ack![ZZZ]

yoohoo. it's really really really really good to be back. as in going away all's fine and dandy but there's nothing like the familiar feel of being where you really do belong. ok that's sappy and totally national-day-theme-ish, but i guess the real truths of existence have already been captured in the essences of cliches, that's why there are cliches anyway. just a bunch of overly used truths. :)

mmhm, i should be ranting about the china trip, no? but i don't think i will larh. it seems ever so much more personal to keep it inside *pats heart* and to slowly go over the memories by yourself smiling at the recollections that only you know why you smile at. (:

oh but anyway, everyone MUST go learn mao. it's super irritating yet unsurprisingly fun. haha seems as though the dumbest games always holds the greatest fun in them. it's really super dumb, but being the wooden blocks all of us are, we stayed up till like 6am on the last night[morning] playing random games like mao AND polar bear! and we created heaven where i would ALWAYS indubitably end up cause EVERYONE thinks i should be dead and would gladly sacrifice me as a presumed polar bear. >< haha but heaven does have a nice view! haha this is really crap, but like i've said, uncrap stuff remain inside and well crap stuff is published? ack, this is bad, just goes to show how all my entries are pure crap through and through. but then again i never denied that fact, did i? :D

but all the people who went were really such nice souls, bless them! :))) somehow everyone just gets a thrill from seeing their names on anyone's blog. so well, here's all your thrills! [oh boy, here goes my list for 29 people!]

weixian! you've been such an absolute joy what with all the jibs we've shared about you being aunty and all. haha relived the times when i always had to poke you to wake you up in class! totally inspired by your love and care for all around and your intimacy with God! continue rocking on! :)

audrye! oh you crazy pok! all the times when we've just totally went mad and laughed our lungs [and other questionable insides] out! all the inside jokes on maine and random thingums, and goodness knows what would have happened on those nights if you hadn't been around. *hugs*:)

liping! pingu-pongs! you demure lil' thing! [insert quiet giggles and askance glances] you're just so sweet and blur, like the polar bear cheer. all those silly times when we were so entirely freaked out by the dark and cold and we went around asking for chargers and to the xiao mai pu! oh you are a delight! and the haggling! :D *squish*

charmaine! mainemainemainemaine! haha "extremely slender" and "extremely fragrant" eh? don't blush you sweet thing, the rest of them quotable quotes are safe here within me, rest assured. but you are such a choice target for quoting! well, being "pure-minded" doesn't really help when you have mad people like us around to record your every single word! you're just the cutest and most obliging xiao long bao/pink dumpling around, and i'm just too entirely glad for that! ((:

gheehie! hohoho, you CUTE thing! i'm sorry, i just had to rib you about that. don't mind me will you? thankyouuu! all your funny mannerisms and delightful ideas are really rather funny once you get past all the daryl-ness in you. haha, yesyesyes, i will call you daryl then. oh you funny thing! the trip won’t ever be half as much fun without you! :)

kristel! you’re really veryvery nice you know! pretty much the nice motherly figure so full of warmth and care! i should think all the sec 3s would have passed out from lack of sleep or some other reckless things we do, if not for all your gentle reminders! continue smiling! :D

joanna! you really should sing more often! your voice deserves more limelight! haha and you’re really one with all the funnily cute ideas and the “why are the guys sitting on chairs and the girls on the floor?!” little speeches. the trip was made all the more livelier with you! :)

yinrui! hey you bridge pro! you’re really good at the game you know, haha compared to us bumbling sec 3s like WHOA! :) you’re really so easy-going and nice to talk to! must remember us when you’re still staying on in china!

felicia! didn’t really talk to you much, one of them strong silent types eh? :) but the trip wouldn’t be the same without you!

priscilla! you’re another strong silent type! :) but your sweetness can be felt in your mere presence!

huizhen! ack. i didn’t really talk much to you too, you trio of strong silent type-ers! but without you something would have been lacking in the trip too, and that’s not good!:)

weiyi! haha still remember your total disgust with the latin dance thingum, but it wasn’t so bad in the end was it! :) you’re really fun to talk to and oh so very jolly! thanks for all the fun times!

huiqi! qihui and huiqi, ack so confusing. haha you propro math person, you’re really sweet in your own quiet manner, really glad to have known you! :)

elvina! oh i still remember the cool 13 trick you taught us and weixian figured out the mathy rationale behind it! haha you’re evil you know! trying to get static from me and charmaine will chatting to us! But oh i’m sure you’re all sugar under your evilness! [or so we hope] :)

cheryl! shopaholics unite! :) haha you’re reallyreally very nice to talk to and jest around with! and you must sing more, the entire group couldn’t get enough of your singing on the bus! continue to let your light so shine for God! :)

ack. that was one long list to type! and that’s just half of them blessed souls! i really cannot continue liao, shall procrastinate and leave the rest till tomorrow! [or when tomorrow really comes for me] :)

from the freezer

HOHOHOHOHOHO! nono not merry christmas, but everyone follow the following instructions and you will find a very happy person.
1) plaster a smile on your face
2) raise your right hand
3) raise your left hand
4) turn and face the general direction of china [or make believe that you're facing that direction]
5) WAVE!

i'll be receiving them waves shortly so thankyouthankyou. :) you never miss home so much until you';re away from home. i miss everything so so so much. this could be like some weepy post but OH NO no way it's horrid to be weepy in the morning. uh-uh. so anyway, here's some really gross updates on the food here.

the food is really quite cannot make it one. and cannot really figure out what it is inside. so it's like some guess-and-guess-and-hmmm-close-eyes-and-eat-and-try-to-prevent-your-face-from-screwing-up game. i took some really gross pictures of food. so aha when i get back get ready for fear factor picture [china special]. :)

it's really cold here and the sun sets really early so >< i don't like the dark. but i look like a dumpling here. all squishy and flappy and swaddled up and my coat is like ORANGE :) so i look kind of like a siew mai if you squint a little. we all look like siew mais and random bundled up frosties compared to all the students here. they are POWER! they don't even need to wear extra extra layers like us and they even eat ICE CREAM! in such coldness. brrr.

think of pris and me okay all you avid readers! it's such a long post so you better appreciate this! typing while you fingers can hardly feel the keyboard isn't exaclt something that one does for fun you know. :)

ok, bye then! tata!

joanne

tasting your smile; missing your warmth

haven't blogged for ages, so many apologies for the few faithful fans who have been waiting in anticipation for this entry. well i don't intend for this entry to be long, but having had to fulfil my duty as a co-owner, i can't bear to see this blog die out before it's one month anniversary.

i do agree with jo's previous entry, kind of meaningful and thoughtful lar, although abit short. oh well, i guess this is just teenage woes and at-times-seemingly-foolish worries, but well we're still only slightly more than a decade old, so how mature do u think we can be? liking someone is so confusing, u sometimes do wish it doesn't exist, but if it doesn't exist, u wouldn't ever experience that sweet feeling. haiz nvm it's just going in circles.

haha countdown to my departure: 3 days time!! haha can't wait to go, but i guess i'll be super homesick too. i shall miss my comfortable bed, singapore food, singapore weather, and EVERYONE! haha must miss me too hor. shan't blog until hmm one month later. bon voyage!
-pris

umph

i don't know why i'm even posting. it's quite horrid to like someone. oh whatever, i know, I KNOW it's very teenagey-angst-lovey-thingo but it's not just horrid. it's sad too. and sometimes all you want to do is just shout it all out and spend ages just smiling oh heck who knows. maybe if i smile hard enough-

joanne

blogger has reaaally gone bonkers

I PROFESS, I.HATE.BLOGGER. the horrid system ate up my post which i NICELY took a prety long time [of about 20 minutes, but you needn't know that] to type out. and it ATE IT UP NOT ONCE BUT TWICE! now you see why it is in the most understandable way, for the state of my post to be so rant-like. if it eats it up just ONE MORE TIME[!] i shall hereby go on a blogger strike and show this horrid system not to mess with all my posts. so there. and we shall see then.
-anne
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it DID eat my posts up. so i just recovered it again. hopefully, it's still hale and hearty. i'm going to start typing out my posts in like word and sending them to pris. what a wonderful friend blogger is. oh and just got back from chalet. i'm really bushed. post more later. and anyway it was nicely fun. =)

-anne

showing my face at long last

i feel super injustified (if there's such a word) lor... how come everyone seem to be targeting at ME this never-show-the-face-lazy co-owner of the blog. I don't post very regularly meh? oh well.. less entries means less crap right? (oops.. didn't mean to offend the OTHER co-owner) *ouch* my arms are killing me lar, the right hand because of stupid ribbony dance prac and left hand cos of the yucky flu vaccine jab, first it felt super painful (super sour lar, if u can taste pain) then now it feels numb. let me declare here: I HATE INJECTIONS!!! eeww. i told you all my entries are crap lar, so less entries less crap! haha this should be my motto for the blog. anyway, had cca sec 4 farewell last nite at my friend's house. wah.. i tell u ar, her house is SUPER SUPER nice and big lar... got a humongous (the spelling looks wrong) swimming pool, wonderfully furnished living room and the spiral staircase is like those palace- kind lar.. oh yar, she even has a golden retriever! wah... am i jealous or am i jealous.

okay back to my philosophical time, hmm or rather this entry shall be some kind of story-telling session. if you already feel like dozing off, don't bother reading this, it's just random burst of ideas as usual. Before i start the erm ingenious story (haha self praise lar), reminder that any resemblance to real life characters is PURELY coincidential blah blah..

here it goes: let's say A (girl) and B (boy) have always been friends, the normal kind lar, JUST friends. then ONE day, A discovers that she's interested in B!!! but if she tells B her feelings, she's afraid that that might repel B so they would not be able to be even friends in the future. but if she keeps inside, it'll be just very sad cos it seems that B is kind of love sick too. A has NO idea who B might be liking (if he likes someone to start with) so everything is just purely guess work. now, if B does like someone, and it turns out that he secretly likes A, but he decides to keep quiet too, thinking that revealing his feelings would ruin the friendship between them. in the end, both sides decide to keep quiet, thinking that the other is in love with someone else, or being afraid of rejection, so all these stuff just turns out to be nothing. don't u think this is something very lament-able and sad? it seems as if fate is playing A and B in its hands the whole time... haiz... if you think this story is very lame, dont' blame me, i don't exactly have a very imaginative mind.. hmm.. it doesn't sound like me to talk about all these eewwy and erm.. lovey-dovey stuff lar, but as i said, it's just pure imagination. so don't come hammering after me if this sounds familiar, and yar, this has NOTHING to do with me. i'm an innocent party (full stop)

wah.. i feel super proud of myself lar. this must have been the LONGEST entry i've written. shall come up with nicer stories the next time. happy hols!

what a nice date today is... 3/11/2005! CELEBRATE today people! it's 311's second birthday! like 11/3 and 3/11! ok this IS brainless i just wanted to post because of the date.

hmmm

anyway, i really think what pox said is true. and i don't deny it myself either, i DO wear a mask and it's terribly painful to take it off infront of those i don't really know well. but maybe this entire mask thing is not all the bad things that everyone makes it out to be. cause don't you think it's worse many times over if everyone could see every single side of you just like that. like EVERYTHING [read: e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.] is just laid out for the whole world to examine, to pick at, to know. there won't be much value in having really close friends anymore. there would hardly be any worth in developing a real friendship and udnerstanding people would there? maybe it's just me, but i like people having different depths, and different levels to which you understand them. like at every level you know more and can relate more and just share something special with someone just because of the level of understanding present.

well, this arguably is not the most well-thought out perspective. like maybe when people don't hide behind their masks daily, there won't ever be faux friends and all. but then again there is always a risk to everything, for what's life without an edge? :)

anyway, HAPPY THREE ELEVEN DAY! and all eleveners, pleasepleaseplease bring your overseas form and rags tmr[if this isn't too late], under the orders of the chair and table. :) but all your SRC i/cs will be calling you anyway. yup. alright then TATA!

-anne

312 rocks! (haha 311 also lar)

haha the other co-owner guessed it rite lar... i'm going to be super biased in this post, or rather super honest lar.. but 312 just ROCKS everyone's world lar!! we're super fun, super pro, super nice, super bonded, super anything good under the sun adjective! haha.. oh no i'm gettting way too high liao, can't help it lar, 312 is just SO SO wonderful!!! we got 1st hor for cheering and 3rd for overall, are we pro or are we pro? okay, to convince people the WONDERFULNESSS of 312, here's our super creative and nice cheer.

We like to move it move it
We like to shoot it shoot it
We're gonna win it win it
We're gonna WIN it!

(sing to the tune of Under the sea)
Under the sun
We all have fun
It doesn't matter
if we do falter
cos we are one
312's gonna win this carn
we will shoot and jump and run
don't even bother
cos we are stronger
we're NUMBER 1!

and then there's a whole lot more.. haha but lazy to type liao, anyway u shd get it lar, 312 ROCKS TOTALLY! haha.. oh well guess this is all i'm going to say for this entry, just to proclaim my love for the class. it's a realyl wonderful class, never felt so bonded and class spirtied before. as in i don't mean to say last time the classes not so nice lar, but seriously and honestly speaking, i think 312 is a really great class to be in, u really feel a sense of belonging, like everyone is so spontaneous and bonded? haha i LOVE my class!

i am super high now. veryveryveryvery high now. and all because of netball carn! and more. for all bored avid readers, here is a warning that the following narration might run the risk of being super boring but i don't care! haha you want to read you read lorh, don't want to read then just tag and say you never read lorh!

friday was like supposed to be super crap day larh, like principal's address and all, BUT there was MODERN (very impt to take note, ms dance instructress was like girrrls, it's MODERN) jazz and hiphop. it's distressing i tell you to have a hallfull of rg girls TRYING to dance hiphop and jazz. very traumatising. but that's not the main point anyway. the music was like from the '80s those kind, the John Travolta, oh-here-comes-my-wonderful-scene-of-shaking-bon-bons-in-shows-like-grease-and-saturday-night-fever-which-all0just-have-bad-plots-but-funky-dancing kind of music. so ms dance instructress was like looking for the most ENTHOOD student-dancer. at this point i MUST interject that 311 very proudly has a residential HOTBABE, also fondly referred to as koksquared, or kok-kok for the uninitated. =) so the roving eyes of ms dance instructress settled on -YES!- HOTZBABEZ! (said with the yuezhen accent) -insert crowd screams and shrill whistles- then we just cheered our heads off, a nanodecibel louder and an entire school in ulu pandan would have crumbled. thousand apologies to the people we disturbed in pasir ris. even our teacher calls kokkok hotzbabez, 311 is just happening i tell you! haha super class pride here larh!

then today was netball carn! so we all played, fell, smiled, cheered, laughed, cried, hugged, scream-till-we-were-faint at kallang. the first few games still quite okay larh, so we happily went on. then we were playing some super rough class and everyone got elbowed and shoved and pushed everywhere.. wah super painful larh. i was guarding the wing attack, being wing defence mah, then she grabbed every part of my clothes and arms there was to grab! like OOF! but we still won! simran and jingli just have super alot of chemistry larh, like simran bounces the ball just to a space where there is NO ONE then jingli just flies in out of goodness knows where and GRABS the ball and SHOOTS! then plop! the ball swooshes in! now you can see why we're so high.

so the results were like being announced, then the disembodied voice was going "the second place goes to three mumblemumblemumble" so we all just sat there blurblur one then 312 was like 311! go and collect prize larh! then we were all just HUH then when we finally got conked back into reality, we sent HOTBABE up!

i love 311! [haha i bet pris will put in somethign about 312 too but i won't reveal anything larh let her have the fun of doing so!] for the CO-OWNER'S sake... 312 rocks too!=)) <333!

-anne

another 'thought' ful post..

haiz i have to firstly apologise to anyone who has been reading our posts (if there's actually one person bored enough to do that) about how depressing and well maybe angsty posts. oh well, but here's another such kind of posts.. continuation from the i've-been-thinking-part and well, to fulfil my role as THE co-owner.
don't u think it's sad that everyone around u might very well be putting on a mask? so as not to get hurt by others or just to well fit in with the rest, u don't even know who's the real who now... like if u really ask urself how many people u TRULY know inside out, not just the likes and everything but what he/she is (u can sense that person's feelings and mind matters), it's definitely fewer than your no. of fingers? maybe not for some lar, but i'm sure that at least for me, whenever i think i know who the person is, something just has to prove me wrong. if everyone puts on a mask, isn't this very saddening thing? or maybe a cheerful mask would keep everyone in the delusion of a perfect surrounding. if u were to just keep sulking and mulling over ur daily problems, life would be so so sad. but isn't it sadder to just try pushing aside ur real feelings and thoughts? okay.. this sounds like some kind of stream of consciouness, maybe it's sleep taking over me. but anyway, i think this is really selfish, but there are times when u wish others ard u will just open up and be the real person they are, but at the same time, u don't dare to open up for fear of getting hurt, so when is this viscious cycle going to stop? oh no.. i'm just making everyone more depressed. shall stop here then. don't bother about my ramblings, they're just random stuff that pop up in my brain all the time. well, at least i've written something!
- pris

all for love

all for love a Father gave, for only love could make a way.
all for love the heavens cried, for Love was crucified.
oh how many times have i broken Your heart, but still You forgive, if only i ask
and how many times have You heard me pray.

draw near to me, everything i need is You, my beginning,
my forever, everything i need is You
let me sing all for Love, i will join the angel song.
ever holy is the Lord, King of glory, King of all

all for love a Saviour prayed, Abba Father have your way
though they know not what they do, let the cross draw man to You

decide your own title

oh well.. here comes the super irresponsible and reluctant co-owner of the blog. haiz, under force to crap out some entry so let me just rant to u my sad sad life, EVEN after the exams.
can you imagine some poor soul having to attend 3 PIANO lessons in one week? hmm.. maybe you have lar, but just let me continue rambling on (and once again my co-owner prods me repeatedly to write a longer entry). And becos of some immersion thingo, i've like dance practices EVERYDAY (okay sorry for the caps, just getting very sick of dancing, when i have two left feet somemroe) hmm.. some evil people are doing evil stuff now, okay nvm this is addressed to guilty people (cough cough, whispering hor) oh wait, ignore me.. i'm on some mental breakdown. just can't think straight lar. actually i've been thinking alot these days... oh well shall talk more abt this the next time.
-pris

someone once told me the grass is much greener on the other side
but i paid a visit but it's possible i missed it
till further notice, i'm in between
till further notice, my grass is green

nice song right. (: really does remind me to always count my blessings and to keep my heart light. light and bouncy. haha just like the chinese compre we did, like if you continue carrying all the burdens of life and the world on your heart you'll get weighed down and you can't soar as high, nor as far. reminds me of the verse from Isaiah 40:31, But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. nicenicenicenicenice. if you haven't yet realised, my vocab is severely limited. i'm sorry. :)

but it's nice (oops) to be happy. *shalala... so nice to be happy.. shalala* you know sometimes the air has a different scent, not really a scent, but a feel to it. probably because i'm just an olfactory person, BUT sometimes different feels to the air remind me of different things. like kindergarten or like primary school or like just a person or just random things. haha probably my brain store memories in the form of smells and feels or something, cos my memory is really, REALLY not there most of the times. :)

anyway, BLOG CO-OWNER! you are hereby ordered to post! come on larh pox! come on people encourage this pox. she thinks all her posts are crap and therefore should not be posted. but they're not! operation MAKE.POX.POST. is now currently underway and all you avid readers out there are roped in to help! :)

-anne

my Redeemer lives, my Redeemer lives, my Redeemer lives!

you know, i've been thinking [yes, i do think haha]. about friendship and relationships and all the other -ships. it's like quite deep if you actually do take the time one of these days and just sit down and think. just letting my mind wonder on its own free will, well, with still a leash on i suppose. to prevent any untoward strayings of mental footsteps into those AHEM censored places i guess. HAHA. :) oh right, back to the -ships. it's like you can call someone your very best, your closest friends for pretty much quite a number of years. then when you separate, you realise you never really knew the person at all. as in, it seems that all that your -ship was based upon was just the fact that you were in the same school? or just had some common place where you met. and without that foundation anymore, everything just crumbles. and you find yourself wondering, DID i really know this person.. haha, maybe all this is really dohh to some of our ahem AVID READERS out there =), but i guess the simplest facts of life only really become clear when you understand, really understand it. just realised like i never really thought like REALLY thought about stuff. just like stuff it somewhere in the darkest recesses of my mind and there it stays. hah, don't care larh, i shall just stuff all these back again and until my brain bulges out then i'll take it out and MAYBE really go and examine them again. IF i want to. :)

i thought i knew you. i really thought i did. then as i look at you again, the person i thought i used to know seemed never to have existed. or maybe it's just because i'm myopic

-anne

random ramblings

oh well for anyone super bored soul, here's a super boring entry in a currently super boring blog for relieving your boredom. okay that's super crappy. super sad lar... it's SUPPOSED to be the end of mugging period but here I have to attend consecutive piano lessons and face some tormenting horrendous theory exam this saturday. haizz... this is super boring. sorry for boring you people.

mmhm

yay! haha first post! super funny larh the two of us, TRY to be tech-savvy larh! haha can one! we're going to totally dispose of our current status as AGE-OLD techno-dinos! oops just realised the ENTIRE first 2 lines are like filled with !. shall stop the sugar highness. oh and we haven't decided on who's cookie and who's cream yet.. mmhm. haha quite lame larh horh but we didn't want a boring theme.. so we prolly took 40 MINS just to figure out what our username and all should be and then GUESS WHAT it was taken up so we had to like try don't know how many variations.. quite fun larh all these postings... hopefully the first love of this blogspot shall continue burning HOPEFULLY for all you future avid readers of this space!
-anne :)
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okaay. we ARE sad. veeery sad people. okay fine, i'm the sad one. we set a blog oh glorious-joy-and-hoorayness, then i forgot the username, then i thought i forgot the password, but it turned out that the username was wrong in the first place. SOOO, did some have you forgotten your password/username? help thing. THEEN, sent it to pris' email, THEN we prolly realised that the link can only be used once, THEEN we had to do the help thing all over. and now FINALLY this blogspace is up! *claps for the sheer difficulty of it all* haha, okay larh, i AM sad! gone case liao, techno dino until cannot be even worse liao
-anne