God indeed is Love, the epitome of it and He loves us to such an incomparable measure! (:

haha and look! there's this fb page for Christian pickup lines hahahahah super funny!!

15. "i believe one of my ribs belongs to you." HAHAHAHAHAHHAH

24. "mark driscoll takes up 35% of my ipod memory."

12. "the word says 'Give drink to those who are thirsty, and feed the hungry'; how about dinner?"

6. "you are perfect, except with all the sin."

29. "bible-gateway happens to be my homepage."

38. "now i know why Solomon had 700 wives... Because he never met you."

47. "how many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?" HAHAHHAAH THIS ONE IS SUPER WITTY! hahahhahahahahahahahha

52. "unfortunately i cant perform miracles and ive only got enough bread and fish for 2 people."

60. "if i had to choose between a romantic date with you or a night with the fellas... i would sit at home and read my bible." hahahah super cheeky la!

62. "welcome to the christian family... the only family where brothers and sisters can marry each other" HAHAHAHHA!

69. "if we were around with noah... then you, me... pair." HAHAHAHAHHA

omg okay i shall stop posting just go read hahahh super funny! http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=7174245379 teehee :D

HELLO GUYS DONT SAY I NV HELP YOU ALL HOR HOR HOR! :P

it's undeniably tinged with smatterings of chatterings. but what's refined through fire only becomes stronger as the dross is burnt away. and i will still hold on to You.

if don moen was my age and in singapore, it's HELLO PLS SHOO EVERYBODY HE IS MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE. haha

hmm holding out for a hero

mommy says i think too much. rugbyball says i think too much. okay. I THINK TOO MUCH!!! *switches off* haha time to start living again and stop worrying WOOOOHOOOOOOOO (Y)(Y)(Y) (R)(R)(R)(R)(R) <> <> <> OOO OOO OOO

and Merry Christmas loves! (: God plans everything so imma be a heypie girlie and NO MOAR WORRIES lalalalalalalalalalala boing

was walking from the mrt to the interchange after meeting awesome 5ofus, loved having jukie back and hearing all the girlish laughters and reminiscing about volcanic eruptions with misplaced limbs haha.

and the faint strains of music playing drifted past my ears. and i dont know how it gets better than this. You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless. And i dont know why but with you i'd dance, in a storm in my best dress, fearless.

and suddenly it felt as though i was starring in my own music video, like everyone else around me just blurs and in the hustle and bustle of all the activities, i'm just gliding through in fluid motion as the music plays on in the background. haha haven't you ever felt like that?

then i just thought of brooke fraser's love is waiting again haha. feels like there's a theme song to every year of growing up. this gives me license to chuckle at the bygone days of j1 where grace proudly declared over you by daughtry as my anthem HAHA.

what would have been really scary would be if i was the sole director of my music video where i have nought a clue as to how life is like. but here's the most reassuring part, that God's my Director, He's my Producer, the soundman, the gaffer, every single role rolled into one. And guess what He writes the best stories, if the actors would just listen to his directions :) cause He is the scriptwriter after all. :) sometimes the actors/actresses get befuddled in all the cacophony of sounds and we lose sight, or perfunctorily tune out His voice, but He never gives up on us.(:

i've got the fever, i'm hot and i can't be stopped

this time no one can come and suan me and say that i'm lying during the cheer HAHAHA. my eyeballs feel like they're burning up omg haha

i think i'm tired.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRlz64jPrrw

was pseudo-dancing PSEUDO haha to this on the mrt when it came on shuffle. and i miss the familiar days of being spoonfed. and of green skirts and white untucked blouses. of falling off canteen chairs from laughing too hard. michael jackson drinks. "lai boyyyy order". red apple da bei sao ping jia nata bu yao tang! (haha juks). secret toilets. naughty classes chem lec group. morning sv sessions. amphi theatre - both the awesome and the painful. a millionmillion more.

remember the past. cherish the present. and eagerly anticipate the future i guess.

but now, i dont know why. i just dont feel up to be energised. to be the kooky crazy woohoo one, to be the sensible, responsible, dependable one. to be any form of pillar of support.

today's today. and i'll let myself be. but tomorrow will be better and God's still in control. :)

HI LEI I LOVE YOU! :D i know you'll see this haha so yes I LUBBS CHEW DIPZ DIPX (like pull yr skirt, shake yr hand in toilet, hit yr *oo**** deep) HAHA <3 <3 <3

i'm a carnivorous girl. i just told my sis i want to bite off a hunk of meat and ROAR just chew my way through a whole chunk of duck. i'm hungry :(

i'm a stickler for anything that has my name pre-printed on it. either that or i'm just too lazy to write my name.

I'M HUNGRY!!! I NEED TO FIND A HUNK OF MEAT TO BITE OFF OHM-NOM-NOM BUT ALL MY MOMMY GIVES ME IS A PLATE OF FRUITS! I'M A GROWING GIRL I HAVE NEEDS I NEED MY MEAT!!!!!!!

okay certifiable insane.

is the cat opposite the road.

HAHA okay roar guava honeydew and persimmon TURN INTO DUCK CHICKEN AND BEEF NOW!

:'(

because words cant adequately capture the tumult of emotions and thoughts all mired deep in me, but they're still one of the few ways, the few channels that sometimes unties this knot inside

things that made me happy, happier but for the blight that keeps settling at the back of my mind, wedging itself in like a wholly unwelcomed intruder;

mommy: God is ranked #1, then my daughter #2 *snuggles with said daughter haha*
said daughter: what about papa? #3 ah?
mommy: ya #3 la
said daughter: hey papa! mommy says God is #1 then im #2 and you're #3 HAHAHAH YAY!
papa: eh sure anot? not #4 meh
mommy: *whispers* he's just glad he's not at the bottom

while watching singapore idol
mommy: eh i got smth to show you! one of the contestants has the name of the cat we read in the book last time! TAH-BEE-HA!
*hahaha long-standing joke on how my mom pronounced tabitha

mei: eh you know last time the sea thing you grow in the tank? the moose product? what was it called?
fatjojo: errr wait wait i know i know lemme think
mommy: sea cucumber ah?
mei and fatjojo: *HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
*it was sea monkeys hahaha

mei: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA *upon seeing the fatboy in UP in the newspaper again* *shows mommy* so cute right!
mommy: but he's not real!
fatjojo: he's so fat he doesnt even have a neck la!
mei: HAHAHHAHAH

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i wonder how many people feel the need to put up a facade sometimes. i guess when asked in a room full of people and all eyes truly closed, every single hand would be up, a secret white flag of surrender that says sometimes i hide how i feel, sometimes im crying so hard inside but the most brilliant smile dances upon my lips

i think the hardest thing and one of the most terrible feeling in the world is to know that you've hurt someone. when you have in your capacity the power to not hurt the person. when the decision is yours and solely yours to make. i never ever ever EVER want to have anyone hurt due to my actions. well in all fairness, this vehement refusal is definitely more marked for those i hold dear to me.

i wonder if a strong sense of avoidance, of the prevention of hurt could actually evolve into a sort of bind

it's all about You, Jesus
it's not about me,
as if You should do things my way
You alone are God
and i surrender
to Your ways

there's a dam of questions, of wordless emotions, of flitting thoughts that dont really settle that's just waiting to burst forth. but the lack of words stem its flow. I want God's will for my life, i want His best, i want Him, i want to want His will. but i won't deny that there have been times when the road gets trying. there have been times when i've just felt so blahh and why do i have to live life right everyone around me has had their chance to make their mistakes to just be not so good. but that doesn't mean He is any less real. God doesn't promise an easy life, utopian and utterly stress-free but He promises that He'll always be there, that no matter what, He holds our hands and is there every single, minute, step of the way.

i never liked asking people for favours haha cause i'll feel like i've imposed on them alot. but i ask this of those of you who are reading, i ask for your prayers; for the love and the support from brothers and sisters in Christ. (: to grow more like Jesus and live my life as a true testimony for Him. be blessed, loves (:

<3

markypoo just sent this to me and whoa. God is really amazing with His perfect timing; just as the whole world runs helter-skleter with heady inroads into bgr and stuff and this little noob here is just beginning to mature, He sends me His guidance in the form of timely words and friends (: really truly thank God (: it's a pretty long read, but really inspiring (:

8 Characteristics of Mr. or Ms. Right - Julie Ferwerda

Do you ever wonder if the person you're dating is God's best choice of a mate for you but the answer isn't clear? Determining the person God wants you to spend the rest of your life with is a critical decision, one that requires putting aside personal agendas and desires, in order to consider the most important thing: What is God trying to tell me about this relationship?

Below are some characteristics that I believe are consistent with the kind of
person God would provide for you to spend your life with, assuming you are His
best for someone else. It works both ways. God will not give you His best if you
are not already His best for someone else. So make sure to measure yourself against these criteria as well.

PASSIONATE

Ask: Does this person seek out God willingly and eagerly on his or her own? When it comes to growing spiritually, does he/she read the Bible, pray, and go to church even without me? Does this person have a passion for God?

Remember: God's best will have a growing relationship with Him that is genuine, fresh, and intimate in a way that is noticeably working out in their life consistently. In short, he/she won't be able to leave God alone with or
without you.

PRAYER

Ask: Does this person pray regularly? Does he/she easily pray with me or infront of others? Does he/she talk about personal prayer concerns and answered prayers?

Remember: A marriage without prayer is like a light bulb with no electricity. God's best will be someone who is conversing with Him on a regular basis to obtain direction in life, intimacy with God, and to invest in the lives of others.

PURE

Ask: Is this person determined to wait until marriage to have sex? Do his/her actions match his/her words when he/she tells me he/she wants to be pure and honor God before marriage? Does this person work hard to avoid a physical relationship, avoiding the limits and demonstrating a commitment to honoring my purity above his/her own selfish interests?

Remember: I believe a great 'barometer' of a person's walk with God is whether he/she tries to entice you into sexual sin or not. If he/she truly loves God and wants to be obediently set apart for Him, there won't be any excuses, playing with fire, or compromises. This person will honor God above his/her own selfish desires, and because of that he/she will honor and love you enough to protect your body until marriage as well.

TEACHABLE

Ask: Does this person ask for help? Does he/she admit when he/she is wrong and say "I'm sorry"? Does he/she seek out godly counsel? Does he/she respect God-given authority in his/her life? Is he/she repentant and obedient in matters with God?

Remember: If a guy/gal is teachable with you and others, he/she will likely be
teachable with God. There is no greater security in marriage (especially for
women in the matter of submitting to their husbands) than trusting a mate who is
teachable before God and seeking His will above his/her own. A man or woman who is living to please God is someone you can trust with important decisions. Also, someone who willingly gives permission to others to speak truth into his/her life is a very wise and teachable person.

HONEST

Ask: Does this person tell you the truth even when it's hard? Does he/she communicate openly about his/her feelings, struggles, past, and failures? Does
this person take responsibility for his/her actions (own up) when he/she does something wrong or hurtful? Does he/she ever twist the truth or minimize to get out of trouble or make himself/herself look better?

Remember: Counting on your partner's word in marriage is vital. In a dating
relationship, there should be all the signs of honesty and openness. The person
you are dating should be willing to open up and talk about the hard areas of his/her life, he/she shouldn't try to hide or twist truth, and he/she should take responsibility when he/she does something wrong. He/she shouldn't even be afraid to admit when he/she messes up.

WHOLE

Ask: Does this person place his/her hopes, expectations, and emotional needs primarily in God? During difficult times does he/she try to fill up holes with the emotional support of other people (especially me)? Does he/she seem generally at peace or does he/she struggle with restlessness, addictions, or bad habits (alcohol, food issues or eating disorders, porn, drugs including prescriptions, over-spending, T.V., computer, sports, etc.)?

Remember: The person you marry cannot depend on you to make them happy, or to be there for them all the time. Watch what he/she does with pain or boredom. Does he/she avoid it, stuff it, or deal with it? Is he/she afraid to be quiet and still? You should be able to see him/her go to God with his/her emotional needs and hurts. Placing too much hope in each other or turning to anything but God with pain and boredom will eventually doom a marriage because only God can fill those "black holes." Only God can give true comfort, hope, and security.

SURRENDERED

Ask: Is this person stubbornly pursuing his/her plans and goals, or does he/she
frequently offer up his/her life to God and His plans?

Remember: If the person you marry is living for himself or herself, you are not going to have the marriage God intended for you. Someone who is surrendered to God will open up doors for a great marriage adventure in God's plan!

FORGIVING

Ask: Does this person forgive and get over things easily? Does he/she treat people kindly who have hurt him/her in the past? Is there any area of bitterness or unforgiveness from his/her past that he/she has not dealt with that is frequently coming to the surface?

Remember: A person who can't forgive likely hasn't connected with God's forgiveness toward him/her. This person will bring bitterness into your marriage which will affect you, too. People who are forgiving recognize that God is ultimately in control, which frees them up to let go of offenses and be at peace. This will work in your favor when you have marital conflict!

If, after reading over this list, you find that these traits are lacking in your own life, I encourage you to begin seeking to build these into your life. Getting into the Word and prayer daily, reading Christian help books, getting counseling if necessary, joining a Christian support group, and finding someone to encourage you or hold you accountable are all ways to get started on the path to change.

If you're in a serious relationship where you and your significant other are both more often than not characterized by the above traits, and you still can't determine God's will for the future, try these steps.

* Ask for input and prayer from trusted godly advisors. These could be your pastor, parents, close friends, accountability partners, cell leaders, or a pre-marriage counselor.
* Pray and/or fast for answers. Setting an agreed upon time away from each other for prayer and/or fasting could be very helpful in giving you wisdom and discernment.
* Pay attention to your spirit. If you can't say you have abiding peace about the relationship, pay attention. Peace (or lack thereof) can be one important way God is trying to tell you something.
* Wait. Perhaps God is not ready to reveal His plan for your relationship yet

someone told me this quite awhile back, but the truth of it didnt really weigh in as heavily until i was just randomly musing on things today.

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting him/her not to.
John Albert Halili

it's true isn't it? that's why above so many other things that we may prize, love's the one intangible that so many people, lyrics, books, movies... wax lyrical over, pine for, dream about, chase after, feel so much pain for. i guess that's why sometimes i'm so perplexed as to why it's treated so flippantly and oft bungled about.

there're always 2 flipsides to the same coin and i guess the same applies for this too. people talk about the many-splendored thing that love as a concept is yet i guess in the very same vein there's hesitation and more than a good bout of fear too. maybe fear's the wrong word, wariness and measured cautiousness would be more apt. sometimes i'ld look around me and wonder if i'm still a wee child, as yet untouched and unfounded to this weighty gift that seems to mature all who are bestowed with it.

maybe that's why brooke fraser's song, love is waiting resonates within me. when it's time to walk that way, we wanna walk it well. and well in God's line of plan as well, walking with Him holding both our hands and leading us in His ways.

1 Corinthians 13:13 sings the same tune as well, And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love cause God first showed the true, ultimate epitome of love by sending our Redemption, to give us all a Hope, a Purpose and eternal fellowship with a God that so loves us (:

haha i'm maturing am i not? :P