, singapore weather, and EVERYONE! haha must miss me too hor. shan't blog until hmm one month later. bon voyage!
-pris

umph

i don't know why i'm even posting. it's quite horrid to like someone. oh whatever, i know, I KNOW it's very teenagey-angst-lovey-thingo but it's not just horrid. it's sad too. and sometimes all you want to do is just shout it all out and spend ages just smiling oh heck who knows. maybe if i smile hard enough-

joanne

blogger has reaaally gone bonkers

I PROFESS, I.HATE.BLOGGER. the horrid system ate up my post which i NICELY took a prety long time [of about 20 minutes, but you needn't know that] to type out. and it ATE IT UP NOT ONCE BUT TWICE! now you see why it is in the most understandable way, for the state of my post to be so rant-like. if it eats it up just ONE MORE TIME[!] i shall hereby go on a blogger strike and show this horrid system not to mess with all my posts. so there. and we shall see then.
-anne
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it DID eat my posts up. so i just recovered it again. hopefully, it's still hale and hearty. i'm going to start typing out my posts in like word and sending them to pris. what a wonderful friend blogger is. oh and just got back from chalet. i'm really bushed. post more later. and anyway it was nicely fun. =)

-anne

showing my face at long last

i feel super injustified (if there's such a word) lor... how come everyone seem to be targeting at ME this never-show-the-face-lazy co-owner of the blog. I don't post very regularly meh? oh well.. less entries means less crap right? (oops.. didn't mean to offend the OTHER co-owner) *ouch* my arms are killing me lar, the right hand because of stupid ribbony dance prac and left hand cos of the yucky flu vaccine jab, first it felt super painful (super sour lar, if u can taste pain) then now it feels numb. let me declare here: I HATE INJECTIONS!!! eeww. i told you all my entries are crap lar, so less entries less crap! haha this should be my motto for the blog. anyway, had cca sec 4 farewell last nite at my friend's house. wah.. i tell u ar, her house is SUPER SUPER nice and big lar... got a humongous (the spelling looks wrong) swimming pool, wonderfully furnished living room and the spiral staircase is like those palace- kind lar.. oh yar, she even has a golden retriever! wah... am i jealous or am i jealous.

okay back to my philosophical time, hmm or rather this entry shall be some kind of story-telling session. if you already feel like dozing off, don't bother reading this, it's just random burst of ideas as usual. Before i start the erm ingenious story (haha self praise lar), reminder that any resemblance to real life characters is PURELY coincidential blah blah..

here it goes: let's say A (girl) and B (boy) have always been friends, the normal kind lar, JUST friends. then ONE day, A discovers that she's interested in B!!! but if she tells B her feelings, she's afraid that that might repel B so they would not be able to be even friends in the future. but if she keeps inside, it'll be just very sad cos it seems that B is kind of love sick too. A has NO idea who B might be liking (if he likes someone to start with) so everything is just purely guess work. now, if B does like someone, and it turns out that he secretly likes A, but he decides to keep quiet too, thinking that revealing his feelings would ruin the friendship between them. in the end, both sides decide to keep quiet, thinking that the other is in love with someone else, or being afraid of rejection, so all these stuff just turns out to be nothing. don't u think this is something very lament-able and sad? it seems as if fate is playing A and B in its hands the whole time... haiz... if you think this story is very lame, dont' blame me, i don't exactly have a very imaginative mind.. hmm.. it doesn't sound like me to talk about all these eewwy and erm.. lovey-dovey stuff lar, but as i said, it's just pure imagination. so don't come hammering after me if this sounds familiar, and yar, this has NOTHING to do with me. i'm an innocent party (full stop)

wah.. i feel super proud of myself lar. this must have been the LONGEST entry i've written. shall come up with nicer stories the next time. happy hols!

what a nice date today is... 3/11/2005! CELEBRATE today people! it's 311's second birthday! like 11/3 and 3/11! ok this IS brainless i just wanted to post because of the date.

hmmm

anyway, i really think what pox said is true. and i don't deny it myself either, i DO wear a mask and it's terribly painful to take it off infront of those i don't really know well. but maybe this entire mask thing is not all the bad things that everyone makes it out to be. cause don't you think it's worse many times over if everyone could see every single side of you just like that. like EVERYTHING [read: e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.] is just laid out for the whole world to examine, to pick at, to know. there won't be much value in having really close friends anymore. there would hardly be any worth in developing a real friendship and udnerstanding people would there? maybe it's just me, but i like people having different depths, and different levels to which you understand them. like at every level you know more and can relate more and just share something special with someone just because of the level of understanding present.

well, this arguably is not the most well-thought out perspective. like maybe when people don't hide behind their masks daily, there won't ever be faux friends and all. but then again there is always a risk to everything, for what's life without an edge? :)

anyway, HAPPY THREE ELEVEN DAY! and all eleveners, pleasepleaseplease bring your overseas form and rags tmr[if this isn't too late], under the orders of the chair and table. :) but all your SRC i/cs will be calling you anyway. yup. alright then TATA!

-anne