God indeed is Love, the epitome of it and He loves us to such an incomparable measure! (:

haha and look! there's this fb page for Christian pickup lines hahahahah super funny!!

15. "i believe one of my ribs belongs to you." HAHAHAHAHAHHAH

24. "mark driscoll takes up 35% of my ipod memory."

12. "the word says 'Give drink to those who are thirsty, and feed the hungry'; how about dinner?"

6. "you are perfect, except with all the sin."

29. "bible-gateway happens to be my homepage."

38. "now i know why Solomon had 700 wives... Because he never met you."

47. "how many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?" HAHAHHAAH THIS ONE IS SUPER WITTY! hahahhahahahahahahahha

52. "unfortunately i cant perform miracles and ive only got enough bread and fish for 2 people."

60. "if i had to choose between a romantic date with you or a night with the fellas... i would sit at home and read my bible." hahahah super cheeky la!

62. "welcome to the christian family... the only family where brothers and sisters can marry each other" HAHAHAHHA!

69. "if we were around with noah... then you, me... pair." HAHAHAHAHHA

omg okay i shall stop posting just go read hahahh super funny! http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=7174245379 teehee :D

HELLO GUYS DONT SAY I NV HELP YOU ALL HOR HOR HOR! :P

it's undeniably tinged with smatterings of chatterings. but what's refined through fire only becomes stronger as the dross is burnt away. and i will still hold on to You.

if don moen was my age and in singapore, it's HELLO PLS SHOO EVERYBODY HE IS MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE. haha

hmm holding out for a hero

mommy says i think too much. rugbyball says i think too much. okay. I THINK TOO MUCH!!! *switches off* haha time to start living again and stop worrying WOOOOHOOOOOOOO (Y)(Y)(Y) (R)(R)(R)(R)(R) <> <> <> OOO OOO OOO

and Merry Christmas loves! (: God plans everything so imma be a heypie girlie and NO MOAR WORRIES lalalalalalalalalalala boing

was walking from the mrt to the interchange after meeting awesome 5ofus, loved having jukie back and hearing all the girlish laughters and reminiscing about volcanic eruptions with misplaced limbs haha.

and the faint strains of music playing drifted past my ears. and i dont know how it gets better than this. You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless. And i dont know why but with you i'd dance, in a storm in my best dress, fearless.

and suddenly it felt as though i was starring in my own music video, like everyone else around me just blurs and in the hustle and bustle of all the activities, i'm just gliding through in fluid motion as the music plays on in the background. haha haven't you ever felt like that?

then i just thought of brooke fraser's love is waiting again haha. feels like there's a theme song to every year of growing up. this gives me license to chuckle at the bygone days of j1 where grace proudly declared over you by daughtry as my anthem HAHA.

what would have been really scary would be if i was the sole director of my music video where i have nought a clue as to how life is like. but here's the most reassuring part, that God's my Director, He's my Producer, the soundman, the gaffer, every single role rolled into one. And guess what He writes the best stories, if the actors would just listen to his directions :) cause He is the scriptwriter after all. :) sometimes the actors/actresses get befuddled in all the cacophony of sounds and we lose sight, or perfunctorily tune out His voice, but He never gives up on us.(:

i've got the fever, i'm hot and i can't be stopped

this time no one can come and suan me and say that i'm lying during the cheer HAHAHA. my eyeballs feel like they're burning up omg haha

i think i'm tired.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRlz64jPrrw

was pseudo-dancing PSEUDO haha to this on the mrt when it came on shuffle. and i miss the familiar days of being spoonfed. and of green skirts and white untucked blouses. of falling off canteen chairs from laughing too hard. michael jackson drinks. "lai boyyyy order". red apple da bei sao ping jia nata bu yao tang! (haha juks). secret toilets. naughty classes chem lec group. morning sv sessions. amphi theatre - both the awesome and the painful. a millionmillion more.

remember the past. cherish the present. and eagerly anticipate the future i guess.

but now, i dont know why. i just dont feel up to be energised. to be the kooky crazy woohoo one, to be the sensible, responsible, dependable one. to be any form of pillar of support.

today's today. and i'll let myself be. but tomorrow will be better and God's still in control. :)

HI LEI I LOVE YOU! :D i know you'll see this haha so yes I LUBBS CHEW DIPZ DIPX (like pull yr skirt, shake yr hand in toilet, hit yr *oo**** deep) HAHA <3 <3 <3

i'm a carnivorous girl. i just told my sis i want to bite off a hunk of meat and ROAR just chew my way through a whole chunk of duck. i'm hungry :(

i'm a stickler for anything that has my name pre-printed on it. either that or i'm just too lazy to write my name.

I'M HUNGRY!!! I NEED TO FIND A HUNK OF MEAT TO BITE OFF OHM-NOM-NOM BUT ALL MY MOMMY GIVES ME IS A PLATE OF FRUITS! I'M A GROWING GIRL I HAVE NEEDS I NEED MY MEAT!!!!!!!

okay certifiable insane.

is the cat opposite the road.

HAHA okay roar guava honeydew and persimmon TURN INTO DUCK CHICKEN AND BEEF NOW!

:'(

because words cant adequately capture the tumult of emotions and thoughts all mired deep in me, but they're still one of the few ways, the few channels that sometimes unties this knot inside

things that made me happy, happier but for the blight that keeps settling at the back of my mind, wedging itself in like a wholly unwelcomed intruder;

mommy: God is ranked #1, then my daughter #2 *snuggles with said daughter haha*
said daughter: what about papa? #3 ah?
mommy: ya #3 la
said daughter: hey papa! mommy says God is #1 then im #2 and you're #3 HAHAHAH YAY!
papa: eh sure anot? not #4 meh
mommy: *whispers* he's just glad he's not at the bottom

while watching singapore idol
mommy: eh i got smth to show you! one of the contestants has the name of the cat we read in the book last time! TAH-BEE-HA!
*hahaha long-standing joke on how my mom pronounced tabitha

mei: eh you know last time the sea thing you grow in the tank? the moose product? what was it called?
fatjojo: errr wait wait i know i know lemme think
mommy: sea cucumber ah?
mei and fatjojo: *HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
*it was sea monkeys hahaha

mei: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA *upon seeing the fatboy in UP in the newspaper again* *shows mommy* so cute right!
mommy: but he's not real!
fatjojo: he's so fat he doesnt even have a neck la!
mei: HAHAHHAHAH

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i wonder how many people feel the need to put up a facade sometimes. i guess when asked in a room full of people and all eyes truly closed, every single hand would be up, a secret white flag of surrender that says sometimes i hide how i feel, sometimes im crying so hard inside but the most brilliant smile dances upon my lips

i think the hardest thing and one of the most terrible feeling in the world is to know that you've hurt someone. when you have in your capacity the power to not hurt the person. when the decision is yours and solely yours to make. i never ever ever EVER want to have anyone hurt due to my actions. well in all fairness, this vehement refusal is definitely more marked for those i hold dear to me.

i wonder if a strong sense of avoidance, of the prevention of hurt could actually evolve into a sort of bind

it's all about You, Jesus
it's not about me,
as if You should do things my way
You alone are God
and i surrender
to Your ways

there's a dam of questions, of wordless emotions, of flitting thoughts that dont really settle that's just waiting to burst forth. but the lack of words stem its flow. I want God's will for my life, i want His best, i want Him, i want to want His will. but i won't deny that there have been times when the road gets trying. there have been times when i've just felt so blahh and why do i have to live life right everyone around me has had their chance to make their mistakes to just be not so good. but that doesn't mean He is any less real. God doesn't promise an easy life, utopian and utterly stress-free but He promises that He'll always be there, that no matter what, He holds our hands and is there every single, minute, step of the way.

i never liked asking people for favours haha cause i'll feel like i've imposed on them alot. but i ask this of those of you who are reading, i ask for your prayers; for the love and the support from brothers and sisters in Christ. (: to grow more like Jesus and live my life as a true testimony for Him. be blessed, loves (:

<3

markypoo just sent this to me and whoa. God is really amazing with His perfect timing; just as the whole world runs helter-skleter with heady inroads into bgr and stuff and this little noob here is just beginning to mature, He sends me His guidance in the form of timely words and friends (: really truly thank God (: it's a pretty long read, but really inspiring (:

8 Characteristics of Mr. or Ms. Right - Julie Ferwerda

Do you ever wonder if the person you're dating is God's best choice of a mate for you but the answer isn't clear? Determining the person God wants you to spend the rest of your life with is a critical decision, one that requires putting aside personal agendas and desires, in order to consider the most important thing: What is God trying to tell me about this relationship?

Below are some characteristics that I believe are consistent with the kind of
person God would provide for you to spend your life with, assuming you are His
best for someone else. It works both ways. God will not give you His best if you
are not already His best for someone else. So make sure to measure yourself against these criteria as well.

PASSIONATE

Ask: Does this person seek out God willingly and eagerly on his or her own? When it comes to growing spiritually, does he/she read the Bible, pray, and go to church even without me? Does this person have a passion for God?

Remember: God's best will have a growing relationship with Him that is genuine, fresh, and intimate in a way that is noticeably working out in their life consistently. In short, he/she won't be able to leave God alone with or
without you.

PRAYER

Ask: Does this person pray regularly? Does he/she easily pray with me or infront of others? Does he/she talk about personal prayer concerns and answered prayers?

Remember: A marriage without prayer is like a light bulb with no electricity. God's best will be someone who is conversing with Him on a regular basis to obtain direction in life, intimacy with God, and to invest in the lives of others.

PURE

Ask: Is this person determined to wait until marriage to have sex? Do his/her actions match his/her words when he/she tells me he/she wants to be pure and honor God before marriage? Does this person work hard to avoid a physical relationship, avoiding the limits and demonstrating a commitment to honoring my purity above his/her own selfish interests?

Remember: I believe a great 'barometer' of a person's walk with God is whether he/she tries to entice you into sexual sin or not. If he/she truly loves God and wants to be obediently set apart for Him, there won't be any excuses, playing with fire, or compromises. This person will honor God above his/her own selfish desires, and because of that he/she will honor and love you enough to protect your body until marriage as well.

TEACHABLE

Ask: Does this person ask for help? Does he/she admit when he/she is wrong and say "I'm sorry"? Does he/she seek out godly counsel? Does he/she respect God-given authority in his/her life? Is he/she repentant and obedient in matters with God?

Remember: If a guy/gal is teachable with you and others, he/she will likely be
teachable with God. There is no greater security in marriage (especially for
women in the matter of submitting to their husbands) than trusting a mate who is
teachable before God and seeking His will above his/her own. A man or woman who is living to please God is someone you can trust with important decisions. Also, someone who willingly gives permission to others to speak truth into his/her life is a very wise and teachable person.

HONEST

Ask: Does this person tell you the truth even when it's hard? Does he/she communicate openly about his/her feelings, struggles, past, and failures? Does
this person take responsibility for his/her actions (own up) when he/she does something wrong or hurtful? Does he/she ever twist the truth or minimize to get out of trouble or make himself/herself look better?

Remember: Counting on your partner's word in marriage is vital. In a dating
relationship, there should be all the signs of honesty and openness. The person
you are dating should be willing to open up and talk about the hard areas of his/her life, he/she shouldn't try to hide or twist truth, and he/she should take responsibility when he/she does something wrong. He/she shouldn't even be afraid to admit when he/she messes up.

WHOLE

Ask: Does this person place his/her hopes, expectations, and emotional needs primarily in God? During difficult times does he/she try to fill up holes with the emotional support of other people (especially me)? Does he/she seem generally at peace or does he/she struggle with restlessness, addictions, or bad habits (alcohol, food issues or eating disorders, porn, drugs including prescriptions, over-spending, T.V., computer, sports, etc.)?

Remember: The person you marry cannot depend on you to make them happy, or to be there for them all the time. Watch what he/she does with pain or boredom. Does he/she avoid it, stuff it, or deal with it? Is he/she afraid to be quiet and still? You should be able to see him/her go to God with his/her emotional needs and hurts. Placing too much hope in each other or turning to anything but God with pain and boredom will eventually doom a marriage because only God can fill those "black holes." Only God can give true comfort, hope, and security.

SURRENDERED

Ask: Is this person stubbornly pursuing his/her plans and goals, or does he/she
frequently offer up his/her life to God and His plans?

Remember: If the person you marry is living for himself or herself, you are not going to have the marriage God intended for you. Someone who is surrendered to God will open up doors for a great marriage adventure in God's plan!

FORGIVING

Ask: Does this person forgive and get over things easily? Does he/she treat people kindly who have hurt him/her in the past? Is there any area of bitterness or unforgiveness from his/her past that he/she has not dealt with that is frequently coming to the surface?

Remember: A person who can't forgive likely hasn't connected with God's forgiveness toward him/her. This person will bring bitterness into your marriage which will affect you, too. People who are forgiving recognize that God is ultimately in control, which frees them up to let go of offenses and be at peace. This will work in your favor when you have marital conflict!

If, after reading over this list, you find that these traits are lacking in your own life, I encourage you to begin seeking to build these into your life. Getting into the Word and prayer daily, reading Christian help books, getting counseling if necessary, joining a Christian support group, and finding someone to encourage you or hold you accountable are all ways to get started on the path to change.

If you're in a serious relationship where you and your significant other are both more often than not characterized by the above traits, and you still can't determine God's will for the future, try these steps.

* Ask for input and prayer from trusted godly advisors. These could be your pastor, parents, close friends, accountability partners, cell leaders, or a pre-marriage counselor.
* Pray and/or fast for answers. Setting an agreed upon time away from each other for prayer and/or fasting could be very helpful in giving you wisdom and discernment.
* Pay attention to your spirit. If you can't say you have abiding peace about the relationship, pay attention. Peace (or lack thereof) can be one important way God is trying to tell you something.
* Wait. Perhaps God is not ready to reveal His plan for your relationship yet

someone told me this quite awhile back, but the truth of it didnt really weigh in as heavily until i was just randomly musing on things today.

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting him/her not to.
John Albert Halili

it's true isn't it? that's why above so many other things that we may prize, love's the one intangible that so many people, lyrics, books, movies... wax lyrical over, pine for, dream about, chase after, feel so much pain for. i guess that's why sometimes i'm so perplexed as to why it's treated so flippantly and oft bungled about.

there're always 2 flipsides to the same coin and i guess the same applies for this too. people talk about the many-splendored thing that love as a concept is yet i guess in the very same vein there's hesitation and more than a good bout of fear too. maybe fear's the wrong word, wariness and measured cautiousness would be more apt. sometimes i'ld look around me and wonder if i'm still a wee child, as yet untouched and unfounded to this weighty gift that seems to mature all who are bestowed with it.

maybe that's why brooke fraser's song, love is waiting resonates within me. when it's time to walk that way, we wanna walk it well. and well in God's line of plan as well, walking with Him holding both our hands and leading us in His ways.

1 Corinthians 13:13 sings the same tune as well, And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love cause God first showed the true, ultimate epitome of love by sending our Redemption, to give us all a Hope, a Purpose and eternal fellowship with a God that so loves us (:

haha i'm maturing am i not? :P

aiyah whatevs. WHATEVS WHATEVS WHATEVS. like siti would say, i blame it on my big t! stupid oscillations.

oh whisk me away
to lands far and beyond
when i perch on treetops, privy to the wind's whisperings
where i lie on pastures and count clouds dotting the horizon

sometimes it's funny how my future post-uni seems to have already been carved out yet my uni life is ever so fluid, malleable and formless for me and God to shape as He pleases. it's such a thrill sometimes that i scarcely can fathom the fields of opportunities that i want to take hold of. i want to explore new cities, encounter new cultures, be constantly challenged and inspired by the worlds of knowledge all around me, i want to hold on to dears who have walked me through life, i want to soar, beyond what my tiny consciousness can comprehend.

life is delicious and i thank God for His daily mercies (:

i wonder if it's possible for a major integral mindset that has accompanied me for the past 19 years of my life to be an absolute farce, an absolute lie afterall. havent realised till it hit me today as i was randomly musing on things, that i take for granted that just as long i put in the effort, success or its equivalent will be bound to follow.

when you've been told repeatedly since young that you can achieve anything and everyth you put yr mind to, and when it has always seemed to be the case, i guess it gets bewildering when hey! you suddenly realise that maybe effort's not a direct 1 on 1 function mapping straight to perfection.

ahhh maybe all along since pri sch sec sch jc, i've been too used to idk doing well enough that the realisation that sometimes, maybe, no matter how hard i may try or think i've done my best, there's an ultimate asymptote that i cant ever cross. was just talking to m the other day that maybe the whole shizz on ra-ra and hwachie is that they school into us the mindset that we can do ANYTH and EVERYTH and the world's ours for the taking and we believe and MAYBE that's not really the case?

oh i do wish i was smarter sometimes! *echoes jukie* haha

ROARRRRRRRRRR. OH TRUFFLES AND PIFFLES AND GOOBLEGDYGOOK AND PAUSE PLAY REWIND RESTART THROW ALL MANNER OF EMOTION AWAY SHIFT PERIOD SEMICOLON NAIGHN!!!

sometimes i wonder if i live vicariously through stalking my friends HAHA. looking at all their amazing experiences and adventures trundling through uni life in their assorted campuses overseas really makes me yearn for the same set of experience. the thrill of an entirely new culture, facing each day with wondrous rapture as to what new discoveries you can make, it's like pseudo-perma-holiday!

life's pretty much like those stories where you can choose your ending by switching to different story plots at the end of every chapter. but unlike those times, we cant rewind and choose another plot just to "see how things turn out". there's a reason why im in singapore, in nus and in engin and biz. and it's going to be a blast of a ride AND IM GOING TO MAKE EVERY MOMENT COUNT :)

"Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; He is the faithful God, keeping His covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love Him and keep His commands." (Deuteronomy 7:9)

"But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect," - 1 Peter 3:15

i want to love You higher than any other being, above any other thing in my life. And times i falter, i stumble, i lose my sense of direction, but You never let me go. It's amazing how i blunder along sometimes, but i am still your sheep and You are my Good Shepherd and i'm thankful for that (:

You gave Your life in Your endless love
You set me free and show the way
Now I am found

So close I believe You're holding me now in your hands I belong,
You'll never let me go

All along, You were beside me, even when I couldn't tell,
Through the years, You've shown me more of You

red sky in the evening
rolls of thunder gently rumbling across the expanse
a soulful sense of silent solitude permeates the air
as i sit and watch nature's concerto begin

the Conductor waves the baton and off the symphony starts!
a tentative prelude with rumbles of gumbles
outflashing of lights as the magic streaks across the velveteen sky
crescendo! and the pace picks up
forte! and the sounds reveberate all around
light pattering gives way to a magnificent climax

clashing, swirling, flashing, rumbling!

thunderous applause ensues from an unseen audience
flashbulbs pop where no cameras are

Thank God for His surprises
even for a rapt audience of one

(:
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ohmy that felt so therepeutic! haha i knew i had words trying to burst out of me but were kept repressed cause of the NUMBERS and EQUATIONS that i'm currently surrounded with haha. but i'm glad i'm where i am, for everything, and that God has His plans and i'm always always always held firmly in His hands (:

praise the God of earth and sky,
how beautiful is Your unfailing Love,
unfailing Love (:

everything, You hold in Your hands (:

i love mornings, love the quietness and stillness. the solitude that one can spend, cocooned in my own thoughts, gently enveloped by the love of God. (:

i realise, when i try to run my own life, try to make things work through my own strength, i inevitably make things messier. But when it's really submitted into God's sovereign hands, He works all things out for the good of those who love Him. (:

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." - 1 John 4:18

how true. (:

teetering on the brink of the unknown
visions dance before my eyes

cascades of water rushing below my feet;
a sheer drop all the way to nothingness
scattered rocks and outcroppings to impale on;
a vortex of quicksand whirling;

when's the time to take that leap of faith?

why is everyone else so sure of what to do? how do they know how to follow their hearts?

WHAT CANT I JUST LET GO FOR ONCE AND THROW ALL CAUTION TO THE WIND

it's the heart tht's afraid of falling that never learns to fly. i dont want i dont want i dont want my fear my indecisiveness my preoccupation with wanting to know everything that lies ahead my cautiousness to rob me of happiness.

BUT HOW WILL I EVER KNOW WHEN ITS RIGHT

on the tune of avril;
why do i have to go and make things so complicated

i really really really really dont wanna grow up. the intensity of everything scares me. the resoluteness of decisions, the concretisation of events.. and i rarely use ellipses so when i do....

i'm afraid of losing myself, afraid that the core of whoever i am/was/think i am, was merely a mirage. a figment of my idealised imagination. that all that's before me is as red miasma.

what scares me the most in the world right now? making decisions.

confusing confused confuzzled

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23

oh to be a truly fruit-bearing tree!

sometimes i wish i could keep my heart under lock and key and throw the key away

fling it into the deepest ravines
bury it into the depths of the ocean bed
whirled around in the mightiest of sandstorms

so i can be sure that when the key fits like a glove to the innermost compartments of my heart, it's the right key, for the right time, wielded by the right person.

i miss writing poems,
reams and reams of words conjoined in their infancy to pose as a smokescreen to my thoughts.

life's so much more complex and the world so much bigger than i ever thought it was. and i'm just beginning to realise how sheltered and blessed a life i've been living. ensconsed in my own happy bubble, viewing the world through eternally rose-tinted shades. i really thank God for how He's always held me in His hands, guided by His perfect plans.

uni's been a major growing experience. and like b said, there'll definitely be growing pains. but whatever i've been through, when i look back on them now with eyes renewed and heart strengthed, they don't seem as earthshakingly disastrous as when i was caught in the moment. funny how retrospection puts everything in a new spin and your past, present and future gallivant off into the sunset, striding along to pompous fanfare.

i think i still live in my own world where i'm the only one privy to the sights, sounds, feelings and thoughts of my own heartbeat. where sunshine seems to grace every single moment of my life (: and i really truly thank God for that (:

says:
oh did you know
says:
there was this china dude
says:
who went to a cosplay anime fair at suntec as yoggibear
says:
yogi bear
says:
and got kicked out






says:
cause yogi bear isn't an anime

HAHAHAHAHAH LAUGH YR HEARTS OUT

whoa so much has been going on that i don't think it's possible to update it here anymore. there's so much information on the surface, trivial bits of fluff that people sift through and base judgements on, to hypothesize about what's going on in your life. but i'm happy, i'm learning, i'm growing, i'm falling, i'm slipping, i'm getting up, i'm me

i thank God for His daily mercies and provisions and for all the favour showered (:

cheers to a whole new chapter (: let your head determine your place amongst the stars, but let your heart guide you there <3

treading softly through the wild tangles strewn at your feet,
you sidestep gingerly,
avoiding the prominent pitfalls that threaten to snag your every step
coming to a clearing,
the path ahead look innocuous enough

cautiously, you take a step
then another
before long, a chorus of footsteps blithely rings out

you careen down the fairway
anticipating the takeoff,
transiting from motion to flight

elevation affords you a new vantage point
and your eyes scour the path you've just streaked through

nettles and thorns
brambles and bushes
dot the seemingly clear ground
your limbs are scratched,
thorns embedded within your skin
and your heart leaks out through your gaping openness

plummeting
freefalling
innocence lost in a fleeting instance

faith camp

faith camp was a really inspirational, refreshing time and it felt like I have been far away from God. There's this pledge that I found in one of the workshop notes which was really beautiful. yes beautiful is the only word i can use to describe it, it's well beautiful.

"I will be with you, no matter what happens to us and between us. If you should become blind tomorrow, I will be there. If you achieve no success and attain no status in our society, I will be there. When we argue and are angry, as we inevitably will, I will work to bring us together. When we seem totally at angry, as we inevitably will, I will work to bring us together. When we seem totally at odds and neither of us is having needs fulfilled, I will persist in trying to understand and in trying to restore our relationship. When our marriage seems utterly sterile and going nowhere at all, I will believe that it can work and I will do my part to make it work. And when all is wonderful and we are happy, I will rejoice over our life together, and continue to strive to keep our relationship growing and strong."

I hope I can live up to such a commitment :)


Pris

i've really got to thank God for Faith camp. for all the immense amounts of insights and revelations, for just reaching deep inside of me and knowing all my thoughts, fears, hopes, dreams, hurts and joys even before i even knew them. and for just answering me in ways that i've never thought about, given me an assurance and confirmation of my place in His kingdom.

to be thought higher by the Most High King than what you yourself have ever felt, is just whoaa to the max.

and really thank God for all the wonderful friendships strengthened, especially on the last night. where the total lack of sleep except 1 hour was totally, totally worth it. talking to so many more mature individuals at various stages of their lifes, being in the same boat as me or already had the experience to advice me, was really very enriching. jamming away with weixiong and later david. singing all our sparklight songs with actions, sharing with cell, talking nonsense with tiffy, taking our 5am too outta yr brain photos, alvin the antm photographer, just talking and sharing with joanna weixiong rachel lionel and sososo much more.

God is an awesome awesome God; truly the only One deserving of all praise. even in moments when i've felt so insignificant and inadequate, He truly is the author and perfecter of our faith. :)

I CAN PLAY SAY IT AGAIN BY MARIE DIGBY ON THE GUITARRRRRR!!!!111ONEONE
and love story too if you'll ignore the one missing chord HAHAHA

fb quizzes ARE THE ANNOYINGEST THINGS ONLINE >: (

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT KNOW

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO PUBLISH EVERY SINGLE INANE QUIZ RESULT

if i were totally callous i would so change my status to

JOANNE CHAN BLOCKS PEOPLE WHO DO MORE THAN 4 QUIZZES AND PUBLISH THE STUPID RESULTS THAT SPAM THE DUMB HOME PAGE ROAR!

high five changz, this has to be the most annoying fb trend EVER

ROAR.
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ANYW! friends! kiv the following places yoz for outingzxzxz yays (((:

HENDERSON WAVES/MOUNT FABER
SOME APPARENTLY SUPER HUGE FUN DAZZLE LIKE THIGNY AT JURONG
(check this out!! Kidz Amaze, a three-storey high playground designed like a vertical maze, boasts an interactive play system suitable for adults and children above three.

It is also reputed to have the tallest foamball arena in Asia and one of the tallest indoor slides in the continent.) DOESNT THAT TOTALLY MAKE YOU WANT TO GO NAO?? :D

WILDWILDWETTTTT
UBIN CYCLING
TENNISSS courts
CHANGI BOARDWALKKKK
thisistotallynotinsaneokayzacefronlandthisisnotinsaneokaystoplaughing

when i'm feeling like bubblegumpop, spiced with more than a good bout of headbanging and generally feeling like i can play imaginary guitar riffs on the sidewalk and everyone will blur like in my very own music video

i'm ritually getting hooked to new teenybopper headbanging guitar riffing songs like avril's the best **** thing (i censor in my head okay) and taylor swift's you belong with me

SHE WEARS SHORT SKIRTS I WEAR TEESHIRTS
SHE'S CHEER CAPTAIN AND I'M ON THE BLEACHERSSSSSS
DREAMING ABOUT THE DAY WHEN YOU'LL WAKE UP AND FIND THAT WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR IS HERE THE WHOLE TIMEEEEEEE

*air guitar!!!!!*

on a related but irrelevant note, whenever saturday rolls around and mock credits roll in my head the theme song's always the boys are back HAHAHAH what a riot i laugh hahaha funny what

toodles!!

you're never really ever alone (:


6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31:6

You can have the prettiest clothes in the world, travelled to the furthest ends of the world, possess the greatest talent amongst many, but yet still feel so empty when you don't have someone you can share your life with, share your thoughts with, talk to the whole night, lean on the shoulder to cry upon.

Within your heart, keep one still, secret spot where dreams may go.
– louise driscoll

all these are my own works from the rubber stamping workshop with 137 at ms koh's house! super duper uber funnxorrs :D the designs are the stamps, but the colours of the designs and words and the shades are all done by meeeee kay :D ayam v proud of them as you can tell haha

i wonder how thomas edison felt after he invented the lightbulb. exhilaration, pride, relief, thankfulness..

i wonder if he ever felt scared to try another project. scared that hey, even if he could do it once, doesn't mean he could do it again. scared of being a one-hit wonder.

sometimes, i think, we're more afraid of our talents than what we dont have. what we never had, we can never lose. but what was once our crowning glory can just slip from our grasp.

pen to paper, i think sometimes i'm scared i'll lose my voice that flowed through ink. the part of me that seemed to engage all my attention as alphabets conjoined into words, weaving prose that looked like poetry in certain lights.
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in a dusty corner of the attic
a kite dangles limply from a hook
muted colours softly fading into the woodwork
it flew just once,
but not again
because
what if it never flew as high as it did before?
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oosh. not pessimistic, but pensive haha. i think i like writing because lessons we glean from life seem to stick better to paper than they do to our heads haha.

HI IM BACK!! AND IM PHAT!! AND MY LUGGAGE WENT FROM 9KG TO 17.8KG WHEN I CAME BACK HAHAHAHA. POSTULATES THAT I BOUGHT 10KG OF CLOTHES. G THINKS I SMUGGLED CUTE TAIWAN BOYS BACK -.- (they're gg to be pretty underweight) AND IM TERRIBAD AT BUYING SOUVENIRS ): BUT I HAVE PHOTOS!

i'll put them up soon! thanksgiving must be in order! (:

thank God for:
perfect weather
smooth customs transition
NO QUARANTINE!!! HAHAHAHA
great food
brilliant shopping
awesome company (((: <3
new friends in taiwan no less haha :D
extended wardrobe
HEINEKEN HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (no we didnt drink no worries)
FOOOD!
safe flight there and back! (esp when i flew back ALONEEEEE from taiwan to hk and transited ALL BY MYSELF im so proud)

thank God! ((:

eggcited!! just imagine. 10 girls bumbling about in taiwan/hk. AND HAVING THE TIME OF THEIR LIFES. just delicious. i'm so thankful (: thank you God, for love's really in the details. thank You for always taking care of them. (:

MISSES! KISSES! BISES! FISHES!! hahahah

i'm going to master breathe by taylor swift on the guitar, even though the lyrics are quite.. unlyrical. haha but the guitar riffs are suuuperb! and fearless too! haha guitar tuition anyone? :D and i HAVE to wrap my mind around collide cause so far i can only play the intro -.-, but apparently the entire song IS THE INTRO REPEATED -.- -.- -.- teehee.

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and just saying, that's not love.

two words: 17 again

one word: husband

one action: faints

to infinity and beyond! words: 17 again (and again and again and again and again and again...)

oh and check out the retro-ed hair he sported in the early bits of the show. i was like NO OH PLEASE FLOPPY HAIR FTW

i dare say dresses have got a wholly unwholesome hold (say that out loud) on me. a presently enjoyable, though frivolous pursuit that seems wont to ensnare me in its invitingly lustrous folds.

if you think me strange in the way of language i am currently uttering, blame not the influenced, but the influence!

hahah ok i shall quit the flowery language now. it's Jane Eyre! the influence that i speak so highly of haha. it's awesome to read, gripping in its storyline and makes you ponder the sentence structure and the way the author phrases emotions and thoughts. gives one a sort of childish joy at being able to make intelligent the long rambling sentences she writes of.

ANYWAY! the purpose of this post was to show the gorgeous dresses (and 1 top) that i'm besotted with. darn the internet. DARN ONLINE SHOPS. DARN ASOS WITH THEIR BEGUILING DRESSES!

LOOK AT THEM CAN YOU NOT IMAGINE THEIR FINERY!!! :O



and i've saved the best for last! i lovelovelove this colour this dress!



okay, i bet you think me a frivolous creature of shallow taste with little depth of mind. but think what you may, for i'm not disposed to write my innermost thoughts on a page such as this. okay jane eyre has too great an influence on me, i shall quit this page now hahaha.

I LOVE THIS. YOGGI ROCKS

and grace is the bomb. i dont know whether to be pleased or not HAHA:
msg 1: In celebration of zac efron's new movie 17 Again, does his wife want to treat me to watching his movie?
msg 2: I don't mind watchign w you cuz i'm free anw. But you treat me! I dont want to waste money watching zac efron ahah. Cheapo i know BUT THAT'S HIS VALUE TO ME :P WHAT THE PONGS!!

okay bye im going to stop posting for 1 week haha

today i laughed like JELLY. like crying jelly. omg and all the quotable quotes! cheryl and jess omg. "I WANT PRATA WITHOUT OIL!" "EAT DOUGH!" and a million other things and when our tissue prata came looking like some COLLAPSED TENT it totally took the mickey out of all of us. ahahahahahah and yane is forbidden from setting up the fb group, do YOU laugh at tissue prata? joannechan does. please support this lost cause. and we're going FEESHING NEXT WEEEEEKKKK!!! :D and jon is the awesome look at this

yane: "eh what time you gg army ah?"
jon: "er donch noe leh"
norman: "what school ah. school 2 is it?"
jon: "er donch noe leh. i think school 1 la"
jon: "or maybe school 2"
yane: "scarli you had to book in ytd lor"
jon: " er donch noe leh"
*PREGNANT PAUSE*
jon: "EH DONT LIKE THAT LA!!!!"

hahahaahahahahaahhahahaahahahh and when norman drove us home it was INSANE. i think i shall postpone all notion of driving lessons hahaha

oh eww gross. yuckxors.
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in other news, shift 6 shift 6!! :D

ohpongsicntblvidrmntbty tllmwhyimy

dnttrytxtrplt,dntrdmningsntowhrthrrnne

imy?

when you're one of those people for who emotions nip as keenly as physical touch; the littlest joys can send your spirits soaring, and the tiniest losses can cause the most lethal of heartcuts.

so in all, i just thank God, that i can feel a whole gamut of emotions and He holds my hand. (:

have you ever felt this wave of nostalgia just wash over you? i feel like i'm drowning in it. drowning in a sudden influx of memories, of feelings, emotions, thoughts, people that suddenly occupy my thoughts. it's not a pinpointable person/event/thing/whatever. it's just this sudden sense of loss; suddenly the things i miss seem to be things/people that will remain nothing more than memories. life's been good, very good in fact. and you meet so many new friends, people who make you laugh as hard. but it's not the same. life moves on, ebbs and flows. and we're expected to keep to the change in tides?

there's this really deep ache inside. not a < / 3 but an ache, for all things past and gone. stored in memories; yet indelible? that has yet to be answered.


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why?
a million whys clouding my head
turning it a grey murky mess
clouds to peek through
clouds to shelter
clouds to turn my insides helter-skelter

the kite flew once
you on the end of the string
and i twisting it around my finger
i thought you tied it on
for me
but in all truthiness
(this word does exist)
you were tugging to go
the string's broken
the kite's flown
yet still
still
i keep my fingers tightly wound

and it cuts

and all we need
is some wind
to fly my kite again
and blow my clouds
a w a y

omg i want this book!!!!!!!! plsplsplsplsplspls let borders or kino have it. plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

hi friends this will make yr day! and if yr day can be great, why settle for good? (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NNYfZd8iV2k

[55.5] <2015 yoggi> says: that screaming thing was the BABY?!
[55.5] <2015 yoggi> says: panda babies are loud shits
fatKOKOhead* Jesus, my heart must know i'm pleasing to You (: says: WHAT THE PONGS!!
[55.5] <2015 yoggi> says: okok
[55.5] <2015 yoggi> says: loud CUTE shits

hahahahahaahahah :D

Psalm 106:1
Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; His love endures forever.

(: all glory to God! teehee yayyyyy ((((:

andand I BE GOING TO HK/TAIWAN WITH 411 IN MAY YAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Romans 8:28
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

(:

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may sunshine always fill your heart
and rainbows paint your every morning
may thunderstorms not seek to last
and dancing be in place of mourning
may you continue to gaze upon God's works
with eyes ever as starry
and may you live and learn and love in life
and ladidumdidumdee (:

just to rush off a quick post, i'm still itching to do my arty-farty-crafty post but that sadly has been placed on the backburner because yous truly is now

EMPLOYED! hahaha. and the timing is so precisely specific that it's definitely God's hands guiding every moment of my life. and i'm so thankful! cause right as you know, i didnt want to jump into working so soon after the terror of As so turned down tip. didn't want to commit 9-5 for like 6 mths for an office job so there you go, i was happily hobnobbing around for 2 mths, having fun, going out, SUPPORTING THE ECONOMY. come to think of it, i had a job. i was the ECONOMY-SUPPORTER.

woots. and i didnt even need to take econs HAHA :D so yes then after 2 mths of being a sloth and generally abiding to my every whim and fancy, it all kinda got old. and sian. so registered with a few tuition agencies and thank God! the reply was so super fast so now i'm energised and raring to go, having slacked enough and now promptly and meaningfully occupied. yay!! so tuition 5 times a week now and later going down for interview with singapore children's society to help as a volunteer! i hope my schedule can fit their's though )):

so so thankful (: totally needn't have worried haha silly homo sapiens.

anyway! i cant take it i must post something to do with the crafts post, a sneak peek if you wish hahah.



this was totally cut out of paper. and peter callensen is a professional paper-cutter. how cool a profession is that! the intricate and delicate beauty of the entire paper structure is almost like prose shot through the heart to reveal poetry. love it love it. can view more of his works at http://www.petercallesen.com/index.html (:

yayyyy :D :D :D everything's multi-coloured again (:

Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

sorry for the teenage angst haha and thankewyous for caring (:

i'm going to do up a nice arty post soon on the many things that hands, heart and crafts can accomplish! yay! :D

i want to go to science centre soonsoonsoon, since it failed to become our class learning journey (no i havent gotten over that traumatic epic decision to not go science centre D:) haha maybe with markypoopoopooPOOPOO!!

i call my mommy; moomoo. so guess what papa's called?

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i'll put a flower in your hair ((((:

you know i cant decide between a veryvery happy post about how spoiled i am wrt my extended birthday celebrations or a rawrish one because of what im feeling now.

okay i decided to go with the rawrish one cause i need to give words to what im feeling NAO and i dont have all the photos from bday celebs so yes. this is going to be a very linguistically-challenged post so stop here if you cant stand mindless drivel.

eh why you still reading!



you like mindless drivel ah?






dont bluff.






i know you're bluffing. stop it.







okay not funny hahahahhahahahah. that shook me out of my rawrishness abit yay very good HAHAHHAHHAH welldone joanne you are a good self-motivator.

anyway. i think i'm one of those people who totally needs ALONE TIME. me time to MYS EFL. away from every single thing/person. sorry i love everyone alotalotalotalot and i mean it from the bottom of my heart but i think i'm going to totally lose it if i dont get to hermitcrabise myself SOON. even away from my family yes i just want time to MYSELF. to not talk to anyone, ignore smses/calls from my phone/ be SUPER ANTISOCIAL. reminds me of how we were discussing this last yr after - witnessed my total teary breakdown with the too many-commitments-on-my-plate fiasco which seems to repeat itself sporadically.

sorry world i'm just very tired of you.

yay mosaics are so fun! :D i shall do another one soon with more pictures haha cause PEOPLEEE are hoarding photos! haha but not their fault im lazy to bring my camera out. but now! i shall whip out my trusty samsung f480, woohoo i'm no techie but yes my parents surprised me with a new phone! haha cause the old one was really quite cmi even though i refused to part with it for so long. you can go guess what colour it is :D

and these are purity camp's photos! finally the camp cd's out haha. row by row, from left to right:

row 1: grp shot before games, SUPER awkward position balancing on 2 bricks!, posing with the bricks after we completed the bricky game firstttt

row 2: sunflower and i cheering with our grp's signature pose, whole camp shot!, now, this is hard to explain. we were all blindfolded and without communicating, had to find our whole grp and use a rafia string to form designated shapes. so yes david was amusing himself in our circle while we all couldnt see him. TOO BAD NOW WE CAN HAHAHAH.

row 3: sama game making a star i think haha, on stage doing our rendition of 12 days of Christmas!, gift exchange

:D
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"you've got to learn to be more impersonal jo. harden your heart or you won't make it. not everyone is a worthy recipient of warmth. dont love too readily"

really? but i like loving people. i like making little things for everybody and seeing when they're truly surprised and happy. but i understand now. there's special love which i'm saving and love to be shared freely. so i love you, with the love of Christ (:

OMG! i feel so dearly blessed (((: went to rj tdy even though it was RAINING and yoggi made me wait at ri for him to open the gate and made me get WET. and we whacked vectors for 2.5h. then 19 BALLOONS flooded the classroom and-

YOGGI: WAHPIANG! you all made me tank for 3 hours doing math la!
YOGGI: you do realise math tuition was supposed to be a scam right. you think i really do 3 qns in 3 hours ah? i was d*** distracted LA!

nette yen bao and yoggi are the love <3 joanne efron FTW and homemade cookiessss :D i'll never ever regret orientation no matter what HAHA REALLY HORH.

and mind cafe surprise too ((: and TOMORROW! and omg ffff scholarship interview and application on fri OMGGXXED and SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D :D :D :D i refuse to take photos on saturday HAHAHAHA and sundayyy too!! :D

everything happens for a reason. good, bad, a little inbetween. whether we understand why, how, who, what, WHYWHYWHYWHY whether we think we know better or not. we meet for a reason. we know each other for a reason. we live, we love, we cry, we hold each other for just a little more each time. we misread, we fall, we do silly things, we part, only to reunite again if and when we realise friends never do leave each others’ hearts.

it might not really make sense, but the person who can make you the happiest girl in the whole wide world, can also be the one who makes you feel the saddest. What should you do when this happens? Stop letting your feelings take control of you? 

i dont want it to be this way (too?)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3UBtRF1xsA
my fingers are blistering and i'm loving it :D haha i havent been listening to naz's advice to let it heal faster but yeah! i practise! :D heh and sorry nope i cant play that song YET but soonsoon i promise. can play 3 songs now wooohoo sunflower is a good teacher haha though my strumming pattern is still v wonky. i must find more time to practise instead of gallivanting off and letting kaching flow like water. love the opening intro and the strumming pattern of the chorus.

downPAUSEupdownupdownPAUSEupdownupdownPAUSEdownup (:

please dont assume you understand the reasons why

please dont assume the worst

I subscribe to this online daily bible verse, a reminder to me about God's importance especially so during our busy lives. Today it talked about the 10 commandments, and specifically the one about not having any other idols in our lives besides God.

Exodus 20: 4-5 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God" I think it rings true. Sometimes I put my priorities on other worldly things, and in that sense idolise them. It could be the value I put in trying to please someone, hoping to satisfy and fulfil another person's expectations, or the mindless pursuit of ideal love, maybe all we have to do, so as to better our lives and live a more fulfilled life, was to put our trust and faith in God. 

I found this on a random blog, but it seemed to make some sense.

"However we try, still a thing looks morally better because we want it. For that reason, our heart is often our worst counsellor, for it is filled with desire it may give us bad advice, pleading the purity of something that is in itself anything but pure." - A.W. TozerHowe

i love going back to rj! and walking down orchard/taka/ARTFRIEND!/up the bishan hill/sitting at houseboards/laughing at the frisbee bois/DOING VECTORS OMG BRAIN GYM!!! WE MISS!!/eating at j8/laughing over ---- ---- (now no more HAHAHA)/promising every month first sat!/sevendollarboxx ((((((:

only downer was.

shoobit artfriend ran out of felt! SHOOBIT! only restock in mid feb how! shoobit. time to comprain.

i have motivation to not post so much anymore cause i want to keep the poem up for as long as possible :D

"A Woman's Question"
by Lena Lathrop (from "I Kissed Dating Goodbye")

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life -
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what other have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts -
I look for a man and king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on his first
And say, "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

anabnswmtfilwutbtlgh club!

i wanna be a fruitloop in a world of cheerios

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to friends, to memories (:

bugis, marina square, esplanade, suntec, swensons ICECREAM! with b dear. Yes Man, ohmy noman 411. selegie tauhuey schizo busride <3. 3 2 1 !!! supper with c2 midnight swings slides prayers. <3 to <3, munchmunchmunch, shop3 with pox <3. usher meet w j v a e. smu transcripts flyy. omg wokenupmyidea. usher gm! leaders meet. ps spotlight drowning bears and ducks all in a line <3. breeks eeks HAHA. so i sew a little cake star heart smiley crown. tp open house crepckges (:. twong house whee wii. tidytidy house quarantine for once snugglysnuggly. prettydressday ms squishy hugshugs <3. 2dresses2blouses4inchheelsskirtbag shoppers' fatigue has yet a cure. baking! oreo cheesecake apple pie peanut butter and chocchip cookies (grilled) brownies HAHAHA :D. raffles 360 y y n <3 frisbee <3 :D. rafflesplace is such a cold place haha bridge over ruffled waters sitting talking hearts full <3. ahgong ahma lunch pufpuf dinners <3. ntu open house omg fly me overseas haha g. Holy Communion manual tiptaptippitytap v. heels in a keel dinner b (:. guitar at naz's house byebye soft fingers hello rockinrollingoodtimes :D. omg mudpie pfft HAHA. dinner naz wil.

PHEW. (:

don't drift don't drift. promise we won't

:D :)) !! :S :/ >( :P :D

i dont know what i feel now.

but i know i can choose.

so i do.

:D

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on a completely different note, t just introed this song to me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN7SG-H-3k and omggxxedwtp it's absolutely a gorgeous piece and here's the dealbreaker. I CAN PLAY IT!!!! :D :D :D :D :D okay i have to get my sleepyself off to cityhall NAO so i wont be late for dinnerzxzxz. going out everyday is very tiring leh! i have to scribble CHOPED in bigbig letters in my planner so noone can touch them. i feel very important when i say i have a planner. my mom adamantly refers to it as a NOTEBOOK. and the fact that it's pinkISH makes her say NOTEBOOK in much the same way as one would say BARBIEDOLLPLAYSET >( hahaha

it never stays the same for long

when you think things cant get any more complicated it's just a sign that it can

it's disconcerting how we can make the same mistakes AGAIN even though it flipping hurt

learn well jojo ANNE OH
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this week was good (:

life is exciting is exciting is exciting!!! (3 exclamation points and outflashing of eyes to underscore my point) i look at my dustypink planner and i just feel this surge of !!! :D :D :D and more outflashing of eyes at all the people i'm going to meet, all the things i'm going to do, the fun i'm squeezing in before the bell tolls on 31 january and cinders returns.

and even after this week ends and i settle down to less bouncy and more serious stuff, it just gets curiouser and curiouser as aptly encapsulated by alice. going to find out more about uni course and scholarships and talk to so many people about it too! really thank God at the way He's been moving in my life, sending people along my way to show me love and just guide me along. eugene and all his 2 years worth of NS wisdom about unis and courses, weixiong who gamely offered to hone my interview skills HAHAHA, zhiwei and law and just you, you and you (:

mommy's been right all along. to not set ~ down so fast even though ~ still seems wont on it. i'm going to try my harderestest to resist the temptations of msn and fb especially when i get home late and still WANT TO check my email. if i can, it's the entire week offline jojo. Nights should be better spent in deep contemplation, soul-searching, reading His Word and just drinking in the nectar of the dark. so toodles my loves, i'll be trying to live wireless (:

but of course. i'm not going to be so legalistic. I HAVE MY PHONE HAHA so throw away msn as a (pretty lousy) form of communication and make my day with a little inbox inhabitant sent my way (:

draft.draft.draft.draft.draft.
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yayy crepckgs! chckyrpostnsbys (:

sometimes the best advice comes from books, especially those with the Godly perspective. here's an excerpt from Boy Meets Girl that really spoke to me: 

Perhaps, after all, romance did not come into one's life with pomp and blare, like a gay knight riding down. Perhaps it crept to one's side like an old friend through quiet ways. Perhaps it revealed itself in seeming prose. until some sudden shaft of illumination flung athwart its pages betrayed the rhythm and the music. Perhaps... perhaps... love unfolded naturally out of a beautiful friendship, as a golden-hearted rose slipping from its green sheath.

How lovely this analogy. Sometimes it's better to just be friends. And let God choose our one friend to become our one true lover.

Pris

haha aww! this is so cool thanks c for the link (:

http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/nf-idyllic/2310-praise-infp-s.html

now to find my entp/enfp/enfj hahahaha
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i think we all hide behind happy facades and punctuation cause it hurts too much to show the real raw deal

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D23sjATRmQw&feature=related

Cos if I add, if I subtract
If I give it all, try to take some back
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
That you are the sum

i got a nice new planner! in my favourite colour with a pen in my favourite colour too! borders is super lousy only have ex planners like 78$ ?!?! and dont have the joshua harris book also LOUSY!

its dark maroon = dark brown + light white! :D and now only filled with 3 hearts, details for the past few days and BIRTHDAYS!! yes i resolve to not forget anyone's birthday this year and to faithfully use my planner until 31dec2010.

wish me luck haha i hope i can still find it by my birthday.

words obscure as much as they reveal. that's why it's easy to hide behind them. especially when they're toneless words, devoid of a specific pinpointable emotion. pretty much accounts for the popularity of msn and sms.

absurdity, rhythm and the spaces between words. sometimes matter more than the letters themselves

hugh jackman! who MAY just rival zac efron. note the use of MAY haha. and this!! is when he appeared at the ball and turned around so suavely and THE WHOLE THEATRE GASPED. haha not bad ah!

hmm

omg i'm so going to disown you if -

_ is ruining your life!

HAHAHA

hmm

not really

really?

white cloth strewn on the ground

trampled into the mud

remains white?

maybe

YES

teeming

flit flung fly

alice at the tea party

pretty porcelain placed

for the dormouse to sleep

and jolt awake-