when you never seem to get it right

):

the finality of prom is going to hit me soon

but for now, i hide from the barrage of emotions
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mellifluous, dulcet tones
the Conductor's in control
and the baton gently coaxes the tunes forth
a symphony of communication
a myriad of overtones
two in perfect harmony

strings twang, keys clash
pay no heed to the pendulous baton
the Conductor's just a figment of the imagination
a cacophony of noise
meant-to-bes lost in the crashing waves
once upon a song
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we can be SWORN SIBILINGS
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fatjojohead* so close; i believe You're holding me now (: says:
OKAY YOU CAN BE MY DIDI

round and round the mulberry bush; i'm going to vomit soon

bring me 6 years back to bowl haircuts, captain's ball, sliding windows, dual prefect pledges, journals and starwars, lightsabres, panasonics that were meant to be, candles that never melt and away from

post a levels

It has been exactly a week since I, along with thousands others, heaved a sigh of relief as A levels finally drew to an end. We had been working so hard the past few months for this major episode in our life, that all of a sudden, when we reach the end, I feel abit empty, abit lost. Either way, I suppose it is a good thing that we've done what we set out to do, and now is a new journey for us to choose to take. The first few days of 'freedom' saw some of us catching up on sleep, while others *cough cough, caught up with friends (see the photos below haha). And i guess the general sentiment deep down, was that with the disappearance of exams for at least the next half year, it is time to catch up on dreams and silly things that we had put aside. For some it's sports, maybe to others it's photography, maybe even blogging and using Facebook, comp games, reading, shopping, learning how to cook, well at least the last one applies to me. All of a sudden, you no longer have to rush to that scrunched up piece of timetable to direct your day, everything rests in your own hands - how you spend each day, and your future. 

Let's see. I've been spending the past week on uni applications (done), a trip to malaysia (fun), packing my room (a must) and random stuff on the comp that don't seem to register much on my memory now. frivolous stuff? a sign of regression? maybe intellectually, should we define improvement as keeping our minds busily engaged in academic stuff, research for 'meaningful' purposes, and writing tonnes of essays. yet again, maybe it is finally the time where we can discover ourselves. everyone does it in their own way, i don't know how mine might be, but i suppose time will reveal it to me. i'm going to try to stop using the word bored to describe my situation for the rest of the long long break. perhaps it is better to think of it as having time for yourself. a situation that adults worrying about everything under the sun will be so envious of. a situation that just a few weeks ago, you would have died to be in. 

i'm not sure if this is the common consensus, maybe we all like to do something worthwhile, something of significance to touch others' lives, something that would brand this break productive and meaningful. yet in the search of a job that can bring us financial satisfaction, an internship that will give us a notch ahead the rest in college, a new experience that will not let time just fly pass so quickly, we might just end up getting so caught up in the product once more. the same situation that we went through during A levels' preparation, that we forget to stop and take in the view, to appreciate the friendships that have been with us, and might just disappear in a twinkling of an eye as new paths form, and more often than not diverge. surely we can still meet up, there's facebook, msn, sms, the phone (if any of us actually use it often nowadays), or even the christmas card. but schedules still clash despite this relative freedom. then when will be ever free to invest our time and effort into maintaining friendships and relationships? I suppose when it comes to this point, we must learn to stop finding excuses, and just find the will. 

What's my next 6 months going to look like?i guess guys know the answer. i'm going to start writing my journal again. and i think when that starts, i'll hibernate once again, and stop writing here. no matter how much we like to believe that we can just dump all our emotions and thoughts over here, i still practice selfcensor. though it's always the same people reading the blog. and it just doesn't have that warm feeling, allowing you to scribble in your ugliest handwriting, or draw random pictures. and i dont' like putting photos here. and i believe the blog will still be alive so no worries! im going to practice my piano more regularly now cos it's something that i like but has been put off. ill try to learn how to cook, anyone willing to offer me free cooking lessons or an oven? i am going to read - any suggestions of nice books? and i'm going to enjoy myself, do what i want, not what i'm supposed to be doing, so maybe i wouldn't bother finding a job either.

 maybe it's just me, but i think most importantly, it's the people that count. with so much time, there's no better way to spend it, than with friends you have lost touch with, friends that you want to keep in touch with, and friends that know you would keep in touch with. yup that's all for now. i'm not bored anymore yay!

Pris

how do you spell post-As in just 7 letters? (i had to use my fingers omg its should be 10 letters : r.e.g.r.e.s.s.i.o.n. instead)

M A D N E S S is how you'll spell it! but it's pure unadulterated fun (:

so. i dont care if this is exhibitionistic i'm going to recount all the days! haha cause my mommy just came back from her church resort camp and asked me what i've been up to and i could barely recall. oh dear mental regression is looking more and more like an apt description of post-As haha.

tues: the start of WHEEEEEEEE fun! hung around with siti lei grace jukie yay to grace and siti who sacrificed studying time to eat in the DESERTED canteen. whoa rj people either really know how to 1) party or 2) hide away studying. summary of the whole hour: we talked alot of rubbish. YAY! then we had pre-practice dance practice with juks and lei woohoo where there was this collumbarium man who was very amused EH FREE (AND GOOD) ENTERTAINMENT OKAY!

okay this is getting a little dry i dont think anyone wants to wade through chunks of text anyway. so uh okay then here goes. swenson's. ZAC EFRON. HSM3. i took a photo with zac! honest to goodness, i shall post it up soon. he was positively BEAMING. :D newton's. good food yumyum. random toilets with ANIMATED MIRRORS. lei and i wasted 5 minutes of our lives staring at it as it changed hahaha.

wed: spent the whole day at my grandparents' house! (((: made me feel really bad for not having spent more time with them so i promised to come kachiao them more. and my ahgong's so cute, we were comparing who's a bigger fan tong and he said he used to be able to eat 3 bowls of rice. then i told him i'll match him during dinner, then he laughed. okay doesnt sound funny but it was! for the record, i DID eat 3 bowls of rice :D woohoo fan tong ftw

thurs: makan date with lynette! ((: i know guidelines of ogl specifically highlighted NO FAVOURITISM but hey you dont begrudge a girl her few momentos from orientation do you. nette yen ygb6 ftw! few i stress. hahah okay joke ah joke ah. woohoo we traversed thomson ate at this really quaint restaurant and had cheese brownies!

then oh! class dinner at breeks the food was not bad and hahaha it was hilarious omg must remember all the quotable quotes!

(hello lei i ripped this off yr blog hope you dont mind ah :D)

after we've been shown to a table and grace was squeezed into the corner seat..

lei: did we say table for 13 or table for 5?

waiter to siti: can i clear this?

siti: oh yeah sure

grace: eh no. i want the carrots

everyone: MIRROR FACE. PAK JIAO FACE. i dont care everybody gave grace the mirror face okay

and we gave jukie her coffee-themed present! :D sorry i said the taboo word ): sorry jukie dont ask ahem ahem ahem and ahem to come after me okay ):

sorry i was quite snappish near the end of diner ): wanted to get home to my daddy fast cause he was home alone. and eh THANKYOU LEI for being underdressed together hahahah we both looked like going to beach ((:

fri: omg. totally too many things packed into one day. my head weakly waved a white flag, surrendered, caved in like a bad souffle and gave me the worst (or best, depending if you're me or my head) headache when i came home ): but well! dance in the morn HAHAHHAAHHAHA juks :O ;) :) :x okay emotes speak a thousand words. malehsia is so passe alr please HAHAH yes im talking about holiday destinations.

finally met up with markypoo! YAY \o/ were supposed to be random and go on makan trail so he nicely came over to rj and we went thomson again! hahah had ms clarity's oh my the bread pudding is simply divine. and the main course was pretty good too roasted chicken stuffed with shitake mushrooms yum. yayyy nice treat ((: then we realised we were too full so our makan trail only had one stop oops. then we went botanical gardens!!!!1111oneone had the most gorgeous time walking around, threatening to topple people into ponds, lying on the grass, feeding fishes and swans (lei! swan-powered batteries!), taking a million photos. (:

NOT MY IDEA! hahaha

swanie swan. like gownie gown. and yamie yam.

then had dinner and chatting session with ahgong and ahma before heading to church for camp prayer session (: really hope camp this year will be really good, and its like its building up to be one; where God can freely move and touch all of us over and over, and over again (: then went home and curled on the bed talking to daddy before getting sidetracked online again haha

sat: MOMMY AND MEIMEI ARE BACK! okay and so we're off to eat dinner soon so bai (:

today,

was simply divine (:

WOOHOOOOOO TO DAYS AND MONTHS ON END OF AWESOME HAPPY FUN!

Thank God for just bringing all of us through the entire period and for proving that He is in deed, greater than all things material. (:

"The Lord will keep you from all harm - He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." - psalm 121: 7 -8

i was thinking. if our lives were like HSM (!!!!!!), this would be the script for tmr:

at 8.59, everyone hecks the MCQ, stares at the clock and goes 16... 16.. 16.. more minutes..

at 9.13, we all whisper conspiratorically under bated breath, summer... summer... summer...

at 9.15, when the bell goes off (yes there will be a bell just for us) the teachers and invigilators all conveniently fade into oblivion and we
1) throw all our papers into the air
2) jump onto the tables and
3) start gyrating wildly to music over the PA system
everyone miraculously knows the song and the dance moves woohoo

but instead of All For One, we're probably going to croon along to As For All! oh yeah oh yeah

if you didn't get any of the MANY HSM references, tooo baddddd i told you to watch hsm alr! :D

HSM3 IS THE ABSOLUTE LOVE <3

except for stooopz zhaogeng queen! hahahahah

right here, i promise you somehow
that tomorrow can wait
for some other day to be
but right now there's you and me

awwwww (:

until i figure out how to put songs/videos you'll have to do the work yourselves!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW-1Ytwn4a4&feature=related

AND

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bD7iJb9Hl70&feature=channel

dont be silly and not watch them k. CONFIRM CHOPSTAMP GUARANTEE WILL MAKE YOUR DAY MONEY BACK GUARANTEE!*



*manymanymany terms and conditions and legalese in fine print apply

when the As finally end, i'm going to get re-acquainted with myself (:

i hope i have a good time

slipping sliding twisting turning
little rivulets shot through the heart with tints of red
and flecks of gold
plip plop splish splash
framed against dark mahogany
and streaks of silver

i like nights that dont really feel like nights; like it's a neverending twilight

have you ever seen something so beautiful that there's this queer ache inside of you?

ctrl s

I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. Excellence, I can reach for; perfection is God's business. - Michael J. Fox

amen and so the As are best left in His capable hands (:

and awwww markypoo is the bestestestestest cant wait for As to end and catch up over b&j! yayy haha anneth and marketh ftw the past never really does let us out of its sight sometimes; which mayn't be a very bad thing sometimes (: